My LiFe, My RuLez

2010-01-13T17:39:00.002+08:00

Life's been great, bad, lonley, moody, lovable and definitely memorable. There's ups and downs in every life so mine is not so that speacial or different than others.

Life in school is amazing. I can be totally myself without suffering any consequences! Its great to be in class. Eventhough we're supposed to study but our class bond is what is the best. I heard that we're supposed to be close with our first class but it seems like im even closer to this class than Kikos. Some of the Kikos are still in contact but we're not that close anymore, not even when we seperate last semester. During the last few weeks of Kikos, we can tell the cliques in the class already but this class... we're like one BIG bunch of monkeys!!

Everyday clubbing in class sia.. hahaha, so fun! It does helps us to relieve and forget the problems we had in our private lives for a while. 8 hours a day of W34J is fun! Plus.. this class has more cam-whores!! Hahaa.. I really really really dont wanna seperate from this class. Its sad and shocking to know that i'm left with 4 weeks with W34J. It seems like only yesterday when we're all met for the first time.

Bf is coming down next Tuesday! Im sooo excited!!! He took leave just to be with me for a day in school. How sweet... I'm gonna introduce him to my classmates! But it must be nerve racking for him since he doesnt like this kind of meeting much but i really wanna introduce them to him coz i'm proud of him and i want my friends to see the guy that stole my heart!

Met Zam's gf jst now.. LOL, Eunice was not happy to know that she's shorter than Mel (Zam's gf) LOL. Eunice went to see her bf for movie.. leaving me alone with no bf to see.. bf busy working.

Im really really one lucky lucky fuckin lucky girl in the world for having him. I wonder what i did right to deserve him? Whatever i did, thank u ALLAH for showing him to me..

Mummy works today... but she pack me food today and i share with PingHwee and Eunice. They liked my mummy's cooking!! Hahaha.. They stole my food.. haiya!!!!!

Anyway, time to go home now.. sian, hme still no internet but slowly2 lah hor.. my family got financial problem and living on super tight budget now.

Anyway, BYE!!! Love ya!!! to whoever readin~!!

2009-12-10T01:16:00.002+08:00

I lost my gaming and laughin buddy at home on Tuesday. The most irritating and always wished to be gone but yet i love him so much, my brother went to NS on Tuesday. I skip school tat day. Mum and I sent him off at his camp at the Choa Chu Kang Police Academy, near the cemetery but not that close, so shud be safe better than the army, directly infront sia...

The mornin was filled laughter and happiness, my bro talked n joked alot till the last minute where we say our goodbyes. I hold on to the tears as i see the back of my brother gone into the distance, mum tries her best to hold on too.. When we got onto the transport bus back to Choa Chu Kang MRT without my bro, i slowly tearing up.. slowly bit by bit my tears starts to swells up. I cried softly even before i know it. I was down.. Mum and I tried to cheer ourselves up by walkin ard, but nope.. it just reminds us more.

At hme, it was so damn empty. Super empty, his irritating laughter is missing. I want to watch movie to get rid of the loneliness, but hes my movie buddy. Play game? Hes my game buddy too.. I missed him.. i miss my lil brother... we've never been apart ever, except for camps and chalets stuff but never been apart. Always together..

It hurts mum too coz hes the closer one to mum. Mum misses him, she cries as well. She look liveless and bored all the time, shes more quiet and i havent seen a smile since Tuesday. It put pressure on me too coz its up to me to keep my mum company now in place of my brother. I have to bring the smile back to her face and assure that my brother is fine, will be fine. I cant go out often and i have to get back home on time. Im her only company now..

Dad doesnt seemed to care. He didnt ask anything about his son at all. NOTHING. Its dissapointing.

UT today, i mean yesterday for time wise. Cognitive was tougher than previous. Like duhh.. i got headache at the wrong timing for reading online story book. Siann.. My classmates is crazy as usual and their crazy antics bring smiles to my face despite its Maths with Vanessa Heng. Bf made me smile too with his msgs and concern. Thank u for ur care dear.. thank u so much for being there for me all the time.

Schools ending next week, i didnt knw until Nat and Arfin told me earlier. Haiz, i have to work, gotta earn money, i have pressies to buy!! Hmm... as what? I need a nice job that lasts me for 3 weeks.

Anyway.. im off to bed now, shud been asleep jst nw but smehw i cant sleep so i watch Hana Yori Dango Final again hahahaha.. life is changing again now without my brother. Wish me luck to get used to it. Cant wait for 18 Dec, my bro's comin hme..

Cant wait for this Sunday too! Double date with Nat n Surya (bf's gay partner). LOL..

Nites2!! XOXOXO! [Learned tat frm Jaz.. haha i remember callin 'fatso fatso'!]

2009-11-25T11:56:00.004+08:00

Life is super super stressful recently!!! Lack of sleep, smiles and i havent been eating properly as well. School life is great though. Attend every classes for 2 weeks straight without any problems, lateness and my grades are well. Lots of As, Bs and Cs. BUTTT!!!! Last Wednesday i partial and forgot to do RJ, welcome... my first D.. haiz....

Last Sunday was super duper awesome!! Hhahaha.. eventhough there's nothin much in Escape Theme Park now but we managed to have super much fun until we got home super late! I reached home at 10pm! Damn.. got scolded by mum. I admit, its my fault. I took advantage of my freedom for that day. Im sorie mum...

Pics uploaded on FB, it was 2 couple with Tom and Jerry. Nat, Surya, Arfin, Pamiko, dear and me. 6 of us super fun. Surya, Arfin and Dear somehow become gay for the day.. so damn funny! Surya and Dear got along so well until Nat and I loved the sight when they talked and laughed so much together. Arfin got home by bus since he lived near, Pamiko got her dad to pick her up. The rest of us took cab to Woodlands. Shared the bill.. dear send me home first as usual.

There were some trouble with me n dear as well involvin other guys. I didnt cheat or havin a affair if anyone readin this and this thought pops into ur head!! But we sort it out and i thank dear for bein so patient and thoughtful and open about me and my classmates...

Talked to mum yesterday, got into a fight again but tis time, i think we managed to work something out. I didnt realise i did sooo much mistake and i always thought i understand and knw mum.. but i just realise how wrong i was, my actions are all wrong. No wonder my relationship with mum is always on the rocks and somehow i used the same mistakes to dear which always leads to us fighting all the time.

I finally understand the truth and i promised to both mum and dear to change for better. I wanna take this chance to apologise to my frends as well... my girls... im really really sorie i've hurt u girls so much. We havent been hanging out much.. i wanna change for the better and i got the to do list written in case i forgot ahhaa..

I'll change but ill still keep the bubbly cherry girl in me that u guys love... ill keep smillin if u guys keep smillin for me as well...

i didnt realise how lucky am i to have u guys around me.. i took advantage of everything. Im sorie, ill change! Need time though.. haha.. im changing for mum, dear and for u girls! Wish me luck!!!

2009-11-17T18:01:00.000+08:00

A quicky update before i go home.. im in civic library! hahaa.. alone.. poor thing rite? Tsk Tsk, Nat nvr cme liao.. so i all alone lor... sian... today Designing, wahh... lucky got WeiCheng, he figure out everything and we're all ready for next week protoype! So fast UT2 prototype sia.. flashlight!

As usual, im always the only girl in the group. Haha!! But my team very fun leh.. haha.. so nice! Then we all do PPT and then we all stay bck in class to play NFS LAN hahaa... so funny! I win all the guys! Power rite? Girl u knw... beat the guys.. beat Corvette!! Hahah.. PingHwee!! LOSER!!! Hahaa.. stayed in class till like 5pm play the game with Zhee, PingHwee, WeiCheng, JueHao, Danial and Nizham... so funny sia.. tmr Eunice and WanRong joinin!!

Class becoming corrupted already haha... everyday horny. WAHAHAHA!! I ate Brownie with Ice Cream today, wahhhhh!! So nice!!

Tmr maths... sian sian sian like fuck!!! I dont like the faci... smiley smiley but then super strict, late submission, now i got downgrade. Fuck lahh... feel like nt comin to sch but then.. if i dont cme, i nvr understand even more sian..

Cant wait!! For this Sunday!! Finally got to see dear! Wahhh... 2 weeks havent seen him.. miss him lots lots!! Its gonna be a double date since Anaissa and her bf cannot make it. Pamiko and Arfin date later wahahhahaa!!!

i dont wanna go hme lehh...

So lonely... :(

2009-11-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! Im really really sorie to all. Seriously my life was upside down for a while. My hp was suspended bcoz of my bill.. sian... 500+ i heard!! hehhee... my msgs and overseas msgs n calls caused the most of it bcoz of 2 weeks in JB.

So ya... so i was without phone for like 2 weeks. I cant msg or call. It was ok at first coz i can still receive msgs and calls but then one day, totally cant.. i was sooo in the panic!! Luckily for me, i got chalet on the Wednesday, so i was able to contact dear.

Dear bought me prepaid. Im really really grateful to him, thanks love! I cant imagine my life without phone... now i see its importance! I still havent give out my new number yet, only dear, NatKiko and KazeKiko knows it.

Girls!!! Im really really terribly sorie about not making to the trip to celebrate the Bdays! I was in no way to contact. My Internet also kena cut off. So basically no contact to ANYONE at all for me. Im sorry ive made u girls worried! Thank u for worrying for me! Im fine! Do ask me for my number k? Coz i cant give out here on blog... eventhough only certain ppl knows it, its still public!

2 Reasons i cant make it on Saturday. 1st, cant contact!! 2nd, no money... really my family is really in a tight tight budget ladies... so im sorry if i cant make it for any other outings. I cant afford to spend extra money really. I have barely enough for transport and food for school, thanks to dear for helping me sometimes but then i cant keep using his money to fill my needs.

If its for just hanging out nearby where i can walk or so, maybe i could but if trips like outing we're always doing, im sorry i cant be there ladies.. and further more, im like banned from going out now. Mum becoming paranoid. The older i am, the more i have to be at home.

Its tough... advised from my dad: "Lay Low For a While".

But i have to make sure i can go out on the 29th November. Im celebrating that day with dear since it was the same day, we really had a great time for the first time together. At the Escape Theme Park. Its gonna be a triple date day... where me and dear together with Nat and her bf, Surya. We're asking Anaissa along with her bf.. haha.. triple date!

Friday, 13th. How worse can it be? Ohh ya... its MATHS UT!!!!! Siannn....

Im updating my blog by stealing wireless internet lol.. lagging liao but then its my only way to internet! Hahaha..

Anyway, i just wanna say im really sorrie to everyone for not being in contact!! Im sooo soorryyy!!! Do ask me for my number aites?! Ask me thru MSN!! dnt facebook later everyone knws hhahaahaa...

Love u girls!! n u too dear.. i know ur reading this! :) <3 <3

2009-10-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot bout blog lol.. I start my old habit again, missing frm sch. Haiz... but i stayed at h me instead of going smewhere else, mum hates it haha.. But the weird thing is, my classmates are ok, my school life is fun. My new classmates are crazy and fun and i still keep in touch with W15J so very often. So why?

I got this lazy bug on me. I dont know why. Things with mum is just so stressful, i wished things would turn around for good soon. Its my only wish i have. Watching Hana Yori Dango again. Haha, this time i somehow i understand more how they feel going thru all the challenges. Desperately want the mum to accept their relationship when the mum hates it and tries everyway to seperate them is tough. Standing tall and keeping yourself and the relationship bond strong is tough. Hurdle after hurdle, there's time when they tried to give up but manage to keep their sense. Tears is always around and when they just started to enjoy their time, it didnt last long as another hurdle already arrives.

But thru all that, they manage to get Tsukasa's mum willingly accept their relationship and lead a happy life, i thought to myself, will i get the same ending? I hope so.. so many hurdles will be coming soon. Makino and Domyouji got their frends helping them along the way, lucky for me i have mine too.. even though they didnt help much, putting a smile on my face is great enough, thank u to all...

I had Engineering Design pratical today. Hahaa... making the actual dustbin, tougher than it looks sia!!! We gt the whole day to do it today.. along the way, the class goofs offs with fake dick cutout from cardboard, Eunice was sooo hyper sia... we all had fun laughing like hell. To relieve stress from the task today haha. Next week we got half day to finish it up and then presentation.

Today no worksheet, no Problem statement, no presentation, no 6P! Heaven!!! Got RJ or nt? Ha.. never check!

Celebrate Deepavali at Nat's house last weekend, it was a blast! Meryvn was there, bf was there. Bf and Nat's bf, Surya, made frends together lol.. seeing them both walk together to the shop to buy ice so cute! hhahaa... Pics on FB, under "My Kikos" I suggest to Nat, we should go for double date, it will be sooo much fun!! and she agrees!! She plans a day at Siloso beach soon hhaa.. Anaissa shud jst go on with the malay guy, that way, we can have triple date!!!

December, Bf's werk, the company set up a family day and he invite 4 ppl for it, he invite me, Nat and Surya for it. Yay!!! We forgot to take us 4 as double couple shot.. haiya!!

2009-10-06T01:58:00.002+08:00

Its 2am in the morning n im still not sleepin, bf finds out, he'll kill me. The reason is? I already took a nap before for a bout 2hrs i tink. Since its the first day of semester. After 5 weeks of home, a little day in school tires me out. I guess my body is not used to it yet. Trauma of home n bed hahahaa...

So i went home and straight do my RJ, checkin up both bf n my fb. Somehow my eyes were sore from contact lens so i shut my eyes for a while to rest them eventually, i fell asleep till bf called. Got send to take a longer nap till 9.3opm starting frm 8pm. Till then, cant sleep.

I cant take naps... haiya... like caffeine like tat haha..

First day of school, everything new. Have to get used to everything again. New class, new modules, new block, new classmates. Sian.. but managed to meet ex-W15J, we missed each other! Awww... had a chat with Meryvn during the first break too.

Pyshics faci, wished it was Meryvn! Alvin lucky enough to got him! Argh!! My faci was i guess more into letting us figure it out type. He wont gives clues! Strict timing policies! My team mate was fun i guess.. another Yang Wei ahaha.. my presentation skills still varies with me talking like no making sense. Eventhough i already figure out wat to say, i lost my words when im infront!! Sian!!!

Classmates? Still havent got to know them i guess, i really missed everyone in the class.. haiz... well at least break, lunch n go hme time, we're all still together!!

Tmr Engineering Design module. New thing, need sme drawing diary. 3 bucks and can decorate the cover on our own! Ohhh.... need ideas to decorate! Whos good at drawing?! Well better catch sme Zzz before 6.45am!

Nite2!!! Well.. morning literally.. hahaha!!!

2009-10-04T00:08:00.003+08:00

Changed the blogskin!! need comments, previous one or this one? Tag!!! Then ill decide... i still like the previous one though since its a dark colour background ahhahaha... Orginal pics were avril lavigne pics. Simple layout!

So! Today, went out with bf. Suppose to be a movie date but then his frends arrived superly late and the next timing to watch the movie was 7pm. '4bia 2' was suppose to be watched by me! But then dang!! The timing was late for me as i need to be hme by 8pm as usual. But despite tat, i really had an awesome time with bf!! When he arrived jst nw, wow.. he looked hot!!! Woah!! This guy is mine, how lucky am i! sunglasses, long sleeve black top, grey jeans and white shoes. He was listening to his mp3 [sis's one hehhee] and smoking. Hot view really... tat just hit me, i feel so undressed!!! Me n my flip flop as usual! I look to casual to stand beside him! Haiya... but we wore the same colour hehe..

Thanks to bf for the Pastamania meal. I cant stop wif Turkey Bacon Aglio!!! damn nice. Spicy!! Weeee!! n i like to add mre salt n black pepper to it!!! Italian Sodas are nice! try Strawberry, Peach n Mango! love those!!

School's in 2 days, Monday! Wat to wear? Wear ur best outfits!!! First impressions on new ppl, new class!! cut ur hair!!! Make up!! perfume!! smile!! posture!!! hehehe, im glad to b in sch again. Sittin at hme, for 5 weeks nt gd.. fatty niza growin!!!

W34J.. new class. Still a 'J'!!! but new level... demoted hahaa!!! lucky for me, im near to Pat!! Shes in 'H' class.. oohhhh!!! Nat will be in level 5 but still, i cant go without my Natkiko!! by the way! Nat's new house is HUGE!! used to be a malay house, her family invites me n bf for Deepavali!! Yay!!! indian food!!

Thanks to Anika for guiding me to W3 on msn... if im lost, u'll be the first one to knw!! haha!! oh ya.. wat to wear next week? i didnt buy anythin new this year lehh.. ill figure it out! Oh ya girls!! Lets go play lan-gaming once in a while ehh? I tried with bf, its fun! hahhaa... Anika will sure love it. Any new great movies for me to watch?? Jennifer's Body will be out soon, i wanna watch tat one. Megan Fox is evil!

I wanna eat Curry Zazzle form Pizza Hut. Wahaha.... cravings in the middle of the night. Ill save up and ask Nat to go then! She loved tat thing too! Cheese and Spicy things! we both love love!!

Oh ya... random thoughts, just plainly thinking. In religion, they say ALLAH is the Good and Devil is the Bad one. They're enemies right? Dont follow Devil and stuff. Wat if when we die one day and hopefully we're allowed to enter heaven, we found out tat actually ALLAH and Devil are best frends playing chess together? and they're just testing us to see how great a human mind can be into believing. They gave us various of challenges and options to decides from since birth. That would be some idea isnt? Sorry if i offensed anyone, its jst a random thoughts, dnt wry im not making it into big deal. Jst an idea hehe.. anything is possible!

2009-09-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

Well its about time i should update! ahahhaa!!! First of all.. fasting month is over. No more dieting and back to munching and munching!! This year Raya is different for me coz i have someone new to celebrate with! Weee!!!

Spend almost 2 weeks in JB with aunt and family.. it was hectic! Tough 2 weeks and month as i only get to see bf only ONCE in fasting month. Raya was spend at JB tis year. On the 3rd day, we went back home. A week after Raya, went to see bf! Finally sees him and soo happy! Sorry to my girls, i made that plan first before u girls asked for me for Raya outing. Soo terrible sorry but i made promise to bf first. Sorry girls!

Got to meet that girl! Haiya!! got on my nerves when heard bout her frm bf. Is she flirtin wif bf? she better not!! Then went back to JB for raya outing but gt hme tat midnite. Monday its bf's side. Went out for Raya with his frends. Though im the oldest one there but it looks as if some of them looked older than me! I had fun but nerve racking coz new ppl mah... i keep clinging onto bf and followed him everywhere he goes hahaa..

I only knw sme of them during the bday chalet so im kinda saved there, if bf went to somewhere else, his frends tat i recognize is near me, not so nervous. Ha.. but still, clinging onto bf for my dear life. One of the frends is someone bf once liked before. Oh gosh.. so minah liao...

Got hme very late but told mum bout my late and shes kewl wif it. Reached hme at 11pm n thanks to bf for sending me hme as always. Sorry to pull him away frm his frends. All the pics are uploaded but its on bf's facebook but i took the pics tat has my face on and upload onto my fb for ya'll to see!

If theres anyone interested in bf's frends let me knw.. hahahhahaha!!!!!

I would like to sincerely apologise to my clique and everyone else. For neglecting you girls and made u girls felt like i never cared or even forgotten about u girls. I nvr did honestly. I talked bout u girls all the time, ask bf for confirmation. I didnt pick up ur calls or replied to ur msgs. Ive made u girls tink tat ive changed frm good to bad. Dnt wry, i still have my sanity! I hope i didnt change or change too much, bf kept me unchangable as he likes me jst the way i am . Its jst tat i have things to deal wif. Probs.. i have to learn to solve them instead keep whining them to u girls all the time. Commitments too.. i got u girls, my mum, my other frends n bf to commit time wif n to juggle up all of them.. i have to be fair..

But glad things worked out. I knw tis is tough to ask but when im out wif u girls n bf comes along, can u girls make him feel welcome? like talk to him.. make him feel comfortable n have fun. I felt abit lonely when u girls left him alone. He dont talk to ppl much, so he needs companies. i dont want him to feel like u girls dislike him or disapprove his presence. He's as important to me as u girls are. I meant being the odd one is already awkard enough..

when u gt a bf, u want ur frends to like him n see tat hes great n all rite? I want tat too... i want u girls to like him too.. seriously, hes fun to hang out wif! Hes jst crazy like u girls are... trust me on tat. His past doesnt matter to me. Everyone makes mistakes n have things to hide frm the world, im sure u girls do too. Have secrets to hide n past to hide frm. We all do.. so lets jst focus on present n future!

So final words to say... im really sorry! Terribly sorry. Didnt mean to neglect u girls!! No ill intention really.. hehe.. sorry!! So do tell me the gossips, i missed alot havent i?

2009-09-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

This sucks.. stucked in JB for 4 days or wait no, 5 days now! Wasnt planned, mum planned as usual, go on Friday, we'll be home on Sunday afternoon, latest by Monday morning but something happened. My uncle and aunt bought some furniture for their new house and the deliveries will be sent during the weekday this week, time? Unknown. My cousins are schooled near their previous house and both of them are schooling. Both of their parents are working and will return home late. But none of them are going to the new house where the furniture will be delivered to.

So guess wat? Mum, bro and i are the waiting clan in their new house. Our homecoming was delayed since no one will be there at their new house to wait for the furniture, we have to do it. This morning my cousins went to sch, their dad drive them there but they will return here at night, midnight together with their parents. They will return to their previous home after school since its a walking distance from there and its too far for them to walk to the new house.

This stupid delivery guys wont call us to tell us when and wat time they're arriving, if its not confirm, they could give us the shorter time range like in the morning or wat day it could be possibly be.

My body isnt used to this lifestyle, i need to go back home. I dont sleep well, eat well or basically being happy as well. Im like in a prison, literally im doomed here.

I havent seen bf in a week since the Seoul Garden eating with him and i cant talk or msg him well for 5 days. He's suffering there and im suffering here and there's nothing each of us can do about it! This sucks... and im having flu, which is not very good coz i recover super slow but the advantage is that if my flu gets worse by the time i go home, it will still be there and when they asked me out to JB again, ill just say i cant, i got flu! Eventhough its Hari Raya, its troublesome really.

Im thankful to have such a patient bf, eventhough he misses so much, he still manage to keep his smiles for me and wait for me patiently to go home. Right now, his days are wake up, werk, go home, break fast, rest and then sleep and the next day continues. Im not invovled in any of his days and its killin him. Same with mine... its damn boring here and i missed him soo much, internet? Not always... i have 2 super nosey and annoying cousins, if im at the computer, theyll be sittin next to me watchin every single thing i do and when i just starting to do sth i like, they'll be, "I want..." its annoying really.

Ill just do my necessary stuff, check my FB n bf's and then im gone.. went off, doin sth else, listenin to music n such. Im bored here, im sick, im tired, i missed bf n

I WANNA GO HOME!!!!!!

2009-09-07T02:15:00.002+08:00

3 music videos that i like to repeat watching for the past week! All the 3 have certain things in common, they're all girl bands. In every band there's at least a rapper. At least have a member that have the short hair guy like concept but still look feminine enough. They have the cool yet sexy sides as well!! Ha!! Nice tunes as wells! Plus the dance!!

Jewelry - Vari2ty (Seriously i still can pronounce it, but it says its pronounce like 'Variety', i dont see the prouncation based on that spelling!)

4 Minute - Musik (A comeback from their 1st single, Hot Issue. They faced alot of problems since being linked to 2NE1 for their style and music but watever! I'm a 4 Minute fan! Hyun Ah sounds great in this, and her hair.. awesome!!)

f(x) - La Cha Ta (New Girlband from SME! SME is known for its artists vocals, and they sounds good and their chorus are pretty catchy, some comments are already out saying things bout Amber and its not a good one, well lets give a chance k? Dont judge ppl by their looks!)

2009-09-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

Bug Huge thanks to bf for a wonderful day. I really miss him now. I didnt get to see him for 14 days straight since his bday. So we met today for breaking fast and spent time together. We promised to meet at 2.30pm at Bugis Station.

I kinda reached earlier than expected so i waited, i msg but he didnt reply, i called no one pick up until the last minute, to find his brother picked up sayin he forgot to bring his hp. Ohh.. bad thing, hes gonna be furious at himself. Few minutes later he called to stay put. When he arrive he was upset, but its sweet actually. He rushed out to meet me hearing i might be a bit early, he didnt wanna make me wait and rushed out until he forget his hp, he must walked so fast to MRT, awwww.... so sweet of him. He didnt want to make me wait, he hates making me wait as he knows i dont like someone whos late. So sweet! He wore snow cap, hehee... so cute!!

He got better soon, as we search for Cotton On at Bugis Junction. I found what i want since long ago. A long sleeve shirt that covers my butt as well! I liked what Dayah wore since the last time i saw her and she told me to get it at Cotton On. Bf bought me 2 tops and 2 leggings, thank u sooo much dear!!! Then we went to TopMan, to get his tops, haha.. so cute, the way he shops.

To Triple 8, to cut his hair. Checked at Seoul Garden, it was full house, we were on waiting list but we got our table 20mins before the time. Sitted at the way back. Bf and I basically are carnivores. We ate meat all they way. Ice cream and more meat. Hahahhaa.... tats the reason we went there! Thanks for everything today love!!!

For everything u done for me since the day we met! My frends were actually suprised that u were this nice and to be my first bf, they say ur a miracle. Im so lucky to have you. Thank u!! Came home at 9.30pm! Haha... feeling full and tired, bf fell asleep on the phone. Awwww....

next month marked the 1st year since i met him.. 21 October. Oh since the 1st time he laid eyes on me to be exact hehehe...

2009-09-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

Check these videos out... its hilarious!!!

And this one too... wahahhaaa!!!

Toni posted it on FB, i was laughing like hell when i watched it, its amazing!!! Cant wait for weekend!! YAY!!!

2009-08-31T00:42:00.002+08:00

BOO to holidays!! 1 week had passed and i never really enjoyed the so called holidays!! 5 weeks!! Sian!!! i havent seen bf for a week!! I missed him! Also, seems like blogger only loads fully n properly after midnite for me.. hmm... so still BOO!! Holiday! BOO!!! Heres what a real holiday shud be! Mauritius.. bf shud like this.. tats a real holiday!!! Arrived at the island... on a bright sunny beautiful day...

Stayed in one of the gorgeous seaside resort! Ha.... soo peaceful....

Having dinner by the sea, by the sunset... oh gosh... so romantic!! Weeee!!!

Now tats a real holiday... haiya... while cant singapore be tat kind of island? if tat happens, now tats a country to be really proud about!! Boast about it!!!

Currently im on D.Gray Man anime marathon, 41 episodes down bout 60+ more to goo!!! Cant wait for weekend!!! Im goin to be a carnivore!!! hahaa... anyway gt 2 pics [ONLY 2?!!] frm bf chalet, hahaha...blur pics, it was noon i tink but everyone just woke up, haiyo!

Memories... i remember being sick, fever at very high temperature but still go hiding tat the fact i havent recovered frm mum but thanks to bf for taking care of me making sure i eat my medicines, i gt better by the evening. I enjoyed every second of the chalet!! i wish we could do it again! haha, the best thing is, we dnt knw time flies so fast till we slept at 6am in the morning!!

Some people were clubbing in the chalet and grinding someone else!!! but it was a rare sight! hahaha... n tat suprise bday celebration, it was so sweet! Celebrating bf n my bday together with our 5 months anniversary. Wish theres pic frm that moment.. bf sang for me, i cried... thank u dearest!!

Basically the best 3 days of my life!!

2009-08-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Jazreel's self timer on her pro Macbook went off in 3 seconds before everyone was ready but i managed to strike one!!! Heeeeeheeee~!!! Seems like everyone following the "Weee!!" trend. Hm... as far as i knw, bf started it! haha!!!

Randomness, Human is the most dangerous organism in the God's creation history.. its true! Look ard u!!

2009-08-26T00:42:00.004+08:00

oohhh!!! weee!!! blogger loads fully in firefox!!! maybe too many ppl use i tink? Ha! who cares anyway. Back being nocturnal... holidays up and i hate it. Use to love holidays now i kinda dnt like it, all the more reason im imprisoned in my own home damn it!!! no allowance as well!! siannnn!!!

Ends of W15J, gonna miss them a whole lot seriously... all those funny moments, class outings, cheese, bad singing, class scandals, gangsters, games moments, bday celebrations.. haiz... 1 semester went by so damn fast. KiKos... nat obessed with that nick and ends up gave the whole class a nickname. Yang Wei's "why blue sky?!!?", Akina's sushi... i dont wanna change classs!!!!!!!!!!!

But whatever happens, i wish u guys good luck on ur new classes, lets meet up often! dnt seperate lehh!! we're still gonna watch movies togethers rite? Chalet upcoming! i hope it works! Asked mum bout having chalet in fasting month, she say no. Its not nice, other months but not this month. Ohh.. ok.. after this month then guys!! 3D2N aye?!! if ur plannin on Changi... die die die die die... make sure we all one class sleep in one room ahhhh!!!!!

Arfin: the funny thing is that we muslim believe that the gates of hell is closed now and the chinese believes its open. So which is it?
Mei En: Its OPEN!!!!
Niza: God must be cursin' rite nw.. 'Shit!!! Calender collision!!!!'
Arfin: HAHAHHAHAAHA!!!!!

Im funny sometimes.... :)

Niza: Malay ghost are having a break frm scaring ppl, chinese ones gt overtime
Arfin & Mei En & JianXing: WAHAHHAHAHA!!

Arfin: Im more scared of Mrs. P! :S
Niza: Is she married Arfin?
Arfin: GOOD QUESTION!!! WAHAHAHHAA!!! OMG i said Mrs... dieee
Niza: Shit... we're soo dead next month...
Arfin: 0_0!
Mei En: Whos Mrs. P?
Anaissa: Ya! Who?
Niza: Do i need to describe? Long Haiiiirrrrrrr, white dresssssssss, female..... scaryyy..
JianXing: WTH!!!

Mei En: What movie to watch?
JianXing: Ya! When? What time?
Anaissa: Late night! want?
Mei En: Anything..
JianXing: Ya cann...
Niza: im older than u guys and im the one gt curfew.. fantastic!
All: WAHAHAHAA

Mei En: Jx!! Arfin bullying me!!
Arfin: Where gttt!!!!
JianXing: Okk!! STOP BULLYING!!! IM THE HOLY TEACHER!!
Niza: What crap sia...
Anaissa: LOL!!!

Had fun mas convo with Arfin, Anaissa, Mei En, JianXing.. from ghost to being hungry. Haha.. Bf sleepin! Sssshhhh!!! Suppose to wake him up at 9.30pm to continue our phne chat, but i feel sorry for him, fasting and had to work and hes very tired, i let him sleep thru the nite..

Looking forward to breaking fast with Bf at Seoul Garden!!! When!!! Weeeeeee!!!

2009-08-21T14:42:00.002+08:00

Wah... bastard sia blogger.. now at library u load fully and nicely fast. At home u lag like fuck and never load properly.. wanna die is it?! Haiyoooo!!!!!!! im in library all alone! (BOO HOO!!) hahaa.. nothing lah, basically my own choice, i was planning to study for maths with Nat and the rest but they decided to go home as they're all tiredy... and i cant go home yet, coz im meeting bf later.

Since its fasting month tmr and his bday, we might not get to meet much since its fasting month, some couple thing has to be banned isnt? Haiyo.. gonna miss tat! Have to bear for 1 month. Read FB note, written by one of bf's frends, ahahaa... he mention that im really shy shy shy girl. Hehe.. wait till u see the real me. Im scary.. arent i bf? he too thought the same thing when we first met. Nerdy, nice, shy, quiet girl. Turns out the opposite!

Today Cognitive UT3, didnt manage to finish it up! Time's up. SHIIEEETTTT!!! I got like bout 3 qns never do!! Sian.. hopefully i got good grade to make up my super poor attendance to this module. I dnt knw what happen but everytime i feel like skipping class or sth cock up, its always on Cognitive day! Hahhaa.. poor Audrey!

Had lunch with Jaz, Akina and Sandy. They were boys watching while i was busy eating. They ask me for comments, nahh... all not good enough my sweet darlin KiKos! Haha! Jaz ex-bf msg her and so called a trick to pull Jaz back,
"Im sittin next a super hot girl!! Ur look alike! I miss u thanks for accompany me yesterday"
Lol boy.. so obvious u want her back? hahaha..

Niza: Want sme? (offering her chicken)
Sandy: I dont like chicken
Niza: Retarded ah u?!!
Akina and Jaz laugh like mad, super mad
Sandy: I just dont like the taste ok?
Niza: I got a frend allergic to chicken...
All: Really? Power sia...
Niza: I know!! Shes missing goodness KFC
Sandy: I dont
Akina: Nobody ask u
ALL: WAHAHHAAA!!!

At home...
Adik: Ma... nk rojak ma...
Mum: Apek rojak dh mati smlm.. mama dh pegi kenduri die dh
Awesome reply mum...

I took Left 4 Dead from Alvin, not good. Keep lagging!! and when i took my primary guns, i cant hear my gunshot sound! I need to hear them! I delete and download my previous one. Lol.

Bf learn to drive mini forklift. Hes so happy bout it. Lol.. Monday maths UT3, die die die die...
how they seperate the class for next semester? Im soo not looking forward to it!

2009-08-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

Is it blogger's fault or the damn internet connection, Singtel MIO im having's fault?!! Blogger cant load properly! i cant post pics at all. This is annoying, FireFox's fault? Internet Explorer too? Haiyoo... i went to IT Helpdesk, sayin they having the same problem as well. HAIYAAAA!!!!

Big shocker happen to me this morning that crushes my strawberry tart! [Strawberry Tart = Heart. Learn tat from Crank 2: High Voltage Wahahahahahahahaha!!!!] Sometimes my lappie runs a disk checkup which i dont mind at all but this morning was different, it look different and it took quite sometime. "Deleting Index ....." keep coming out. I wonder what it is but not bothered. When finishes, it restarted and then i found that all and i mean literally ALL is gone. 200GB all was deleted and it scares me like fuck! All my pictures, bf's pic, frends pics everything gone. My movies!!! My games!!! My songs!!! Fuck sia!!!

Got the IT Helpdesk help but strangely my lappie is free from any virus! But what to do, i didnt have a back up files so once gone means GONE! Broken hearted, i went back to class, thanks to Pamiko for accompany me. But i was not so in deep shit. Most of my pics are in FB, my Left4Dead game is with Jaz and Alvin. My movies is with Jaz and Syaful and some songs i needed are with Jaz only i have to get the korean songs back on my own then. Was a bit relieved.

Programming. Never paid attention to the class but did understand the codes, thanks to Akina. Class was busy playing Counter Strike, killing each other and laughing like mad. So much fun seeing them. Cant believe our times gonna be over soon.

Nat and Juno plans to make chalet for the class. GOSH!! I WANT!!! Bf definitely be coming, ill drag him. The girls in class likes bf anyway so its ok! Only a few of us are couple anyway. Me, Nat, Darren and Yenny! Hahahaa!!! It will be fun if it happens! I got tired of Left 4 Dead already, i wanna try Jericho next! Hehehe...

Bf's 18th is this Saturday. Happy sweet 18th love! Hope that life turns into pretty garden with flowers. Hope u'll be happy always and keep ur charming smiles!! Keep ur 6 packs too!! Hehe! I pray for great health and may god protects u from any harm either manmade, sickness or accidents. Keep him safe dear Allah! He's my loved one!! And ya dear... congratz u can smoke legally and buy it at 7-Eleven already hahahaa!! Lets watch M18 movies now aye!!? hehehe... Hope u liked the pressie i gave u! Hug her always!! Love ya!!!

He's out now... spending time wif his frends. He rarely see his frends so let him have his personal time with his frends instead of sticking with me 24/7. I like some of personal time on my own too! Spending with music, games and movies on my own. Its calming and relaxing! Everyone has their own personal space.

Went to extra science class today. Ends up joking Mervyn all the way haha! Study too though, all his 4 classes joined into one today. Arfin and Nat are nuts today, driving me nuts and arguing of buying me as frends pet on FB. Nat bought me and Arfin bought me back and they keep doing that! Siao... haha!!! Ends up Nat bought me and Arfin bought Nat and her bf and then he grins widely. Wahahaa.... Pamiko plays game, Avatar haha!!!

Tmr starts of UT3, sian... sian... die die die die!!!!! Weeeee!!! DIEEEEE!!!!!
PS: The KiKos LLOOVVVEEE my new hair LOL. Jaz cant stop starring at me!! :)

2009-08-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

Someone tell me quick, is it bcoz of my laptop or the internet or the websites has been going mad recently? I use firefox and my blog entry doesnt load fully... and when i use internet explorer too the same, error in loading. Mei En suggest i use Google Chrome which i am right now but still it didnt load properly as i though, though some functions do load here rather in firefox like uploading a pic. Is it me or the blogger's fault? Hotmail also never load properly...

Its scary lehh... my lappie got virus or sth? Dnt scare me sia!!!

Anyway, skipped lesson on Tuesday hehehe.. thanks to bf for lettin me skip coz im tired from JB! Went back to sch on Wed and had the time of the week. Meryvn!! Oh god... best faci ever!!! Hes sooo damn funny, we're gonna miss him a whole lot since its our last lesson with him. Gosh.. no more Meryvn? Science will be no fun leh without him. Today! Maths! Hate math but love the faci! Jason! So sweet... hes so caring for us and always tries his hard to entertain and be close with the class haha... fun games we had just now! Imitating our classmates lol!!!

I hate Juno's sarcastism to Mark. Yes, i agree Mark is not involve in discussion but dont have to drop stupid fuckin sarcastic comments and bloody hints to the whole class. You're humilating him dammit!!!! If u want to talk bad about someone say it to his god damn fucking face and stop being sucha asshole!! fuck sia.. i was sooo damn fucking mad. I hate these stupid fucking bloody assholes type of people. You tink ur sooo god damn smart and talented and bully others. So what u have the knowledge when u dnt even have the manners?! I feel like slap and kick the fucking out of Juno's face! Poor thing sia Mark.. got humiliated in front of the whole class and the faci and he actually jst stood there and none in the class able to help him, i tried to voice out for Mark but got sunk in by Darren, adding to the fuel. Darren, if you want to ask a question due to Mark's explanation, pls have the courtesy to ask properly and politely and not being rude and bringing Mark down. Juno and Darren.. gosh... hate these 2 people in class. They're fun but dealing with them is a no for me. Mark actually apologise and Juno make it worse, making him feel guilty for not being useful to the team.

I seriously hate these type of people. Why.. why there's such selfish mother fuckers in this world? U knw ur team mate is not contributing, so y did u went around the whole class telling every single one of us on how hes not being contributing and critising him behind his back. Making fun of him, making faces at him, cursing him, telling facis bout him, create stories about him when u cant even do the simple thing?! JUST TELL HIM STRAIGHT!! Tell him that you need his effort, it wont hurt to ask him to do his job and be nice and not faking nice, encourage him to do his work. u keep mentioning to others ur the team leader, ur team.. but u as a team mate or team leader, u never do the most important job as one!! Tat is get ur team to work together as a team! Encourage, communicate and not forcing! or demanding! or gossiping! U said u hate stereo type of ppl but y are u acting like one? Ur 22 years old and oldest among us and u shud be the wisest! Use ur head, put urself in Mark's position! How would u react seeing urself sayin that to u!! Trust me, i would do the same as Mark but i wont stay down as Mark did and i admire Mark's courage taking Juno's comments, sarcastics ones every single time.

Im not saying being sarcastic is wrong, u can but being too much is fucking hateful dammit!!!! If u are the smartest person in the class but got tat attitude, go n die sia!! Educated people dont behave that way!!! Mark is damn smart and he's such a nice guy!! I hope i wont meet this type of people in my next semester class, if else.. that person will get a fucking slap or yelling from me. God.. im soo fucking mad sia!!! No bloody manners assholes!!

Stating comments bout them wherever, on FB or MSN or Blog. Sayin 'U shud knw who u are' 'that person'.. walau!!! Go n die lah!!! Just type or say the specific name and be direct lah ppl!!! If u dare to critise a person then be dare to take responsiblities on ur own comment stOOOpppiddd!!!!! Trying to be nice ah? Not trying to hurt the person too much ah?! FAKE LAH!!! Be honest, direct!! But use ur head also lah... dont suddenly go to the person and say shit! Filter ur damn mouth.

Sorry i took out my anger on the blog! I really cant take it sia. Im not saying Mark is not the wrong position but Juno and Darren is in worse position. I think im going to apologise to Mark later. I feel so sorry for him. This semester must be his worst class.

To Bf! Happy 6th month anniversary!! Tmr... 14 August! Hehe.. i cant wait to see u on Saturday! Oh ya.. happy advance bday too! Love love!! Hopefully we stand strong together!! Miss ya!! havent seen u almost 2 weeks sia.. its the longest time we've been apart from meeting!

Dayah said she missed me lol!! Aww.. miss her too!! She want to go out together. I think we shud! I miss our crazy times!!! I miss Dayah and Wani alot!! Ana too misses me alot! Aww.. miss her too!! Keep pinching me ha! Now she cannot pinch hehehe... i gt bodyguard already! hahaha! My god sis from Perth too miss me.. aww...

Lol im missed by ppl! Weeeee~!!! But i knw who miss me the most! *winks*

UT3 is coming up! Dun! Dun! Dun!!! Fasting month too! HOOOOO!!!!!! My fangirl mode has off for so long.. hahahaha!!! Hey! Arfin got 2NE1 'I Don't Care' as his msg tone! hahahahaaa!!

Anyway, big story... Going to miss every single KiKos. No matter how mad i am at them of certain things but still, they're part of the KiKo family and im going to miss every single of them! Let's stay a KiKos aite?

2009-08-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Almost a month haha...sorry! Well lets start from 3 weeks ago. Sch was fine, now almost every week, i have the temptation to skip sch! Sometimes i do succeed sometimes i just drag my ass off for school but things get better when im in class. Lovely classmates. Cant believe our time together as the Kikos gonna be over soon. Gosh.. hopefully one of them is in my class! But 99% no.. oh god..

Saturday of 3 weeks ago, bf and i went to escape theme park. We got the free tix frm chalet earlier and we're putting it into a good use! hahaa!! bf tried asks his frends to tag along, some are busy and sme claimed dnt want to be a goose between us. Haha.. so we went by ourselves and as expected, first ride arrive! Pirate Ship!!! We ride it like 3 times in a row! bf was abit sick ahhaa!! Gosh.. it was sooo damn fun!! We took the wet and wild too! Ha! 7 months before when i went on my 1st official date with bf, he sat in front and i gt wet like fuck sittin at the bck, hehe.. now we switched! I grins as i watch bf got wet! Oh ya, i made him wear specs instead of contact lenses.. he look so cute in glasses! We wear the shirts that were given by his sis-in-law. Thanks for the shirt!!! Its lovely!

Then it rained a bit. We settled down for a while and then i wanna ride the daytona thing, i NEVER ride it!! we tried the couple one first, bf drives. It was bumpy but great for a first timer!! Then i got excited to drive one. Next round, we switched! Turns out! Im a better driver than bf! Haha... i'm an awesome driver!!! Turn so smoothly, brakes nicely! I got the confidence to drive the solo ones! and i did! I ride twice and won!!! WooHoo!! Love taking over other drivers hahahaha... speed off all the way! Wow... i might become a good driver in real. Bf doing really awesome too! he actually manage to catch up with me! Well done dearest!!

After tiring ourselves out, we head hme. Bf sends me hme as usual. it tears me apart to be seperate frm him. Having so much fun and suddently have to say goodbyes and god knws when the next time we'll see each other again. I gt sch, he gt werk. Haiz...

The next saturday! Wild Wild Wet!! First time when there and i enjoyed myself fully not only the part i go soooo damn tan for it!! A few wardrobe malfunctions but had sooo much fun! Especially the slides!! Hahaha.. I ate alot on that day too. Oh ya and use of the free tix again!! We got 2 hehehe..

Then last Saturday, we went out but dnt knw where to go so bf bring me to play Lan-Gaming at dhoby ghaut! Wahh!! So much fun! First time for me too!!! End up we played like 3hrs of Left 4 Dead game! and when we got hme, we both tried downnload the game, searching for the game ourselves, there were few troubles but i managed to get the full one with awesome graphics! I completed the game now! The only bad thing bout it is, my laptop burns up pretty quickly when i play the game! I have to pause once in a while to cool it down before continue playing.

The upcoming Saturday, unfortunetly, i cant be with bf, mum wants to go jb and celebrate her sister's bday. Its gonna be a suprise visit. Im planning to get hme as soon as possible but ill try to enjoy myself there as well. National day too.. hopefully im hme by Sunday nite, that way, Monday i still can see bf!

On the 15th August, bf and i will be going out to Vivo. Celebrating his bday in advance and our 6th month anniversary too. To Vivo we go, where we first went out, the first time we chat, we smile, we laugh, where he asks me to be his gf, where we celebrate my bday. Vivo is where it all started! Looking forward to it as im planning sth for bf. Im sorry im doin this, i knw u dnt want to waste my money for it but its nt everyday i get to do this and its the first time im doing for someone special, do accept it k? I already told Nat and Annaissa bout it, Arfin says its a bit weird to do for a guy but the girls say its super sweet and i shud do it! Yup! Im doin it!

This will be my 2nd present to u after that bracelet! Happy advance Bday to Wani!!! Her bday is on the 18th. Haiyoo... ni, i really hope that you open ur eyes to what me and dayah had been trying to tell u for the past 2 years. Yes, we knw u love ur bf soo much but hes nt treating u rite and it hurts us seeing u cry and gettin hurt being mistreated like tat. If only i could bash that guy!!!

Mums bday coming and the day after that will be bf real 18th and also start of fasting month. So eat while u can ppl! diet on its way!! I need to shop!! Gosh... that Cotton On store jst open at CP is tempting! The tops are gorgeous! Movies... i need a good movies for 15 August! What movie to watch? If theres nth good, we'll jst might watch Transformers 2 again! for the 3rd time then!! Bf gonna love that one! Hhaha..

So many Bdays in August.. some are good and theres one more day that actually my past, dnt wanna bring it up but let it go... its over! Weeeee~!!!

Bf is dying to knw haha... im gd at suprise! Hehe...

2009-07-18T22:17:00.003+08:00

I like Nat's entry post...

"And then, i turn my head to the riqht and i saw my boyfriend. And i knew the anwser to the question. Because perfection was by my side. Remember, qod never qives everythinq to a person, cause if he did, he knows everyone would stop prayinq to him and forqet him. He always leaves a hole in everyones life so that they would turn to him for help and remember that he is there. So he qave me such a sweet, carinq and qentlemen as life partner, he couldnt qive me anymore better than best!

I dont bother to pray everyday and i dont qo to temple. But i believe that qod will always bless me for every qood deed i do. Be it helpinq a person to hold the lift when they are quite far away or donatinq 10 cents for a charity, i know he will be my side and support me throuqh.

To all those troubled ones, who always have somethinq in their life that is incomplete or not satisfied, i hope this post will help heal. Lets treasure the life now before its too late instead of complaininq and abusinq it :D"

its so sweet!!

2009-07-18T21:59:00.001+08:00

Personality Test!!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

wow.. its true? most of it!!

2009-07-18T00:13:00.002+08:00

its midnite!! my bf is definitely confirmed sleeping!! awww... i missed looking at his sleepin face, so cute! its just so calming seeing it!

Anyway today sch, my partners nvr come!! i mean nt all but our Natkiko n Arfiko was absent today, How too was absent. K7 also nvr come. 5 classmates nvr come lehh, i forgot 1 mre isnt? hmm.. who ah? hahhahaa!!!! SIAN!!! but anyways, class was incomplete today.. still gt thru the day of Enterprise. I got addicted to the Milktea bubble tea in sch, cant drink SweetTalk so this one will do! Weeeeee!!!! love the milktea!!!!! Pearls!! yum yum!

Checked that my 1st Cognitive i got A sia.. woah, nvr expect tat since the rest of my results are all fucked up!!!! Darkiko shows me the guy that likes and tries to woo his newly gf, lol... no chance man, this one, i stand on Darkikos side! LOL!!

After school, we wanted all the movies tat Syakiko downloaded but then not enough time since he had to go off to watch the Harry Potter movie lol!!! I only gt some. Walked hme with Akiko and J-kiko, lol... soooo funny. Theres this guy, whos kinda cute. I mean for a chinese guy, hes good lookin and he likes Akina, Akina too likes him, OBVIOUSLY. So they're still the flirty frend2 state. The 'kenal2' stage! Lol Jaz and I walked so fast in front of them to give them privacy at the same time catching up to Jaz's eye candy! Wahahahaa!!! Had so much laughter with Jaz.

I wish Akina and Phelan to get together! they both make a cuuuuttteeee couple!! but our Akina is cuteerrr!! Haha!! The class got the nutty habit of saying "Got It" "Done" "Zoom In Effectively" and they can laugh every single time u mention those things. Seriously!!! Hahaha... left 4 to 3 weeks to 2nd semester and soon we'll be seperating and everyone hates it. Me too... i want to remain together with them... i love my class to bits!!!

PS: Jaz thinks bf is adorably cute and sweet!!! "He looks like the nerdy cute goody type leh i like!" hahha... Nat agrees!!! OMG, i know!!! Keep tellin he's cute, he wont believe me!! but thats where his cuteness lies!!! keep smillin my dear and to the rest of ya too~!!!

Nite2~~

2009-07-17T11:04:00.001+08:00

FT ISLAND NEW MV!!!

AHHHH!!!!!!!

2009-07-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

After a month over hiatus, i'm back online!!! Mum finally got my internet back but this time i wont have to wait for modem to load or use the lan cable with a short cable, im using the wireless instead. Soooo many things happen over in the month. Had my Bday with the girls, being quarrantine for week from school, not only me but the whole block!!! Spend my week with bf. Absoolutteeelllly hate E-Learning, you can never learn thru that system!! Its stupid and i end up getting Fs for the week. I got 5 'Fucks' hahhaa... i didnt do RJ nor the worksheet.

Well i'll be bloggin back often soon as before. Not that anyone cares or anyway of me bloggin or not. Hahha... everyone is so busy nowdays and i hardly seen everyone or contact. I havent heard from Wani and Dayah for months, i hope they're ok and well. The last time i chat with Dayah was thru msging on my bday, it was her dad's 1st year death anniversary, i can still remember that day as she cried in my arms apologising for this to happen on my special day. I didnt had the best bday ever this year. Or so i thought...

Thanks to all my friends for the bday parties, their time taken out to spend time with me. I apologise i cant be there for MY OWN bday celebration with my classmates. It was meant for a suprise but then i didnt come. Sorrie class~!! I loooovvveeee my class!!! My KiKo family!!

After a month, i had another bday celebration! Last saturday, sunday and monday i had a chalet. It was boyfrend's bday chalet but his friends are so nice that they create a bday suprise with chocolate fudge cake with 5 candles marking our 5th month anniversary on the 14th, which is today! I was shocked, boyfrend was too. I was sick so i didnt get to eat much of it. I suffered 3 days before the chalet of high fevers, harsh colds and weakness. Thanks to boyfrend for taking care of me all the time. Saturday was awesome as boyfrend sang 2 songs for me in front of his frends with guitar being played by his frend. It was really romantic and sweet and i get a hug and kiss on the cheek by the end of the songs. Songs sang by him was "Fall For You" and his fav song, "Your Guardian Angel" I was moved to tears.

His friend explains that he respects and knows how big and deep is boyfrend's love for me, hearing from someone else's mouth saying how much boyfrend cares and love me brings me to tears asi felt im the luckiest girl in the universe to have him. Fun times roles big time on saturday and the best of all, i got better and enjoyed myself soo damn much on that day. I went swimming for the 1st time in years!! It was refreshing!!

2nd day was with his family, though its awakard being around his whole family but it was ok, his mum's foods were amazing! i love those fried cupcakes things!!! Boyfrend bbq, i watcg tv alone, a bit lonely there but its not for long. Went to the beach for hangout with his friends with guitar and singing along sessions was fun. Recorded video for that one! Boyfrend sings!! so cute... video on facebook! Friends didnt get to stay over as they got school and they're in no position to break the rules again as warned as debard already happen. I stayed of coz all through Monday. Watched dvds thru the night and fell asleep.

Morning suns peeps in and we checked out and went back to his house where we rest for a while till the time to back to RP for my Enterprise UT that day. He sent me home and i went home deep in tears of missin him.

Happy 5th month anniversary my dear.. time to sleep, i havent had a proper sleep for 4 days now. zzzzzz... will update again tmr~!! I didnt get to celebrate Jazreel's 18th as well!! Hapi Bday dear J-Kiko! Love yyyaaa!!!! and i love u sooo much dear! If ur readin this! hehe

2009-05-28T12:34:00.002+08:00

As you get older, life doesnt seem to go the way you want it to be and bcoz of this, even the littlest thing can get you frustrated and down and u felt like nothing can bring u back up again. Seeking for comfort and love from someone u trust, care and love so much might not be as easy as it seems. Seeing u down, it affects the other party as well and u felt like its all your fault when the other party down as well. U tried hard to comfort them but it seems tat they push u away for some reason. It hurts seeing someone u love so much being like tat. Their crying tears u apart...

For that... im really sorrie dear. For being someone like tat im really sorie. I didnt mean all that to happened. The bad side took over me. It gettin tougher now isnt? I hope u dont lose hope on me coz im not goin to let u go. Ppl tat trying to tear us apart doesnt see the way we see things are. I hope one day they'll open up their eyes to see how much we suffered to survive.

Anyway, i skipped sch today. Right now in the civic library. Haha... i jst dnt feel like goin sch today but i have to be in sch at least 3.45pm for programming UT. shit.. die die, i dnt even knw , 80% of the lesson. Classmates misses me. LOL, JuKiko misses me the most.. hahaha...

Bday comin up soon but i dnt tink its gonna be fun as i thought... although the celebration days with besties and boifee is lookin forward to and big big HUGE thanks to them for the celebration. But after that.. its a rough road. Have to keep on movin...

2009-05-26T15:18:00.004+08:00

Outin with Boifee on Sunday
Class Outin on Saturday
Webcamwhoring in class yesterday~

I havent been update since forever, to my dear who is always popping by the blog, sorry dear... busy and my internet at home have been cut off since bill havent pay so the only time for internet is at school lor.. even that still busy sometimes, with presentation and stuff. Ok.. i'll update now. Starting from last 2 weeks? Hmm... the 1st class outing. We went to the movies at Cineleisure Cathay at Somerset. I met with boifee first since he pass me some money, sorry to take ur money for my own sastifaction dear. Spent some time with him and then met up with How (hes my classmate and yes, his name is tat way, 'HOW') along the way with Darren.

Darren being his usual antics teasing me. Dear shudnt be jealous coz as i told u many times.. ur way better than him. Trust me on this. Then met up with the rest. Kecoh starts.. Nat and Darren went to smoke, i follow along. When half the class arrives, we went to book the tixs first. We took 1 whole row in the center and half behind the row. We seperated after that since everyone to eat different things. I went to eat with Nat, Jaz, Akina, Arfin, Ain, Shane, Juno, Pamela and Anaissa at the Long John Silver. Took pics after meal and then meet up with the rest for the movie.

Noisy in the theather, Darren's fault. Making fun of Nat being indian with the "Nat!! Where r u?!! I cannot see u!!" It was so funny. After movie, we all went to take pics and walk around the town before me, Mark and Nat head home first since its 7.30pm. Eventhough im one of the oldest member there, im the one who got curfew~!

Then the next day, i went out again. It was Sunday btw. So i went out for the weekend. This time, with boifee. Ate Sakura. I ate to my fullest and he make fun of my belly. Didnt u dear?!! Then we walk around and head to Simei, somehow my habit of cant make a decision upsets my dear. Sorrrriiiieee~~ We got better and he bought me a top and skirt. Thanks dear. Took lots of pics! Head home and walk around CP till time to go home. Miss yaaa~~

Then one of the school day, i went out after school with Jaz, Darren, Juno and Nicholas (Darren's frend) to accompany Jaz shopping. So stressful!! Hahaha... if my dear go shopping with her, its worse than me!

School has been active with the girls, Nat, Jaz and I are mostly hyper all the time. Darren being usual self like always. Class being crazy like always!! Soooo happi sia everyday them. Juno being perverting is like sooo funny. His laughter kills.

This week is like UT week. Every single day got UT but still try to make time for my dear. Next week holiday and im turnin 2-0, scary~!! Gettin older now. But one way i look at it, i end my teen's year with a glory and start my 2 decade year with someone by my side. Thanks for being in my life dear. Im glad u appeared. Eventhough we have troubles to face along the way. People around us judging us, trying to break us up but we stand strong till today. I apologise for all the mistakes i done and the tears i caused u from the bottom of my heart. Thank u

Next outin is Saturday and Monday. Bestfrends and Boifee. In the holidays, theres might be another class outing, faci is gonna be comin along and we're excited bout tat!!! YAYYYY!!!

2009-05-09T19:42:00.002+08:00

Darren and his antics nver stops hahahaha.... mass convos at night also never stops hahah... rumours of scandals in class was sooo funny, pairing each other up and then purposely spread the rumours. So ridiculous too!

Dear is getting stressed out. Hang in there dear... im always here for you. I contacted back my god sis in perth, sadly she's suffering in Perth, poor girl. She and dear and me lead the same life, families disagrees with our relationships, being insulted at, accused for the things we didnt do. Cried alone in the dark and only have bf as a moral support. She even tried to kill herself last year, when hospitalized, she was treated as a queen with conccerns frm everyone, after recovered, she was insulted and scolded like hell jst like before. I know its wrg for her to do that but then... if you continue scold her... arent they scared she react as the same bck then?

She do the same thing everyday as me. Sit at hme, laptop, in her room all the time. Did sth abit gt insulted, scolded. Poor girl really... shes really alone there since her bf is in SG. She wont be alone anymore now since im here...

Super Junior next single is out! Not the teaser or mv... its just tat the single is leaked out.. hehe.. and its HOOOOTTTT!!!! i love it!!! Its gonna b big! Title as "It's You".

Dear went fishing with his friends for the day and will be staying over there for the night. He needs the break, so im alone tonight but im fine!! Though i missed him lotttsss~

2009-05-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

I've been skippin sch alot lately! Omo! I skipped again today, to boifrend's house. Reason? er... we got into a lil misunderstanding last nite causing both not to sleep till 6am n my eyes were puffy. Went to his house, rest and then play PS2 hehehehe.... his nephews are so cute!

Then went back home. Slept in the bus, boifrend wake me up last min, so my head went giddy and my eyes were dried! I had a slight symptoms of fever. Haiyoo... tml graduation lehh!!! Boifrend is coming along. Hehe... Chat with Farah, catching up with her. Then mass convo with classmates again. They're so cute really. Darren misses me and said the class is diff without me in it. He's actually quiet when im not ard. Didnt know tat! But its sweet, everyone misses me. Nat too! Mark is bringing me and Nat lunch on Friday, Mac n Cheese!!! Yay!!! Everyone complain today sucks hahhaa... poor thing.

Skippin sch again tml... this time gt reason! hahaha... boifrend told me bout his upcoming job, which he got it and i went nuts coz, he got a job tats one thing, (i never mention he was fired isnt? Ha!), his new working place is here in Woodlands! Means... wahhh... everyday? Tats heaven!! Isnt dear?!

He's still outside right now, hangin out with his frends. i dont mind... he rarely see his frends.. Wee!! the day started as bad and end up with a good one!! Boifrend has grown to liking the song Dva by After School hehehee... first korean song of his! Will spread to him more!

Oh ya... 2NE1's single, Fire... woahhhh.... tat song is soooooo catchy i love it!!!! ive been repeatin it!!! Busy busy with MSN today... super active i've bcome on it. Mass convo, then private one with Darren, then got my ex-neighbour, and then got my cuzin frm Msia and then with Ayie and then Farah. WOah... sian.. my hands were typing all the time!!!!

I hopin nt to get any fever for tml... haiyoooo!!!!

2009-05-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

Bck frm JB yesterday!!! Gosh im soooo damn tired... i skipped sch today, to rest... ha... i really need a gd rest. Yesterday was a beach day, 3 to 4hrs drive frm hme to the beach. The others had fun in the sea while i played in the sand on my own. My uncle talked to me bout my relationship, mum n family. He gives his opinion n some advices how to deal with my mum. We had a long chat. The others had sunburn. haha... i gt pink pink spots on my arms..

I saw a jellyfish!! a green one.. anyway spent the day with boifrend today.. hahha.. had a great laugh today. Got dig out sme of my dear's secrets hehhehehe..

This thursday!! graduation!!! Ill be graduating of ITE!! Im gonna meet all my ex classmates, last time gathering sia... haiya.. gonna miss them lots...for the last 2 years.. its been awesome!! Cant wait, gosh my hair... hw sia.. cannot naik stage lehh...

2009-05-01T12:42:00.003+08:00

Hahaha!!! updation!!! Its been a long time! So, we had the clique gathering last night!! Thanks to Fana, Tipah and Sheila for the treat!!!! Though the receipt was scary!!! hehehe....

School was ok, i got energetic yesterday as boifrend came over lunch time with lunch he cooked, were spent the lunch preparing for my presentation and goofing around taking pics! He then waited for me till school's out and we spent our extra time in the library and then play a game demo at CP.

Time at 8pm, i met the whole gang and boifrend left me with them till 10.30pm! I msg my mum before and she didnt say anithin. Woah? fun sia... i really had a great day! With best frends and boifrend!

anyway, gtg now... i'm suppose to go to jb for the weekend, uncles bday! see ya!!!

P.S: Dear... i know ur readin this... sorry to left you alone for the next 3 days while im in JB. Pls take good care of urself and do msg me alot pls! I cant reply u at all but i'll miss call u lots!!! I love u soo much, so pls, take gd care k? tgk gmbr of us yesterday if u feel lonely... i miss u a whoooolllleeeee loootttssss!!! Love u!!!!!!! dont cry, dnt b sad... i'll be back on Sunday... stay cheerful, use this time to spent time with ur frends k??? looooooovvvvveeee uuuuuuu!!!!PS to best frends... WOIT!!! Gmbr jgn lupe upload ahhhh!!!!!!

2009-04-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

OPPPPPAAAAAAA~!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, back to school for me!!! But new school, new environment, new friends, everything!! NEW!! Still adapting to it. Today was the 2nd day and the 1st day im all alone well except for briefing jst nw, i gt reunited with Pat, Aidil, Hazree and Wan. Aww.... i missed them lots and we had our stupid ITE lame jokes fun for a while there wahahahhaha!!!

Today was my 1st day presentation!! God damn i was shivering!! But i'll get used to it. I went to school and went back home alone. Boo Hoo!! but i like it actually. My personal time to be alone. Tired too hahaha..

Thanks to boyfrend yesterday, hes such a darling!! Skip work just to accompany me for school the whole day. He sent me to school in the morning, waited for me, cooked lunch for me, wait for me again and then sent me home. He was with me all the way! Thank u sooo much!!!

We bumped into Illah in school and then into MingJie after school. MingJie told me tat boyfrend looked so scary coz of his piercings wahahahahhaahaha!!! I know rite? I was scared as well, turns out he's a big softie under those piercings! I love him!

3rd day tml... SCIENCE! Yay!!! Better than yesterday, i cracked my brain for Maths!!! Algebra!! *jumps off the building* Wat to wear ehh.... today i wear all white, maybe tml all black? Waahhaha!!!

Oh ya... Exactly 7 months ago, this is the day where i appear in my dear's eyes till today. Love Love!!

2009-04-18T12:20:00.004+08:00

This is the cat that always sits, stays ard me and dear when we hang out at the playgrd, being told her name is June and she is a stray cat but everyone jst loved her having her ard as shes very lively sometimes arrogant hahaha!! She wont come to ur cat calls but shes always sits n watches u frm a near distance! Theres 2 residents that fed her and shes always hapi bout that! Shes sooooo cute! Dear and I loved her!! Weird thing bout her is that she jumps ard for weird reasons and she dissapears during the day!

Sth romantic that i never expected to be happening jst happened last nite at 10pm. Usually by 8pm my dear would already called me after he rest, ate after getting bck hme frm werk. But yesterday he msged me tat hes upset n dnt feel like talkin. He told tat he might have to werk on sunday, we were planning to go out tml. Due to werk, he was upset. I tried to comfort him but nth works n i was worried.

Then at 9.55pm, i gt a msg frm him saying "go to ur doorstep..." i was shocked, "dnt tell me he's at my door?!" I went out to my door, and saw a box with chocs n a letter right outside. I was like, "Oh no... he did nt jst did tat.." i quickly opened the gate and look ard to see if he's ard, he wasnt, though was dissapointed coz i didnt get to see him (i havent seen him since Monday!), i was very very touched, he then msged me, "SUPRISE, Hapi 2 months anniversary!" It was our 2nd month on the 14th, so the pressie came by late haahhaa!!

Brought inside the pressie and called him, greeted by his sweet laugh. That was really sweet and romantic of him. He said tat since i was already figured out the pressie, he had no choice to change his plan to suprise me. I opened up the box to find a cute plush cushion on Slyvester with a heart attached. Awwwww~!! Even better, he sprayed it with his perfume! He knws i love that smell, coz whenever we meet, i end up smellin his shirt ahahhahaaaa!!! Nw i always smell hes ard me all the time thank u dear. Gave my bro one of the chocs. Behind and on top of the box has photos... hahaa... it was so cute, so does the letter!!!

I was really really touched, no one has ever dne it for me and like i said, i hopeless for romantic craps and he jst did one of the classic romantic things yesterday! I wanna cry but i hold it! I end up shed a few tears coz i missed him when i fell asleep on the cushion smellin his scent!

2009-04-10T13:56:00.002+08:00

Ha!!!! Im sure everyone already knows! I got a laptop for myself n for school purposes. Felt sorry for mum though, im sure shes goin through tough times tryin to keep up with the bills and money prob. Im sure to be cuttin down my expenses. Means... i have to cut dwn my cravings unless im with my dear. Wahahhaa... takin advantage arent i now?

Anyway, Minah? have u decide ur laptop yet? Hearing ur conversation with Fiza yesterday was chaos hahhaa.. Nisa already watched the Fast the Furious 4, haiya! i was jst tinkin of goin movies with u girls someday, its been a while we have movie out.

Been hangin out with the girls quite alot for this week, its great being back with the girls. Finally!! Tipah!! i got to meet ur bf!!! At the Mac on that day, tat was really a gatherin, everyone was there include the bfs! Looks like Nisa and Aslam could get along well. They agreed on 1 thing already and that would be our lil secret! hehehehe....

Anyway, met up with some classmates that enrolled into the same school and course yesterday, i missed them all!!! Thanks to Fiza for accompany me for the enrollment, i couldnt have done it without u girl. thanks alot! Just when i decided the laptop i wanted, its out of stock. Aigooo!!! But this one i got is quite cute too... though im definitely gettin skins for this new darlin of mine. Ofiicially my new lifeline, my dear wasnt too hapi hearin that hahahaaaa!

Anyway i have lots of catchin up to do, left the internet world for 2 weeks and thats long enough!!! Keep me updates of fangirl mode girls!!!!

2009-03-31T02:07:00.004+08:00

Oh my... i really miss u girls a whole lot!!! I havent been seeing u girls since when???! I seemed to get Tipah's diseases, missing out the girls outing and meetings very often. Aigoo... ppl with relationships is hard to maintain isnt? Wahahhaa... anyway, im sooo really looking forward to u girls next week!! Since most of our outings are on weekends and weekends too usually taken up by boifee so its hard sometimes. Weekdays some are in school, my dear workin, so i mostly soooo very lonely on weekdays!!! but to juggle up outings on weekends totally not pleasant. I had to turn down the other party which i really really hate!!! If i can make 3 extra clone of me to go off for each clique is awesome!!!

I have to control my frequency of goin out as well. Mum's really not happy if i went out too often. I hang out with my boifee at the playgrnd for 3hrs maximum on every alternate days too gets onto her nerves sooooo every often. Poor dear, i have to cut our meetin days, i hope he's hangin on ok. Recently he's been chirpy, its soooo calming to see his smile.

On Sunday we went to the beach!! Pasir Ris Park, he brought along his tent for us to sit in, we arrive there ard noon with foods. KFC!! Picnic!! Haha... its nice though, instead of goin out somewhere fancy or shop, hangin out at the beach is really sweet. It was a bright day, clear day!! Cloudless day, seriously its sooo beautiful!! Though its hot but the gentle sea breeze cools the heat off! I took a pic too!
Here's him setting up the tent...
But!!! It doesnt last long, gradually, dark clouds appear and fog out the distant area till its invisible, tat area was already raining while the area we're at still brightly shinning but the wind picked up.. and fell into a storm.
Quickly stayed in the tent, with windy rain outside, we manage to have fun despite the bad weather, had fun talkin of past, playin games n listenin to music, almost fell alseep with the cool rain, the tent is quite spacious so its very comfortable. After the rain stops, we went out had fun at the beach, wet my legs... luckily for me, my boifee saw a jellyfish nearby and call me to safety. Luckily i didnt get stunged!! It was my 1st time seeing it up close!!!! The last and really 1st on a ferry to Langkawi Island! A pink small mushroom like trotting along in the sea near the beach, if it were to measured, its slightly bigger than ur both palm size together. I didnt get to take pic of it.

I'll be hangin out with Anika and Nisa tml, well today actually, in 12hrs time, wahahhaa... i missed them alot!!! And Anika... im sooooo lookin forward for Friday! And can i do 1 personal of mine? I wanna make him 1!! The only presents i gave him is the bracelet and a necklace.. i wanna show my gratitude to him for being with me. 4th April!!! Hyukie's Bday!!! Outing!!! Hmm.... what to wear? I shud wear light since i know its gonna be a long walk and hot day isnt?

I wanna grow my hair out as soon as possible!! I wanna get my 2006 hairstyle back!!

2009-03-29T00:59:00.001+08:00

i knw im super super slow at this thing but... is Megan Fox really a guy? Stated she got her sex change surgery frm her parents as her 16th bday and told tat the Olsen twins too knws bout this huge secret and she recently admits tat shes a guy on national tv. True? Really? If it is... WOOOOAAAAHHHHHHH~~~~~

2009-03-24T02:51:00.002+08:00

I know i knw... almost 2 weeks sia! Hahaa... anyway, wat happened on 15 march, aiyooo... every single one back out left me jst spend the day with aslam at his house watchin movies... lucky we didnt got escape tat day, it rained!! Class pit was also cancelled, sian... i wanna meet all my classmates before we got seperated!!! i missed them a whole lot!! JINRONG!!!! shudnt be screamin for another guy when i gt someone... die die die... he hates when im talkin bout guys i used to like or liked!

Anyway recently hes stressed out frm his family and life problems. Poor thing, suffering frm all the mankind favourite things... rumours, gossips, assumptions, judgements. I know we're all have to ignore these for a hapi peaceful life but some things really doesnt let us to. Theres always probs cropped up to destroy our lil bit of happiness. He broke down, almost went nuts but hes ok.. if i ever leave him... wow i wonder wat will happened!!

i gave him a necklace with a key as the pendant. Im wearing the lock, i wanna the key but he wants it hahaa... hang out, talking crap, gossip bout ppl at playground till 10.30pm, hates when time pass too fast when we're together. Hates goodbyes but at least, we gt to see each other in alternate days.

SATURDAYs i hate tat day!! Is where all the outings popped out from every connection i got and i have to choose between those 4 and if the leftover 3 clique will get dissapointed, angry, annoyed at me. Great.. its bcoz i chose to go who i make the promise first so usually boifee gets the booking 1st and mum uses lasts minutes and when i chose him over her, she got super mad. Aigoo...

Next Sunday.. SENTOSA! he booked me for Sunday. Waiting for a disaster to happen on Saturday, oh plzz plzz oh plzzz dont make mum wanna go to JB this saturday!!! Or else, she would wanna stay over the night and spoils my plan for the next day!!!!!

2009-03-11T05:13:00.003+08:00

Was listening to After School when sth hits me... their leader, i really like her, she's really pretty and her name and face seemed very very familiar but hmm? Finally hits me! OH GOD!!! Micky's ex-gf!!! PARK GA HEE! TAT SAME PARK GA HEE!!! WOAH!! Wat a small damn world!!!! But she's married already haaaa...... woah, Micky, ur ex... woah!!! she's really really pretty!

Im rotting.... rotting at home, thank goodness for boyfren, at least he saves me frm the rotting for a while. On Sunday, after work, he came over as usual but for fun, he dressed up. Oh god, i was soooo damn suprised and melted!!! He loook so damn different and woah... HOT!!! My boyfrend looked ubber hooottttt!!!!! I went nuts inside but kept my cool. I went down in normal with no makeup and here he is all dressed up. Walking beside him woah.. i feel stupid but yet proud!!! The day starts ok but then it got worse and got better by the end of the day. Im really glad he sees certain things my way. I dont mean to control him but there's few things i have to n glad he understands them.

March 12, tml.. Suju's 3rd album suppose to be out isnt? Is it? Sorry Sorry stucks in my head but wait!! I didnt hear any Hyukie's voice! Or did i missed it? But one thing stucks... i'll wish Danny Jones of Mcfly (ex husband! Muahahahahhaa!!!!!) a very Happy Bday! How old are u again? Ahh... 23 isnt? or 22? Im confused with korean age and the normal ones hehe... Looking forward to 15 March! ESCAPE THEME PARK!!! Seriously Wani's guy need beating to his bloody head, how dare he did tat to his gf!! Poor Wani... hope she's ok!

To Fana, once again, Happy 20th Bday soon! On the 14th isnt? If your girls planning outing, im sorry i cant attend, i got plans with boyfrend, sorry but i promised him 1st. Will make it up to u girls soon! But we really need to go out, its been forever... im rotttttiiiinnnngggg~

Recently just started to watch Love Strategy drama. Jeong Hoon oppa... it doesnt sound like ur original voice? Or u were dubbed in chinese? But very very cute drama hahaha!!! He'll end up with Vivian isnt?

Anyway.. someone rescue me from rotting!!

2009-02-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

Huge fight break out between me n aslam again. Gosh tat hurts... it got so bad until he skip work halfway, took cab to my house to settle this problem. We talked for a while and then we went up to my house since its started to rain. At home mum comfort him, askin him to calm down, mum cried understanding how miserable aslam's life is. Aslam cried too while i hold my tears on when mum hugged him. Mum and i served food for him but it takes a while for him to eat.

I then pulled him and forced him to sleep on my bed coz he hasnt been sleepin much. He resists but lied down when i lie comfortably beside him, soon enough he doze off huggin me while he sleeps. He slept for 3hrs. Mum went to causeway point with her friend. Aslam stayed until 10.30pm. Dad mistaken tinkin that he's sleepin over. Its funny though when dad asks if he's stayin overnight. Hahaha... silly. Mum says too, aslam can come over anytime he wants, he can sleepover anytime he wants. Basically mum wants him to make this family, this house his 2nd.

We soon forgot the matter we fightin about. Soon i began to see his smile. I dont know why life is so bad for him but yet we all know tis is a challenge god gave us to face to become strong and wise. Face it with clean intention and heart.

Anyway... im bored sittin at home really... i wanna go out!!!!

2009-02-24T00:30:00.003+08:00

Sunday, mum woke me up early as 7am to get ready for JB. At that time too, Aslam jst got home frm his adventure with his frends, we chatted for a while until he slept while we're chatting. I got ready and went off but msg him before i went into JB.

In JB, i met one of mum's cousins who is one of the higher ranks in the JB custom. He walk us out till my uncle's car where he pick us up. When he walk us out, the staffs there bows down in respect and i felt like we're VIP! Wahhahaa... my last uncle brought his girlfrend along. His future fiance and soon to be wife. My new and last aunt and she's the same age as me!!!

The closer families gather for the day. My closest aunt and her family. My 2nd last uncle and his family with my last uncle with his girl. We were planning to go to a kite muzeum in the late afternoon. While my aunts cooked, mum and i went to the saloon. I got my hair done there since its fairly cheaper than here. I got my hair highlighted, mum chose the colour for me but i didnt know. The way the highlight my hair is weird.

First they placed a shower cap on me with holes on and then he poke and pull out bits of my hair. While doing that, i looked like a bald kid with few strands of hair growing out. The shower cap makes me look sooo damn chubby. After my hair done, OMG!! i didnt know the colour was this bright!! Its so blonde and makes me look like MINAH! Mum actually loved it, she said i look good in it. Oh goshy.. this is me in the saloon after gettin my hair done, mum was still doin hers...

A lil more close up... the colour is brightest at my fringe, told my mum tat i look like a golden monkey now and she said nooooo.... i still tink i do though. I got home at 12.30am and called my dear despite the time and the fact that he's asleep coz i missed him alot! I didnt contact him the whole day! We chatted till 2am. He told me tat he slept the whole day as he havent slept fore 2 days straight. Told him bout my hair and he got excited bout it. Showed him the pics today and he laughed. "My dear is a minah now but i still love u!" See?? even he agrees i look like one..

Aiyooo.... how am i gonna find job with this hair!?!!

2009-02-22T01:36:00.003+08:00

We went out today! Yay for Saturday! He brought me to eat Popeyes at T3, i never eaten there, i only just heard bout it from him. Its like KFC and their biscuits, WOW!!! Its superb!!! Its sooo damn delicious!!! Its handmade i tink... its awesome! Their chicken taste like KFC. Mashed potato is weird but its nice but price wise, its a bit expensive.. a meal can cost up to 7bucks minimum.

We went to take bus 858 home, otw there, dear got mad at someone. Some guy blow kisses to me 3 times in front of him. He's superly mad causing him to be in a bad mood for a while. He slept on me and even drooled on my dress!! I wore the dress he bought me. Gosh! The dress is cute! He got great taste!!

Accompany him to trim his hair at my usual salon then we went back to CP to shop. He bought his hair dye, aiyoo... ash colour. He better look good in it. I thought him to style up his hair with hair wax. Since his hair is like girls, he bought girl's wax. Haha.. After being rejected by mum when i ask her if i can watch movie tat starts at 7.30pm, we went to take neoprint instead. I dont need those fancy types, i jst like neoprint cameras, they will make u look good no matter wat! I wonder how they do tat!! We had fun taking 6 shots costing only 5bucks. Hey! its just for fun!

We run out of time decorating it.. and yesterday!!! Jiro and Rainie came down to CP. i didnt get to watch though coz i was meeting Aslam. Mum stayed though, the signing starts at 7pm, well being stars, they came out late.. at 8pm according to mum. Look how pack the CP is even before they arrived. If someone wants to bomb, bomb here!!

This one is actually at 5pm! Crowd already settled in!

Aslam is out with his friends exploring. Aigoo... so damn worried for him. They're goin to cemetery, i prayed nothing happens to him! Tml goin to JB for the day!!

2009-02-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

14 Feb 09, Valentines Day marks the date for my 1st ever relationship. I didnt know it until 3 days after it. Hehe, im such a blur. I know he sound me but i didnt know if tat was the official one as he said he screwed it up. I only noticed it when he msged me saying, "Ur mine" or "I cant believe ur mine" or "im urs". So i ask him again, its really stupid to ask really.

I havent spread the news yet though. So now i'm making the official announcement. I'm in a relationship with Aslam and i hope this would last long and hope every challenges, we faced ahead we could get thru together with a strong heart and mind. We gone thru lots for the past 4 months and we're still standing now. I hope i can get everyone's blessing for this relationship.

Currently the problem we faced is, we rarely get to see each other and when we do, our time together is limited. i only get to see him on Tuesday and Friday at nite and Saturday afternoon. Its hard, its suffering for him. We missed each other a whole lot but what to do, time is limited for us both.

I need your girls help. I wanna do sth for him on March 14. That will be our 1st month. I will spent a whole day with him. I wanna make or do sth for him that at least shows my appreciation for him. I wanna bake a cake, too bad he doesnt like them. Buying him flowers, definitely no tats for girls! I wanna do sth. What can u do for a guy to show ur care to them? Give me some ideas pls girls? Buying him sth? I already bought him the bracelet which he never took them off. Hmm... I was tinking of couple necklace pendant. Is it ok? hm...

I know it clashes with Fana's Bday. I wish her Happy 20th Bday advanced but im sry to say that if you girls tinkin of goin out celebrate the day, on the 13,14 and 15 i'm not free. I was booked in advanced.

Im gettin bored stayin at hme!!!!!!!

2009-02-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

Almost end it yesterday again, cried ourselves thru the nite again. Until 6.30am actually but things turns out to be better. He was ok again better yet, he finally seen the bright side of his miserable life, nth matters to me except for his happiness.

Oh ya.. i just found out this!

I seriously cant wait for that movie to be out!!! UNNI!!!! Bae Seul Ki is gonna be the lead cast for that movie as a daughter frm the korean mafia against the italian mafia. The stroyline seems promising and i seriously want to see the movie. I heard its gonna be released next year or late this year since they're in production. The storyline almost like DOA, but better as blood blood blood!!! invovles!!! Yay!! The single characters trailers will be out one by one and Seul Ki's will be out last one. Currently i only found 2 character trailers. The movie trailer has the eng version. Unni's eng is so cute!

I definitely need to work!!!

2009-02-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

HappyValentines to all lovers and couples! I celebrated my 1st valetine this year. At 2.30pm i reached at his blk. Some guy prolly waiting for his frend keep pacing up and down the pavement staring and smilling at me. I was playing with a cat. Aslam came down and the guy's smile gone. Aslam starred at the guy mumbling, "nk kene ke tu bdk? stare2 kt u" I laughed. We took the cab to vivo since we're catching the 3.55pm movie. Wow.. costs 19 bucks. Poor dear... he looks fine!

Queue was super super long as expected. All couples. Why all the single girls got roses?!! I wanna know where they got tat roses!!! All movie were sold out and we cant sneak in for Underworld. I can pass but Aslam cant. I dunno whether he could. By rite, he's 18 this year but he's officially 18 in August. Can he pass thru?

We end up eating at Swensen. Costs 71 bucks in total. OMG, i'm totally diggin his money out. I felt bad really but he keep sayin, jst order watever u want. After eating, we walk around. We sat at the sky park. Couples all over. After that we went to Safari Park to see cute lil hamsters ahahaa... before heading home. He slept peacefully on my shoulder all the way. I wanna sleep on his shoulder but looking he need more sleep than me, i offered mine. Poor thing, he checked 81 slips of picklists ALONE today and finished them all in 5hrs. U dont wanna know how many boxes is that. More than 100. His partner was absent today. He was so tired.

When i got home, he passed his gift to me which he had been carrying around all the time. At home i opened it up. A dress, a necklace thats goes with it was in it. The dress was beautiful, it was cute! He knows i love dresses and black.

I'm sooooo gonna wear it the next time i'm seeing him!! Now i had to find shoes that goes with it and it cant be heels coz my dear is a lil bit short hahahahaa... he had a letter pasted at the back of the box too. Then he msgs me sth that suprises me. He was suppose to 'sound' me today as to be his girl officially but things didnt go as he planned as he didnt got the guts yet. Poor thing, he's mad at himself for screwing it up. Aww... hahahaa...

Mum's support of me dating him is totally suspicious. I dont know what to believe. She said she's fine me with him, support me with him but she insulted me for being with him today. "berkawan ngan bdk bawah umor, tkde otak, ingat nk enjoy je keje kau... kluar sane sini, tk reti nk dudok rumah." i was really taken back. I almost wanna face my mum saying, her support on me with him was completely BULLSHIT! but tinkin she's my mum, i let it pass. Keep my pain aside and go on with the day. I didnt let Aslam knows or else, he's gonna be heartbroken.

Why? Seriously why? Is it a big fucking sin i'm dating this guy? This guy is 2 years younger than me? Is it a sin? Is it a mistake? If ppl out there dating an older person got praise saying you found someone worth, but why dating someone younger got humiliated, insulted? I only get to see him for most 4hrs for just 3 days this week. Is tat going out a lot to u? i didnt ask one single penny frm mum when goes out with him coz he told me not to as he handle my expenses. This guy think of my mum's feelings before himself. He sent me home right on time. Even its not perfectly at 8pm but he sent me home before 8.30pm at most. But what did my mum says bout him in return?

I say this guy derserves sympathy and love. He tries so hard to get ppl to like him, to trust him, to accept him for what he is. He may not be perfect, he may be a smoker but that heart of his is what i loved. He may not be the most religion believer or practices ever but he respect his elders, had the basic manners. You wont believe that he knows more bout religion than i do. But looks what people do, think and treat him? They dislike him, hate him for putting me 1st in his pirioties before than others, accusing him for things he didnt do. He lacks for love and attention. He gone thru so much pain for the past 17 years of his life. I dont want him to suffer anymore. For his age, he carries an adult's burden and thinking. He works to survive. He's independant.

Any other 18 year old kid would have killed themselves if they gets to live in his shoes. Trust me, if i was him, i killed myself. No one even cares anyway. Why cant ppl see how i see him?

Saying giving me your support for being with him, what was the support? If they care bout me, why wont they care bout my happiness? He's my happiness. If you want me to suffer, take him away frm me and i'll suffer for sure coz he's part of my life now.

I just wished ppl could understand my position more. Especially my mum. Where's the support and trust i need?

2009-02-11T02:07:00.002+08:00

Blog~ i forgotten bout it for a while. Since i got to know Aslam, fangirl almost fade away. Busy life will take over. i almost forget all the cyber hobbies i used to have. Wahaha.. changed the blog skin! Yeah... i liked this one a whole lot. Lets see.. what have we missed.

Well i finished my 4 months attachement. No more working. Good thing, but it comes with a price as well. I had to be seperated from Aslam too. We both cried on our last day at work. Bcoz of 2 things, we're not gonna see each other tat often no more and also we quarreled tat day. Last week was one of our worst days. Misunderstands took over. Both lost our temper and sensitivity took over. Tears filled our nights. We almost decide to end our friendship. We were like, tis is it, its over, i cant take it anymore. But thank goodness, things turns out ok...

Its tiring really... first time fights were short and fun but now its getting tiring, even more painful and the duration is longer. Wani and Dayah laughed saying, "now you know what we're feeling" when i met them for the day yesterday. Watched The Wedding Game movie. WAHHH~ the movie is very sweet indeed. They had been my fav celeb couple since the drama Moon Fairy!

Now since school is almost officially over, i dont know where to go next. Poly? or private dip? mum suggest private dip.. frends say poly. Have to consider the expenses. ARGH~ headache! i haven even tink wat courses interest me. i tink i need help. I dont even know my interest are!

Tonight was the nite i finally get to see him after 2 days being seperated. He came over and we hang out the playground from 8pm till 11pm. Only 3hrs to make up for the more than 48hrs of seperation. Now i have to wait for 2 more days for Friday to see him for 1hr. Then Saturday, will be the first time i ever celebrate Valentines Day. So it shud be special. Thanks to him, i get to see, live and enjoy another side of the world i never get to see before.

Its a great beautiful feeling seriously. Though it come with risks of pain and big responsibility but its worth it. Imagine of fighting with that person, you'll begin to hate him but when he walks infront towards you with a smile, it totally washes all the problems and your hatred away. No one matters only him in your eyes. When he walks away to go home, then the probs pops in back. Hate that part... missed him. I recommend you girls to fall in love really. Find the right one though.

What i still can't understand is that people concerns bout him plays with my emotions. I gratefully thank all your kindness and concerns. Don't worry bout that, i still have my guard on that. But i'm sure he wont do the things i never think he would do to me. When he says he loves me, i can see right true him.

I just started to watch Hana Yori Dango korean version. Dont blame me for lateness. For me, the korean version.. Akira, Rui and Souljiroh looks way better than Tsukasa while the Jap version... Jun is most definitely the most good looking among the others. Rui comes in 2nd though.. The korean version looks promising! Lets see if it can live up to the name of Hana Yori Dango. I still alot of drama to catch up on! Aigoo...

I still have to look for work until April. I was thinking of working back in the warehouse till April. Since i already know the staffs it will be easy to adapt and Aslam is with me. My boss already invites of we want to continue to work there. I know Anika is searching for jobs, so if you want you can work with me there. I hope you dont mind the distance though.

3 bus trips everyday. 969 and bus transport in the morning and 37 and 969 back home. Work starts at 8.30am ends at not sure if there's OT, it could be 7.30, 8 or 10pm. Earliest at 6pm. Wages, $5 per hour. Double pay for public holidays. People around are crazily fun but dont trust too much. Have alot of syillings for drink vending machine. Work wise, its easy. Nothing complicated. Friends wise, dont worry, no minahs or mat reps and plus there's me, Aslam and Kim to hang out with. But 90% people there smokes. Tea breaks at 10am and 4pm. Lunch at 12 some at 1pm. Supervisors are fun, 2 bosses are stuck ups, Denny and Rodney but the rest are fun! Alvin is the highest rank and he's the nicest person in the world. Food wise, there's catering but will get boring. Coffee shop is 10mins walk away, gonna be full at lunch so strategy wise, bring ur own food or just starve till u gets home. Wear covered shoes. No skirts.

If you interested do tell me, for a temporarily work, i tink it shud be ok coz if we're looking for jobs properly, its gonna be hard since the economy is still bad.

2009-01-20T22:59:00.003+08:00

Its been a while, a long time actually i havent been updating. Things had been rough. So many misunderstandings happened within this time. Luckily things were ok at the end but seriously there's one day i really cant handle it. Having probs with the clique, best frends against u and then adds in Aslam's prob and then to top it off, my mum too. All my allies becomes my enemy for the day and i cant help it by crying at work. Tears fall out of my eyes and one of my colleagues saw it, it was Sally. Sally's fav is Aslam and she really cares for the both of us. She comfort me for a while.

Things got better than and mum's totally good. She read the letter before i did. She's open with everything. On last Saturday, Aslam and I went to eat Seoul Garden. Supposed the others to be there as well but last min changes, they didnt come along. I ate until i bloated like mad and then he wanted to go to toilet and he doesnt want the public toilet. So we went over to his house since its near, i dont want to actually but he forces me saying its urgent. His mum was at home during that time and i gt to meet her, she's ok with her sons n daughter having boyfrend and girlfrend. His mother made me a drink and brought me some food to eat while casual chat while Aslam went to the toilet. After that we went out again, this time to meet my mum at Expo. So on that day we both met each other's mothers.

Lost my first kiss to him as well. On 15 Jan. It was plan. He used to kiss my cheek all the time and suddenly on the lips. I went like, "Oh! Oh! Oh! That was my 1st kiss!" he smiled. He told me he was saving the first kiss till he sound me but he couldnt help it haha...

Attachement is ending soon and its getting scarier as my presentation date draws nearer and the time of attachement too will be over and had to deal with goodbyes. Aslam and I also had to deal of not gonna see each other that very often since weekdays he works and we're only to see each other on weekends but definitely we're gonna be calling all the time.

2009-01-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

New Year... last night, 15mins to NY, Aslam and i were fighting on the phone again. Until 12.15am, we're ok then. Our thing become like the opposite, usually the guy scolds and the girl cries. But between me and him, its the other way round. Its always like that and i felt gulity everytime he cries!

Since today he's working and im not, we're planning to meet later but luckily he finished werk earlier and got to spent time with him longer. Met at CP at 4pm. He sent me hme by 7.45pm. He kept his word to mum on sending me hme at the right time. At 8pm.

Gave the bracelet, he guess it right at the end. A few mins before he opens it, "Oh! i dh dpt, u kasi i gelang eh?" i cannot say anything jst smiled. I only gave him 3 clues yesterday night. "Red, Long, Aslam" He opens it and had a huge huge smile, put it on him and he kissed my cheek saying thank u. "dont have to give me anything, u given me enough" But the bracelet was still loose, so we went back to the store to get it fix, to the right size. His wrist is like my size! "im gonna show it off tml at work!!" Haha...

We walk around the mall. Looking at Primary, Secondary sch books. Laughed so much when he made lil mistakes.

I cant wear much blusher nw days as its gonna be gone by the end of the day... when he kissed my cheek almost every now and then. So its wasting wahhaha. He gave me his ring. By accident he forgot to take back his ring when he puts on me when we're at work, "u... simpan tis ring" He told me that ring plays important part. That ring saves him frm being seperated frm me. Yup. I almost decide to leave him when he told me his deepest secret. Anika knws bout it, dnt tell to anyone else girl! Its all in the past and i hope he change for the better...i can see some progress and i mind his future thats it... i was gonna leave him but i saw the ring on my finger and slowly i thought carefully on what i shud do.

Still... that hateful night of his. I still hate it, still trying to take the fact. All the more reason i hate the Indon women. They're the type of ppl that destroys the ppl that were dear to me. Watever the reason is, i'm not letting any other girls putting their hands on Aslam for any ill intention.

Sth funny happen yesterday, i was walking with Anika at the mall when i saw a couple, the girl was holding a bouquet of Ferrero Rocher chocs, to me, its like showing off. I immediately say to myself, "So what! I got more of that chocs than u~!!!" wahhahaha...

Anyway, Happy New Year to all. We're oldies now.. no more the label of Teens. W're Tweens already. Number 2 is already infront of our age already... no more 1. Aigoo.... but personality, we're still 13 year olds right? Hehehe..

Anika!! i need your Powerpoint software... i still havent start my project, its due in a month!!

2008-12-28T14:06:00.003+08:00

An update after a hiatus for some time hahaha... i really cant update at nite coz Aslam is definitely on the phone with me so its kinda hard. Been in and out of fighting with Aslam. Almost every night! About small lil things we would be quarrelling already. Both of us are sensitive in certain parts. But we surely would made up in the morning or late late nite.

Yesterday is the same thing. Its actually drag on for the past 2 days. He was on EMO mode again by his mum's lecturing. Then it gets worse when he talks to me since he's already sensitive so when he talks to me his sensitivity rubs on to me and i got sensitive myself. He kept asking "if you're havin second thoughts of being with me, tell me now" he keep askin this everytime we fight!!! "you're giving up on me arent u? like everyone else" is another common qns. My head almost blown up.

"Kalau i tgh diam, u tkleh try to pujok ke? dont u at least want to try?" he asked. I said i cant "pujok". Basically i dont know how. All i can do for someone needed me is being there... hold their hands, listen to their stories, hug them when they need it, telling its gonna be ok, everything happens for a reason. Tats all i can do. Giving advices or suggestions is not my thing coz it might cause bad thing afterwards.

"Pujok is the way to show someone you care" that line of his totally hits me. He was still sobbing when i said i'll be right back. I cooled my head down by drinkin cold water, sat outside watching for a minute. After that i picked back the phone, hearing my voice, he cried even harder. "how could u left me when i'm cryin?" i told him i needed a time out for myself as well. I chatted with Anika for a while, sry for leavin jst like tat... my head was really 'sot' already.

But things works out for the better after a few hours, calm ourselves down and got back onto our normal mode thanks to Russell Peters. That totally cheers us up. Everyone has been askin whats going on between Aslam and me.

We're very close friends, not normal friends either but we're not a couple just yet, not an official one yet. Maybe i shud make a t-shirt with this line. I'm tired of telling them the same thing! We're still taking it slow, when we tink we're stable maybe we'll go on officially. Currently with family, frends probs keep popping up all the time, him being super super sensitive, me being light headed is not gonna be a smooth relationship, thats y we tink its better going rough now and smoothly for the future later.

Anyway... ZOO OUTING!! Happened on Christmas Day, it was super fun!!! To Aslam, it was the best time of his life. Nana drove and picked everyone up and they picked me up last. Met Ain's bf for the 2nd time and hahaa... he's so funny, very very friendly!! With that looks, wow.. Ain, ur one lucky girl. Got to the Zoo, the queue was super damn long but it moves fast. Ain brings her video cam. I lost Kim's first present to me. I got tease by Ain's guy for my weird reactions. Nana being a pig and she kept on eating. We got out from the Zoo at 6pm and went to Yishun fishing spot for a sunset and then they sent me home. Pics, we only took a lil. Aigoo...

Aslam gave me this, woah~!! I'm in a chocs heaven!

The gifts i got for Christmas.. wahaha.. we did exchange gift! The cadbury frm Nana, pillow frm Ain and that cute bunny statue figure frm Kim, suppose to be with the friendship band too but i lost it~
At the fishing spot, why he look diff in pic than in real? Well for me.. i dont know bout others.

New Year is soon, and i'm planning for buy a bracelet for Aslam. Money... i want with that engraving, i fooled him askin bout buying a bracelet for a friend and need his opinions. Seems like the one i chose could be the right choice. There's even a video when we're exchangin gifts, not much fun but its just a video when we're openin the gifts while waiting for the next splash show at 5pm.

2008-12-20T13:08:00.003+08:00

This week its almost everyday i went home with him. Its either he sent me straight home or until the interchange. Most of my time are spent with him. The clique had met him. If there's any comment, good or bad ones do tell me... i dont want us to hide secrets frm each other or pretend to like him when you guys dont just bcoz you guys dont want to hurt my feelings.

But yes, i do know that his piercings are disturbing for you girls. It may gives a bad vibe but trust me, its the heart that matters and his heart is plainly lovely despite his rough appearance. Well we keep saying dont judge book by its cover and this is one of the real example! Haha... i dont mind his piercings coz basically i'm used to it? Even he took them out or wear them it doesnt change who he is. Aslam is still Aslam.. I found him that way, i started to like him that way so if he wanna stays that way.. its fine for me! I hope you girls can accept just the way he is! He doesnt talk much around the people he doesnt know. But when you got close, he talks non-stop really. Despite that looks, he's well loved by his seniors at work. They're always caring for him.

I got told by his frend to treasure him and she told me that he's a very very nice guy despite his hair, piercings and fierce look. He treats girl he cared about with full of respect. He does actually. He's gentlemen, polite for his manners but that mouth i'll train it soon enough. I'm trying to help him to get rid of his bad habits. Which is smoking and plainly quit and never ever think of drinking again. Help him to trust the ppl around him that cares for him again. Regain his believe and love GOD. He's more religious than i thought but bcoz of circumtances he lost the believe..

The day before yesterday something bad happened but it happened for a good reason. Mom msg me she's at Vivo City at 7.20pm. I took the chance to go home late and spend more time with him. I reached home at 10.30pm. Dad was furious, i didnt care much. After i closed my door, dad throws his glass and it shattered. Dad was totally furious, i was so scared and cried, msg my mum and called Aslam immediately. Hearing his voice i cried even harder. For 30mins he tried to calm me down. He keep insisting to come over. Mum got home i got more scared thinking if she laid her hands on me.

Turns out she didnt instead she hugged me telling "its ok, its gonna be ok, mum loves u" i cried even harder in mum's hug with Aslam hearing it thru the phone. After that Aslam cheers me up with his antics, i regained my calmness and smile. Cleaned up and went to bed.

Yesterday mum wants to talk to Aslam. They chatted on the phone. Found out that mum gives the green light for Aslam to be close with me. "Take care of her, be nice to her, send her home at the right time, respect her, be gentlemen, protect her" is what all mum says to Aslam. He gives a big smile. One prob solved.

Things were not stable bcoz i have to go thru my parents first. He got the habit of kissing my hair and then it moves to my forehead and now my cheeks. Wani saw us walking together and she thought we're a couple and never told her the news.

We're not a couple! We're not just normal friends either. We're in the middle... we're not officially a couple. When we are, i'll announced it but the warehouse already labeled us as a couple already. What to do.. rumors and news spread fast! Especially couple stories. I'm famous now for being Aslam's girl in the warehouse. Wow..

Goin out with him today... he'll be gettin off work soon enough~ our 2nd time goin out together alone. The first time was the first time we met! Which was almost a month ago!

2008-12-08T15:16:00.002+08:00

Try beating our record, 12hrs straight on the phone. Lucky he have free outgoings and i have free incomings. Last Sunday was 8hrs. This week 12hrs. WOW! On the Saturday, Anika got tricked hahahaa!!!! I didnt mention that Aslam was with me when i called her out. Lol, sry... i was literally bored since i dont know where to go and i dont wanna go home yet, and i want Anika to meet Aslam as well, to get her opinion on him. So Anika! Now you have seen him compared to tat time, how is he? Any good and bad points i shud know or take note off? Do tell... i dont want the Tipah and bf incident or similiar ones to happen again.

On that same day, at night he called, as usual we chat but till 2am only coz somehow he fell asleep!! I called to him over and over and laughed to the fact he really did fall asleep. Next morning 11.30am he msg saying sry for what happened. I called him laughing when he said hello. We then chat till 12.30am tat night. My family saw it. "On the phone only!!! Who's on the line? boyfriend ah?!" my mum asked. I laughed.

Today he's working. I was still sleeping when he msg me this,

"U u u u u u u u nk tau something tk...promise me u tk blang org tau...u wanna kno, u wanna kno, u wanna kno something... i miss u dear... hehehe"

Reading it, i said, "siao!" and went bck to sleep. He's so looking forward to the 20th Dec. We're having another outing again! To the zoo tis time. He's taking leave specially for this day. But trouble, Ain cant go and rescheduling at tis time is impossible... uh oh..

Oh ya, bout this Saturday outing... i'll be meeting you girls at where? I'll be going straight after work.

2008-12-03T23:13:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was probably the biggest fight between me n Aslam until he cried so badly on the phone. Then today he was still upset until i cant barely talk to him, he went off to toilet for a while. I didnt tink of anything, he just suddenly walk off so fast, he came out with his face washed, he cried. I could tell... i chased him askin why he wouldnt tell. He walk ahead leavin me bhind. I went back to work with heavy sigh. I did my werk and later he msged me this.

"Im really i was not in the mood, u can help by not worrying about me... i oready hav alot of tings to wry about... im really sorrie". After a few msgin, "u can for me but wry bout me... im really sorie, its nt tat i dont wanna tell u im juz scared u will wry... i care for u too much to see u stress" we made up after tat.

Cheered him up a bit. Went home after i gave bck his cigs, finally saw a small smile on his face. He gotta werk overtime till 10pm tonight. On the phone with him already actually.. his msgs after tat was strange frm any other msgs he sent me. He sent me this...

"jage diri k...im not wif u so cannot take care of u... anitink just call me. tkcr dear". Dear sia... i got promoted frm 'U' to "Dear".

"Nk kiss can?... dont why eh tapi i feel lyke miss u seh... i knw ur tinkin yg i tk tau malu."
"K lah miss u many2 k... hehehe.. mUaCkSsSsS!! see i giv u kiss somemore tau"

he's gonna pop out the qns soon~ i can guess, he's already droppin hints!! OMO!!!! still i act blur2 to distract!

2008-12-01T22:25:00.003+08:00

Every night always ends up with a small quarrel or misunderstanding between me and Aslam. Sorry to Anika for offline just like tat, i was annoyed with him. Being jealous over Micky is ridiculous!!! Its not like i'm really chasing him! Oh gosh... fan, i'm just a fan dude!!

But... after seeing face to face each other during lunchtime, we're back to normal. He pinched me today AGAIN! this time harder, i slapped him 3 times. I felt sorry after tat hahaha.. he's obviously protecting me from any other guys. An uncle i used to work together with in a department walked pass us, "Dek... skrg kt mane?" "Oh.. kt receiving" "Best?" "Bole lah..." I smiled.

He gave me a weird look, "ape u..." "Die panggil u adik?" "Ya.." "Adik bole... kalau darling, bsk u tkkan jumpe dier lagi dh" I laughed so much tat part. "Laki lain kalau panggil u darling, sweetheart, sweetie, sayang, sweetheart ke.... i bantai dorang tk kire sape" "Jasper dh panggil i smue tu dh..." "Oooookkkkk.... u tkkan dgr dari dier for a very long time" Gosh... him being protective is just so sweet. Really sia, he wouldnt let any other guys looked at me for very long time!

i didnt say this before coz i wasnt sure but it was already been confirmed just now. On saturday on the way home in the bus, i slept on his shoulder, i link my arm around his to lie on his shoulder so my half on my arm were on his stomach. I thought it was my imagination coz i felt 6 packs on his abs. I didnt say it coz maybe its not true but just now he asked, "u... tat time u tido kt i tk rase my 6 packs ke?" i answered bluntly, "tkde pon?" he was upset lol!!! obviously i wont admit it lol. Since he has this habit, praising himself too much. Whahahaha.... but yup... i loved when i slept on this shoulder moment. Basically it was my first time doin it and it felt so comfortable... and tat arm.. KYAAA~ i actually felt he lands his head on mine certain part of time.. i thought he fell asleep too but ehh.. no leh?

He poke me today, he pinch me today, he gave me chocs. Thank u... it saves me from sleepy land at werk jst nw, totally boring this new department. But seeing him so happy smilling laughing everyday is nice rather he's being down over his personal problems. At least he could enjoy a few hours of laughter a day.

He confess to me yesterday saying, "part dlm bus tat day, i admit... i cair giler when u sleep on my shoulder" wahahhahaa.... Farah cut her fringe. Is it me or she's really tryin hard to fit in? Since Ain, Kim, Nana and Me now havin short fringes, she wants them too and it so not fitting her, i prefer her last look.

Fav line from Aslam, "u tkkan bole stay marah kt i nye... i senyum je, u cair..." i laughed so hard till i cried while he's sulking one corner mumbling, "tkpe2" repeatedly.

2008-11-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

Major skinship today between me and Aslam. We got really close today. I was scolded in the morning coz for the past 2 weeks, i've been goin out often and got home late and didnt really follow mum's orders like even when she said not to go out i still go out despite of the scoldings. Make mum tinks i'm rebelious after i started attachement saying i'm clickings with wrong groups of friends.

I cant say anything coz if i did, it'll get worse so i took the insult and keep the pain to myself.

I went off to Anika's first to borrow her black shawl, i was wearing sleeveless so later if its too reaveling, i'll cover since i know its gonna be hot in Escape. Ain, Nana and Ain's bf picked me up frm Admiralty. Haha.. they got lost along the way. Ain's bf called my name and ask me if i wanna bcome skinner. Kyaaa... he's so cute! Lol. We picked up Kim's bf after droping Ain's bf at Pasir Ris. Then it was already raining hard, aiyoo... spoil the plan. We picked up Kim frm work and then off to Pasir Ris. It was shining. YAY!~ We ate at Burger King and it pours again. Aiyoo... then it shines again YAY!!! Hahhaha...

We ride the flipper, the stoopid small roller coaster and the pirate ship first before Aslam arrives. Nana hold on to me so tight, putting her head onto my shoulder while yelling, "AIN!!AIN!!" all the way. Whaahhahaaaaaa~~~ We all went out for a while since Kim and her guy wanted to smoke. While waiting, Aslam arrives. Haha.. he and Kim's guy wear the same colour, black top and white shorts. He dyed his hair. Gosh... he look so much like mat rep. Wahaaha.. but its ok when i gt used to it.

We entered the Haunted House first. AIGOO~!!! Aslam really happy seeing i'm scared to death. Once we entered, i just took his hand into mine and hold on to it for my dear life and at the same time i hold onto Nana. He was chuckling behind me. Pulled him close as Kim's guy keep scaring us. After that, Ain, Nana Kim and me totally run off far far distant which makes Kim's guy and Aslam laughing like mad. The ppl saw us too were laughing. First skinship... haha...

Then pirate ship!!!! AGAIN~ It was fun and then at the highest part, i hold onto Aslam's arm tightly for dear life. Gosh the feeling of the pirate ship was super awesome!!! The pressure of your heart gonna jump out was the best!!!! Nana cried again. Yes she cried when she rode for the 1st time. Since it was Aslam's first time in Escape and on the pirate ship. He was trembling hahahaaaa~!!!!! We rode the log too! I got super super wet!!! Then the roller coaster again, the pirate ship again hehe...

Since Aslam hasnt eat, we all eat at burger king again. He's scared to order so i ordered but he paid. hehe.. he paid for my hershey pie~ After that more rides... Ain and Nana ride the ridiculous rides, the ones for kids. Funny sia.. me and Aslam felt like watching our kids havin fun. Waahhaa... at 7pm, we ride our last one which was the flipper and then went home.

Ain dropped Nana at her house and dropped me and Aslam at tampines. Aslam accompanied me to toilet first before we took 969 home. He sent me home, this time really home as he dropped at Admiralty as well. Haha, he's dumb for a bit there. In the bus 969, i was really sleepy, but i cant sleep, i wanna ask if i could sleep on his shoulder but before i ask, "u nk sleep, sleep kt my shoulder" i took the chance. Since he sat so far i cant lean much so i pull his arm, slip mine across his pulling his shoulder to lean my head on. I slept peacefully till Admiralty. When i tink of it, tat was a really 'couple' look. Took 912 dropped off while he still off to interchange.

He pinched me today. He made fun of my flabby arms since he's one is solid. Yea, even though he's skinny, that arm of his is stiff and muscled. Did i told u i like guys arms with visible veins? It makes they guy look sexy and charming. And he have those kind of arms. Tat size of his arm jst nice to cuddle with. I made fun of his "R" pronouncation again. And realise he does have some things in common with Kim's bf!

Basically i really enjoyed my day, and i really dont want it to end. I wanna ride the pirate ship as much as i can!!!! Rainbow and Inverter were off today. ARGH!!!!

Did i tell u Aslam is falling for me? I tink i told Anika already. Its scary since i have to answer to that sooner or later but it doesnt feel bad either, i mean to know that someone cares and pay attention to u does makes u feel special. No wonder ppl falls in love. But wat makes me stop is... he's 17. Am i allowed to be with someone younger? 2 years of difference to add. It feels ok if he's older than me but it feels weird when he's younger. Well... lets us be frends till whenever we can.

We shud do this kind of outing again soon!! End the day with his msg, "I really had a great tyme wif u just nw... thank yoo for tat :)" I finally saw him eats!

2008-11-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

I spent my 2nd lunchtime with Aslam today. He changed the spot since the last one we got recognize by too many ppl. This time also, so many ppl walks in between us. They were smilling and teasing us. It was fun though, making fun and teasing him. Since he gave the scary fierce look to ppl but knowing the sweet gentle side of him is nice.

Today also is the first time we never msg each other at all for the whole day but he broke it since he msg me at 7.30pm askin where am i. Lol, i replied, "u 1 hari tk msg i tk bole ke pe?" wahahhaa.. we promised to online on MSN at 9.15pm. He didnt turn up. He didnt reply my msg. He didnt pick up my call. I'm worried, very worried... is he sleeping? If it is, thank goodness since its been a while he should get a real night sleep and rest. But if not? Where did he go? What is he doin? What happened to him? I hope nothing happens to him.

This kind of person, makes u worried for them without noticing and may create misunderstandings in thinking we're a couple. The feeling is like taking care of a lonely 10 year old kid where the mom needs to be by his side. That's the feeling i'm havin. But sometimes yea, i forgot that he's 17. Hwangbo Unni... i feel u sis..

Farah is really distant, she goes home without telling us, she left first, usually she had her bro or dad to pick us up too but this time she left us like tat! She never talks to us. Nana told me tat she's jealous since i'm having all my attention towards Aslam instead of her. WHAT?! Whahaha... but its true, she sticks with me all the time only recently... i've been stickin with Aslam.

Looks like the whole company bout me and Aslam. Since almost everyone saw us sitting together, chatting already. Aigoo.. rumours are gonna spread soon enough. Poor Aslam gonna get teased all the time. But he confess to me jst now was funny sia... "when the first time i saw u, i gt a crush on u" and then he paiseh wahahahaa... so cute sia.

I change department for the week. Back to Country Hub but in order processing. I catch up within hours unlike Nana used up 3 days ahahhaa... Its quite busy but when there's nothin to do, kyaaa.... boring sia.... next week under Receiving department. Before that, ESCAPE THEME PARK~~

2008-11-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

Today i didnt eat during lunch, instead i spent my lunch time with Aslam. He was still sad regarding the girl and i was there to cheer him up. During the 10am tea break, we walk pass but he did it again, looked up to me and then look away.. "Eh... smile lah sikit" i grab his arm. He smiled and walk off.

I was still worried so lunch, me and Farah went to toilet, i called him on the way back to the pantry to hang out with Nana, Ain who were still eating. I called him, he picked up late and his voice is so soft and can tell he's sad. I told him to come out and talk to me. I was talking to him with Farah by my side, she was talking too and he asked, "Sape kt sbelah u tu?" "Farah.." "Suroh die diam sikit" WAHHAHAHAHAAA~!!!!

He doesnt want to come out and keep saying he's ok. I know he's not so i force him to come out. "K2 i kluar..." he finally said. I waited him at where he always stands. Suddenly, the guy tat gave me the card approach me! He ask me qns and told me tat he was just happened to saw me and then gt to know my name and create the frenship card. What happened better was after that....

He was still chatting with me, trying to get me talk to get to know me better. "U buat ape kt sini sorang? tunggu ur kwn?" I smiled saying yea... he keeps on talking bout him doing the card and suddenly Aslam appears. He saw, his moody face, he sat down at the staircase, the guy keep talking coz he doesnt know i'm waiting for Aslam. I walked slowly and then sat down beside Aslam calling him... the other guy went into total shock mode. Wahhahaa... u shud have seen his face. He kept walking pass back and forth behind us.

For 15mins, Aslam sat there smoking 2 cigs already, "stop it lah u.." he heck the care. He's still upset so i chat him up slowly and then tease him and make him smile and then slowly he laughed. Mission accomplished. The only to get him talk is to make him smile, laugh and comfortable first. I confisicated his cigs and he was smilling beggin, "u... satu je.. lagi satu je.. u plz.. u..." "no, u dh isap 2!!" i end up giving him another one but i took the rest. I was fighting with him when a frend gave him 1 cig, before he could light it.. i took it, "uu... kasi lah... tgk i dh trembling ni, tu important u..." "ohhh... ni bende lagi important than i lah ni.." We were quarelling like kids over the hour, ppl keep walking pass, smiling at us.

his frend walk pass, "Amboi...." he said. Wahhahaa. Nana and Ain saw us together. After lunch gone, i went back to my station with his cigs. "Sape nye rokok tu?" Kim asked. "a frend". Then i received a msg, "thanks for cheering me up" awww...

In Msn, he asked me this, "is tat how the way u treat ur frens?....like how u do to me....even cried for them...stress when they r??" i said yes, isnt tat how frend work? he never had a real frend before. He's one pitiful kid, tats y i cant bear to let him go like tat. He says "ur frends r lucky to hav u n me too" Awww.... "i've neva met one lyke u" when i ask hws his frends treat him. "hate to admit it but ya...u r a rare one" i'm a rare frend. U wont find someone like me in the shops!! hHahaha...

2008-11-23T21:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Aslam and I got into a huge fight. Not really a fight, its jst me actually. We were chatting as usual but then we touched in God's topic. I cant believe he didnt believed in Allah. I cant believe it, then suddenly tears flows out of my eyes and before i could stop it, it flows even faster and more. I was crying. I didnt cry bcoz the shock, i cried bcoz i felt so sorry for him. Watever makes him lose the believe in Allah, i cried for tat. He thought i was mad at him.

I didnt type much and he realise sth was wrong with me, i just said i want to sleep and left without saying bye. He was surprised to knw tat i cried...I went to bed crying. He sent me 3 super super long msgs saying sry and askin me not to leave him like tat. i'll type out his msgs to me last night.

At 12 midnight..
"Niza plz dont be lyke tis...i wish i could explain why i feel lyke tis but its a really2 long story n even if i could i dont tink u will understand... i used to to trust in everyone until every single one of them betrayed me tats when i lose trust in everything even god... i kept tinkin to myself tis will end n it juz got worse n worse... am i so bad tat god ca make my lyfe tis horrible...plz dont be like tis...i've got enough things to worry...u r the good thing tats keeping me away from doing stupid things...im really sorie niza..i dont mean to dissapoint u..."

At 12.15am.. after he realise i didnt reply..
"i oready lose the person i care so much about tis week...dont make me lose u either... im not saying tat i cant change how i feel its juz gonna take tyme.. im sorie if watever i said jus now hurt ur feelings...i just dont tink u would care... but it turns out tat u do... n i'm really sorie"

I still didnt reply.. i read the msgs and jst went to bed crying, the next morning i got puffy eyes and i realise i got one more msg.

Sent at 5.44am!
"U... i dont kno wat i say to make u mad at me but i kno its something important something tat u dont lyke... if u wanna stay mad at me i cant force u to forgiv me... juz remember tis, including u i've lost the 2 important person in my lyfe tis week...see wat kind of lyfe im living...guess hav to deal wif it..."

After few msgs, we're back ok and he ask me out to forget the girl. After much deciding, we met at Habourfront at 2pm. Well.. he reached at 3pm! I had to wait 30mins for him!! We finally met face to face alone. Before tat, i msg Anika and Nisa. Anika called and kyaaa... i was trembling talkin to her.

Basically its my first time meeting a guy on my own. We walk halfway at Mount Faber when he said, "u.. if i say sth u marah tk?" "ape nye" "nk gi vivo?" i jst turned and walk down laughing. It was very awakard, i kept quiet all the way but i already gave him warning, "Dont be surprise if i dont talk" he laughed sia... Half of the time we spent together were aimlessly walking around Vivo and laughing having small talks.

We sat at the sky park, he smokes... i got splashed by kids there and he laughed at me! After that he went to buy hair dye, i told him to choose dark colours like reddish brown. I'm a dark auburn myself, mum dyed for me yesterday. He chose medium auburn... i dont know whether tat will suits him... i have the feeling it doesnt hhahahahahaa... well better than blonde! Mat rep sia!!

At 4pm maybe its the time i slowly opened up and comfortable with him, teasing him like i do in msn and him laughing saying, "suker?" repeatedly. Wahahhaa... With me, he smoked 4 times already!!! I told him to stop, he wont. It was already raining and he sent me home, in the bus 963, we listen to his hp. All emo sad love songs sia... he took 168 bus home after we seperated at the bus interchange.

He's actually nice, have a nice smile... if only he quits smoking, get rid of those piercings, believe in Allah.. i'm sure he would be a better catch. He told me, "You're rare type of girl to find" Yes i am.

I dont consider this as a date or anything, we jst went out as friends as he shares his stories with me. When we walk around... ppl stares at me, smiling and then their smile gone when they found out him walking beside me. Wahhahahaa....yea, first look, he's scary... turns out he's jst one sweet kid with lots of problems.

2008-11-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

Its been a week i havent update? Wahahhaa... this week is hectic, heart-thumping, wild crazy, depressed and a whole lot of fun!!! Ain and Kim are totally clicking with me and Nana. But we're drifting away from Farah as we found her getting irritating by the day... we've been having plans to get rid of her when we're going to hang out outside, i know its very mean but i cant help. She's that irritating until she pushes me of the limits sometimes.

I talked about Jasper, she will talk more about her bf and she brags bout it as if she's tellin me that her guy is better than Jasper. Tat totally pisses me off. Saying her guy is excatly like Jasper too iritates me. Coz basically everyone is diff, no matter how identical they are, they're still diff so it irritates me when she says tat when she doesnt even know Jas.

The more you brag about a guy u like or you find interesting, the more she brag saying her guy is better. And then she brag about herself being pretty in the past too irritates me. Gettin flatters frm ppl is good but bragging urself is so not the way isnt? She keep saying, "I was one of the pretty girls in my secondary school, i got a lot of guys chasing me, i was pretty as you before this"

I was "hmmm.... oooookkkkkkk~" How am i suppose to react?!! Amazed? Hell no.

She keep saying she's super scary when she's mad and might hit someone if provoke. "You tink ur the only one? Everyone does.. DUHHH" i thought in my head. She keeps on bragging bout her so called scary personality when she's angry. "WTF" i keep sayin in my head. Irritatingness~~~

Its not like we dont like her, we just cant click with her with our real personalities, she cannot take teases. She hold grudges over small lil matters. Bragging bout the bf that we never actually seen or know totally bores me. I once told her, "So what if he's hot and good looking and stuff if he got one lousy personality? WORTHLESS" i said directly to her face, thanks to Aslam for that line. Hehe..

I tink its been a month i gt to know Aslam, and its only the last 3 days we've been closed, keep msgin each other all the time and then at night, msn.. bcoz of tat, i lack of sleep for 3 days and need red bull for survival.

I got home super late yesterday. 11.30pm reach home. since 6.30am in the morning till 11.30pm i was out. Working, then movie and then late night hang out. Mom was angry but it didnt last long. Kim cut my fringe for me, sooo i got my short fringe again. Aslam too like it. When he saw me after i cut it, his eyes was wide and he was smilling so wide. Hahahhaaa...i msg him if does it look funny, he replied, "nahhh... you still look beautiful" aww... he's so sweet.

Somehow, i almost forget tat he's 2 years younger than me and when i remember tat fact, it makes me feel weird talking to him like this, or acting like tat to him. I mean, i'm like a sister! I tink i understand HwangBo's feelings. Unni~ Hwaitting!

I bought Strawberry and Champange body spray due to hot pick by Nana Ain n Kim haha.. i want to buy Pure Seduction but then Anika is using it. So not orginal, and since this smell is nice too, i bought it. At 15 bucks! Anika.. i bought it 1 dollar lesser!

Next week, Escape Theme Park babe~!!! YAY!!!!

2008-11-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

This week, its my new department. For the next 3 weeks, i'll be in this department. For the first time, i felt this week past super quickly. I had fun being in this department actually, more paperjob to be done and my supervisor is really funny but when he's serious, he's scary. So i better not get onto his bad side. But the 'bird hunting' part was hilarious!! And ya!! Thanks for the welcoming present from the department... i'll get u guys someday!!! How dare they make fun of me! U'll see one day, i'll trick u guys!!!

I rewatched Ouran and finished today.. YYYAAAATTTTTAAAA~~~!!!! Tamaki!!!

I went a date with my mum on Saturday watching Madagascar 2. Funny sia~~ The 17 year old guy? We turned out to be great frends!! Well chatting frends tat it.. we still cant talk face to face hahahaha... seem like he liked a girl, gd luck to him! Company goes movie day... BOOOOO~~

Mum and I found a phone. Sony Ericsson K850i Cybershot. It was scary when the owner keep calling and i accidentally answered the call twice. We didnt talk. Basically its like we stole this phone. I felt guilty at first... but i gt over it lol. How evil am i?!

Anyway serious talk now... to put it bluntly, its regarding Tipah. Now, i know your upset when you see your frends are talking bad about ur beloved. Yes, even i can understand that. I do, coz when ppl talks bad about Jasper in the past, it totally makes me furious no matter who's the audience are. But on the other side my frend, lets see what started this misunderstanding, Me and Nisa wasnt there, but the rest were and according to these 4 precious mine, his first impression to them wasnt what they thought, ok i dont mind coz we dont judge ppl from first impression, we'll give him chance to fit into us...

But what i cant bare to listen is that, according to one of my precious says that your beloved says we're immature and basically doesnt like Safiah's first impression. Ok, somewhat it pissed me off. We're all pissed off. He judges us in one shot and made the decision in callin us immatures. We didnt tell our thoughts on ur beloved coz we care bout ur feelings and we know he's important to u but now?

We're being called as 'Immatures' by ur beloved. How are you suppose to react? Are you suppose to agree saying we're immature or you tell ur beloved not to say bout us like tat coz we're your friends? After Nisa told me what you wrote on ur blog, i've come to decision...

Well, if u ask me yes babe, its a big deal for us as it involves our feelings and pride as your friends whom were with you longer than he did. If you don't care bout tat, well cant help it isnt? We rarely see each other, talk to each other or keep in touch. It seems like we barely know each other.

Call us immature coz we are, we're the immature that values our friendship. So what we're immature? Better than pretend to be mature isnt?

You believed what you believed, you trust who you trust.

2008-11-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

Finally had the whole weekend off last week and both days were spent with my precious, how fun~!!! I sure missed them a whole lots though i didnt get to spent time with Nisa though... Finally met the 'myrakan' frend ahahhaa... Sunday was sure fun~!! But yea... we're definitely super racist towards the indian society... not hatred we just like to make fun of them ahahhaha~ how evil but we still respect them of coz...

Saturday spent with Anika.. gosh, i didnt know we're climbing a mountain!!!!! Wrong dress code some more!! But the spectacular view simply take my breath and tiredness away.. i enjoyed that day though my legs completely died tat night.. hahahhaha....

Monday i moved to another department, i didnt do anything the whole day except staring at a collegeaue while she does her work. She's a fast multi tasker which amazes me!! She can memorize a telephone or SER number which have bout 12 digits in one glance! Woahhh.... i stare at her work yesterday and didnt take any notes coz for me, it would be useless unless i get my hands down on working on it. Being like tat i got told off by my superior, "Kalau u nk kene scold, u dont take notes" He's Munirah's bf. Aigoo... Ain cried coz of his pressures and he felt guilty. PADAN MUKE~ scold org lagi kan Ain dh nangis... u dont force ppl to memorize one whole shot of codes under a day while u stare at her like an eagle and keep askin qns!!!

In 2 weeks time i'll be under his care, die sia... Today i made my first call under diff department, Kim and Ain were impressed at my calling skills. Of coz.. i got experience frm the Call Management department ahhahaha.... Basically i wont be bored in this department coz there's alot to do and you wont have any time to be idle.. tats GOOD!!

Kim is Ain's childhood's friend and i'm gettin along with her just fine. Alan!!! U silly dumbass!! Alan had become a big shot in the warehouse being so called like manager of us girls since he's the only guy in our clique. All guys that wanted to get to know either Nana, Ain or Me goes thru him. Today, or to say since last week, "Niza..... give me ur MSN lehhh.... my frend wants to get to know u..." I asked who, when he showed me i was shocked!!! While the others laughed like mad. A big teddy bear chinese guy Alan showed me. One word frm my mouth, "SIAO AH?!!" Alan keep pestering me like a stalker... "ok ok... one more, very handsome guy, i swear" "Dont want!! i cant trust u one.. u keep lying!!" The girls cracked up like mad.

And.... i cant stop with the indian accent on saying, "12.30 to 1.30" Anika knows it. I keep saying everywhere i go, its becoming like a habit!

"12.30 to 1.30~~!!!!!"

2008-11-06T21:50:00.001+08:00

T.O.P, member of idol group, Big Bang was rushed to the hospital yesterday after collapsing. His condition is stable and he is on sleeping pills. A spokesperson for Chung-Ang University Hospital stated that the TOP had overdosed on his medication (it’s not clear whether it was cough medication or anti-depressants).

Apparently, TOP was suffering from depression. The frontman never showed any signs since he is known to be quiet and keep to himself. But this attempt to end his life is a desperate plea for help. The poor guy is obviously unable to cope with the pressures and demands of being a star.

credits:popseoul

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The fact that YG Entertainment released news of Idol group Big Bang member, TOP being hospitalized on November 5th at the Seoul Heuk Seok Dong University Hospital, but didn’t seem to bother to make an appearance at the hospital has become a cause for suspicion.

Communication stopped after Big Bang’s TOP was allegedly hospitalized, only until ‘groundless suicidal’ rumors grew did a they act post-haste and a hospital spokesperson ultimately appeared.

YG Entertainment is close to it’s YG entertainers and when there was a health problem, his personally packed items were sent to the hospital where a professor appeared at the hospital, explained the situation and left. “TOP was in a conscious and confused state when he came to the hospital on the 5th at 12:30PM,” and “Judgment of the dose of medicine is currently difficult. And he’s currently sleeping in the hospital room” said the Professor. But about the strange rumors, the professor replied TOP “Can’t know.”

YG Entertainment will hold a briefing at 10PM where they will try to remedy the current situation.

credits: seoulfull

ANIKA~!!!! UR BF!!!!!!

Alan says i look like going for photoshoot after work hahahaa... funny sia u Alan.. Farah says i have the potential of being a professional. The thing is, what kind of professional am i? Ehhhh....

2008-11-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

Ahhhh.... when i found out that this saturday of our off day for attachment students, u dont know how i happy i was!!! Its been a while since i hang out with frends so its time to go out!!!! Mom called me at work at the wrong timing, when i was handling 2 calls frm customers and need to update schedules and on system. Luckily i manage to do it all at the same time even my colleague was impressed, i told ya... i'm a multitasker!

Mom called saying tat she bought white jeans for me. Ehh... white? tats hard to take care off! She bought the wrong size.. aigoo mum, size 26? I can take my pants off without even unbutton! I can just pull it down!! i need a smaller size!!

Today there's lots of flatteries... Alan flattered me so much today. He said i have the chinese looks and says tat lots of guys frm his department wants my number but that part, Nana beat me... she got a lot of guys wants her number. I can see why... she acts all cutesy type of person in front of everyone tats y.. while i'm the type tat just, basically... dont care? hahaha... Alan really can read my personality, "u see ah, niza is the type tat always sit at home and always follows her mother says.." true true.. ahhha.. he even want to introduce me to his friends! "age 23 can? too old for u? can lahh... he's ok one.." hahahaha... Farah suddenly says, "kau ni cute ahhh" which shocks me haha.. she also mention, "when i first saw niza step into this factory, i tink she'll be the one that attracts ppl the most" Alan nodded, "ya me too... she got the chinese look and her eyes also big, i even thought she chinese sia" tats why he ask Eden on the first day we met. Is it me or Nana look a lil bit displeased at that comment jst now? My imagination i tink...

Well, for Alan's opinions of me, thank you so much. I appreciate your flatteries for me. Thanks dude, ur the first guy to compliment me so much under 30mins this year. Thanks to Farah too! She's been treating me alot lately, she bought me breakfast, sweettalk, burger king and even famous amous cookies today. She really dont mind spending so much on me. Its like i'm playin her gf role while she's my bf ahahhahahaa... and sry babe for being irritated at ya yesterday... but lucky u, i'm a type of person tat didnt dwell on a situation tat much. If its big then i make a big deal of it..

Jasper appeared again. I msg him for fun using Farah's hp, he replied sia... then he suddenly pop up on msn chattin with me. Gosh... i was shocked. He appeared in my dream yesterday too. Being a waiter somewhat host club? He called me Cat, and called me on the hp... it seems like i was so happy being with him in it tat i dont wanna wake up for work. Its gettin confusing... have i really gt over him??!! Why he still keeps popping up in my head?!!!

Someone is big big jealous whenever i brag about Jinrong and Jasper... hahahha...

2008-11-02T14:25:00.004+08:00

Mamoru Miyano... is the voice actor i really love alot~!!!! Since i encounter Ouran High School Host Club, i fell in love with Tamaki Sou's voice. I've been watching animes with Miyano's voice in it. Yes, Light Yagami was his most noticable role. He's also Zero and Ichiru in Vampire Knight. I said this before hahaha... but i didnt know he was this good looking!! I mean for someone that hides behind screens and only his voice is projected, he's cute sia~~

And.... he's also a singer! Tamaki senpai~~~!!!! I'll show u sth funny... watch this. Tamaki changes into Light.

and this is him in action doing his best roles... Tamaki n Light's evil laugh..

Hahahahaha~~ Love Miyano's real laugh at the end. His voice is charmingly sexy.. maybe thats why he's the most fav among the seiyuus~~ I remember laughing mad when watchin Ouran at the scene he acts just nw, the health check up episode.. wahhahahahahhaa~~ Tamaki baka!!!

Oh ya, due to my browsing, Miyano did an anime called Antique Bakery. It sounds familiar and then i remember Anika saying bout Joo Ji Hoon's new movie, it was titled the same. I found the trailer few days ago and yes!! Confirmed, tat movie is a remake from the anime itself coz the anime is tagged as shonen-ai. Means gay type of anime but its a soft one dont worry, jst soft feeling boy to boy type. No hardcore.. i remember the trailer too! Someone hugs Ji Hoon frm the back... kyyaaa... i cant wait to watch the movie!

2008-11-01T15:05:00.001+08:00

See? I found my own Jaejoong wahahhaa... i forgot to post this days ago... Haruma Miura. I seriously tink he look better as a blonde than his black hair, though black is cute on him, he look matured but that wild yet innocent sweet Sakurai Hiro from Koizora is still in our hearts. Koizora is <3~~ A typical high school love story plot but somehow its so touching~~

And tats Anika's wahhahahaa... the original one..

2008-10-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

Alex and Shin Ae will say goodbye to We Got Married for the second time.

Alex and Shin Ae filmed their last outdoor shoot on 29th October for MBC We Got Married at the Acoustical Society of Korea located at Yeoksam-dong, Gangnam-gu. 600 fans from the Alshin fanclub attended in the format of a fanmeeting as Alex and Shin Ae left the show in their own special way.

On this day, Alex and Shin Ae came to the fanmeeting venue early as they decorated the entire place personally with flowers, balloons, photos (polaroids I guess ^^), etc. Shin Ae also made cookies and presents in the form of cosmetics, autographed photos, etc and packaged them nicely. The production team even transferred Alshin couple sofa from their home at Yongin, Gyeonggi-do to their fanmeeting place, making the atmosphere extra heartwarming.

During the fanmeeting, Alex and Shin Ae chatted with their fans, Alex sang for them while Shin Ae read out letters with the entire event brimming with excitement (you have to wonder how much of this will actually be aired). As Shin Ae was opening her letter, she couldn’t help but start tearing. She couldn’t stop herself and burst out crying several times while reading the letter.

Seeing that Alex and Shin Ae would really be leaving following the conclusion of the event, fans were noticeably sad at that. Alex and Shin Ae will film their last studio segment on 4th November and their farewell episode will air probably in mid-November. PDs claim that there will be no further changes after this.

Reasons given for Alex and Shin Ae departure from the show was because of Alex’s back problems while Shin Ae has to film a saeguk drama Empress Chun Chu. As the filming for Empress Chun Chu takes place in Gyeongsangbuk-do (outside of Seoul) and which could take up 5 to 7 consecutive days, it wasn’t realistic for Shin Ae to travel from Gyeongsangbuk-do to Seoul.

The ominous signs were there or rather a combination of factors that were forced by circumstances. Choi Jin Shil’s (Shin Ae was very close to her) death, Alex back problems, something fishy when they added 2 couples despite only Anbi leaving, the lack of airtime for Alshin couple in the past few episodes, Shin Ae starting her drama filming, Ant couple moving into a big house, etc.

It was good while it lasted when they made their return. It took a while to regain the lost spark. But when they eventually did, every single moment despite little airtime was sweet. They are still the only couple to leave and then return on We Got Married. Now, I have even more reason not to watch when they are officially off the show, they were my favourite couple afterall.
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I think when watching WE GOT MARRIED, i will only have Samchoo couple left to watch.

Like coolsmurf, my favourite couple is Al-Shin. It will be boring without the.

YADDDAAAAAAA~~~~ AlShin couple~ They were my fav before SamChoo couple in.. aww mann..... but the new couples are also fun but still the original ones are still the best isnt?

I hope to see more Alex and Shinae in future maybe in other shows?

Customers with stylish names doesnt mean they're good looking or so, i've been callin customers with stylish names and end up they're from the indian native, how i laughed so hard until my colleague tinks i'm mad. Wahahhahaa~~ i called a korean customer too! Kyaa... his voice sounds cute sia.

But not all customers are nice, some just being plainly rude... i havent finished talking they already put down the phone. Wat the hell!?! Lucky phone if not they're gonna get smackin frm me!

Mom got retrenched yesterday. Oh no, mom's out of job and where the hell are we gonna get our daily expenses money from? I could at least contribute for these 3 months a lil bit but then... if tat happens, bye bye to my Tokyo trip next year.

YAAAADDDDDAAAAAAAA~~~~~~

So anyone have some info on jobs that u tink my mom could have, do contact me~!!! I want to at least fulfilled one of my childhood dreams!!! Sakura trees~!!!

2008-10-30T20:40:00.002+08:00

Its half into the 2nd week of my working days. Seems like this week passed a lil quicker compared to last week. Though we still working 5 days instead of 6 thanks to Deepavali~

Its strictly proved to me tat skirts arent allowed, though i did wear leggings, still no. I tink i look ridiculous yesterday, my outfit totally werent usual myself~! Though i gt comments like "nice glasses" "I like ur hairstyle" but overall, i look awful. Today i wore wat i wore everyday when going out, "Ahhh... Kaka, why u look so pretty today? U work warehouse sia..." says Alan, a new friend. He's from LR, lol... finally gt to know more bout him, and he's ridiculously funny. Cheapskate magic trick lol..

I gained a new friend, the guy i meant. Lol, funny chatting on MSN last night. "bsk u nmpk i, better smile eh... sombong seh kt keje, pandang pon tk" I laughed like mad, so today.. finally! Our eyes met for the first time, he was already smiling as wide as possible, he was with his friends, and the whole gang simply stared and smiling at me, how am i suppose to smile!? Nervous sia.. i was flushed!!!

Saw Ain and her bf, KYAAAA~~ Ain's bf is a HOTTIE sia!! He was sooo handsome serious!!! Nana and I were like, wahhh.... handsome nye.. "mane dier dpt ah? species mane dier dpt sehh.. aku nk satu?" we talked like he's some kind of object lol. But the couple is sweet, Ain is pretty and the guy is hot. Perfect match. I just realised that i'm the only one without bf within the girls. All taken sia.. how lonely..hahhahaaa~~

I'm getting used to the call management thingy. Though its pretty boring just to sit there doing nothing. While no calls supposed to be make, i spent my time reading manga that Farah brings me. Thanks girl~ I personally think, she's annoying. Really annoying, she talks non-stop. And when she talk nonsense, she laughed on her own. But another side of her, she's nice person, loyal and a good friend. She's always there to help. Since i dont have Anika to chat bout animes, japanese and korean guys, Farah bcomes Anika's replacement! Wahaha... thank goodness Farah have the same hobby!! We talk non stop bout our so called plan to Japan next year!!!

Mom rises up my hope and then crushes it down. She might not letting me goin to Japan next year. Not bout the trip, mainly bout the financial part. Told Farah and her being nice, she'll try to ask her bf to fork out some money for my plane tix. Woah?! She's so lucky really. Having a rich family and a rich boyfriend. I mean.. honestly, she's not pretty, she's like a nerd but she and her bf have already been together for 2 years!! Woah... respect babe~ I'm sucking to her coz of money.. wahahaaaaa... sounds evil sia, but she knws bout it already!

"I'm money desperate sorry" i told her just nw. She laughed so much at that line.

I'm waiting for Sunday~~

2008-10-24T22:11:00.002+08:00

I cant believe wat happened today, just when i thought i could get used to this working life and meeting new friends, a new frend was taken away from me, ending her career just like tat. Not fair sia. Nisa, the new frend i've said before was invovle in some kind of argument yesterday i left. Munirah was invovled too, she cried so much tat she didnt come to work today.

I got to know Nisa more better, understand her situation and listens to her stories but it ended so fast, i was just getting used to her presence. I feel like i wont be bored or lonely if i have Nisa with me, but she was fired this afternoon minutes before i got off work. A sudden change to her face after she came back from somewhere with staff officer and security guard behind her. She got mad at Kelly for telling on her. I cant explain much coz i dont really knw whats happening but Nisa and Munirah were on bad terms with Kelly and it costs Munirah's tears and Nisa's career.

I almost cried seeing my new frend was taken away from me. I have another week to go at that department and Nisa wont be there anymore, back to the weird and lonely days again. Even Mun is going to be there but i feel better with Nisa around. I'm gonna miss her sia.

Ain drove us to work today, wahh... love her driving. Very smooth. Drive us to work and back Ain! I tink Ain is a nice girl after all. First impressions could be misunderstandings haha.. Thanks to Farah for the mangas, thank goodness there's sth to do while i dont have any calls to make. Bring me more mangas!!!

Tml half day.. YAY! 1 week gone, feels like 1 month!!! Oh ya, the guy that liked me at work started msging me. As being humble, i reply of coz. We were msging when i was on the way back home till i gt home! Then we continued on MSN. Hahaa... found out that he's actually 2 year younger!!! My bro's age sia.. i told him frankly that i wasnt looking for relationship but i'm open to casual frendships. It might hurt feelings but i have to let him knw before he have high hopes on me and i would be crushin it, tat would hurt more. Told him that i'm the type tat is hard to find someone that i really like and the last time i was serious was in 2006.

He asked me to told bout it so i did. Here comes the Jasper topic again. It might hurt his pride as a guy when i keep praising Jas and stating how special he was to me before and sorts. You know girl talks. He didnt talk much and apologise for it. Haha...

i kept one msg from to knw for his number sake, i didnt save his number haha.. but i like this one msg of his that made me laugh out loud in the middle of the road. Ppl tink i siaow already.

"No leh i was wearing black seh.. the hensem one... hehehe.. sorie kalau u nk tau i ni suke puji diri sendiri pasal tkde org nk puji i.."

Funny sia... he look like mat rep sia, how ppl want to praise him? he look too scary to stare at!Anyway, 2 days off! 5 more days at the department. Countdown...

Shugo Chara season 2 was out, cute sia... vampire knight guilty epi 3 out.. CR finally gt Hell Girl season 3!!! This time Enma Ai's transformation hurts.. hahaha. SHINee Amigo song is cool.

Anika!! Kyra!!! JAPAN~~ IKOZE~!!!!!

2008-10-22T23:41:00.003+08:00

Today, somehow, i had fun? Well actually at almost at the end of the day.. its not exactly fun but i felt time pass through really fast which is the good part, maybe thats the reason i was kinda happy today. Time flew past fast. YAY~

Learned how to make urgent calls so i'll have more calls to do, tats a good thing in a way coz it wont make me bored and sleepy since i have things to do. But i wish to do more writting or paper work together with making calls everyday. Coz, i'm a multitasker, doing more than 1 things at the same time prolly one of my good points if i like wat i'm doing and i'm easily bored.. but... its still early, so maybe later i'll have more things to do.

There's one cute chinese guy at work, usually in the morning he walks around my work area to check stocks but he never look my way.. YAAADDDDAAAA~~ no handsome or cute guys around sia.

SU~MA~NAIIIII~~

I rather have chinese guys attention than the malay mat's attentions. Today first time sia, one chinese guy i never talk before say bye and wave at me. Haha... i wave and smiled back as if i know him. Lol...

Tml work again.. 3 more days to SUNDAY~!!! DEEPAVALI holiday!!! Thank goodness they decide not to make us work on public holidays! YAY!! I got to know my team members more, they're kinda fun and they're really nice and pretty too. They're definitely not the minahs at all. They ask me to talk more since they found me too quiet, lol i told to myself "Haha... wait till you'll see the TRUE me, you'll get tired when u found out how much i REALLY can talk" Hahahaha... my first impression to new ppl is always the opposite on the real me, i tink everyone is like tat isnt?

Thanks to Farah's parents for sending to Tampines on the way back home. Domo arigatou desu~~

I watched Koizora just now, omg~~ Tears... tears... tears HIROOOOOOO~~~ he died of cancer! Their love story is simply sweet and yes, tats eternal love. The love tat everyone wishes to have except the cancer part. Haruma Miura~~~ Kyaaa.... he's HOT!!!

ANIKA~!!! I FOUND MY OWN BLONDE JAEJOONG!!!! Hahaha... tats Muira, eventhough he's a year younger, he could totally pass the feature of a 20 year old. Miura!!! That blonde hair totally looks good on you!!! I tink blonde suits you better than black!! Though black is good too but with blonde, tat wild gangster character is HOT on ya!! Number 6 of the list!!

Miura-kun~~!!!!!!!! when he cries, he's the cutest... Hana Kimi SP epi IS OUTT~~ but no subs, but i still watch it halfway thru, somehow i understand wat they're talkin, thanks to my daily Jdrama, Jpop and anime influences... WOOT~ Shun, tat hair is hideous!!! Dye ur hair auburn like in Hana Yori Dango back, tat one was AWESOME. Nakatsu look as usual.. Nanba senpai... KYAA!! Hiro kun!!! kyaaaaaa~~~

Ok... midnight, i have to hit the sack soon, tml working. Oh ya! i met Azimah today.. lol, we talk alot!! cant believe she's still with her guy!! 1 year and 4 months already!! hwaitting!!! She says tat she misses me alot becoz of my laughter, hahhaa... she told me i look so different than before but inside i'm still the same. Of coz.. i'm me~~

Azimah kirim salam girls~!!

I must thank Gokusen production BIG BIG. Coz tats where i gt hooked on Jun in season 1, and then see the real hotness of Akanishi Jin in season 2 and then my sweet lil Miura-kun in season 3. Got season 4?!!!! Introduce me more HOT guys!!!!! YANKUMI~~~~!!!!!!!

2008-10-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

1st official starting work day. With mum's blessing, i set off for work early in the morning, kyaaa... i was so sleepy, i didnt slept well and my eyes were still swollen frm crying yesterday. Met Nana and Farah and off to work, after i saw my team members of my department has 2 malay girls, i was a lil bit worried, turns out they're ok! They're not minahs at all... they were minahs though but luckily nt in the same department.

My new team members are Mun, Nisa and Kelly. Bad rumors bout Kelly.. Nisa told me hahha... For the next 2 weeks, i will be sitting down in front of the computer looking at lists of customers need to be call and confirm their orders and stuff. Its ok when customers orders pours in but when it didnt, it get bored and time of waiting is always there and got me thinkin when will i be able to go home.

Lunch was scary, the minahs invite us for lunch together. YAADDAAA~ Met Mun's and Nisa's boyfriends, they all too work there, Mun's bf is very sweet and funny while Nisa's one is good looking and playful. Nisa's bf actually hooked me up with one of his frends!!! Aigooo... i tried to turn him down nicely but they're presistent!

5.30 finally!! GOING HOME!!! Looks like taking 969 home is a bad idea, bus took 1hr and queue definitely long. If i take MRT? hmmm..... i need the fastest soloution to get home. This is important coz i finished at 5.30 and i have 1hr and 30min to get home just to at least see my mum. I didnt get to see her today.... luckily she's off tml.

4 more days to SUNDAY. Looks like Sunday is my new fav day!

2008-10-20T19:16:00.003+08:00

I HATE THE ATTACHMENT COURSE. Here's the lists of why i do so.

1. I'm officially a factory worker. Doing various things in the warehouse
2. Zila was seperated from me, she got transfered to same branch with Eden instead
3. There's only ONE bus to get there
4. Distance of the bus stop and the warehouse is freaking far, we have to walk
5. There's no canteen, we have to have our lunch at the only coffeeshop in the industrial place which is as far as the bus stop!!
6. There's only 2 malay stall at there
7. The place is humid, heaty with all the perverted uncles. They already got babies and wife, still acting young.
8. There's a few Mats and Minahs
9. There's no freaking lift!! We have to climb to 3rd storey every day
10. Work starts at 8.30 but have to be in Tampines by 8am for the bus transport, why not pick me up at Admiralty instead?!!!
11. I have to work on Saturdays and Public Holidays. Someone kill me.
12. Work ends at 5.30pm, calculating time, i wont be able to see my mum off for work everyday, i'm sensitive when it comes to my mum, so for not to be able to see her at least a minute a day, it brings tears to my eyes. I actually cried in the bus just now thinking that she might already left for work, luckily she hasnt.
13. The place where ppl heat up their food or eat at the warehouse is like a haunted place. Like an empty 'under the block with no windows view'
14. There's no locker for us, so its hard to keep our stuff at.
15. The arrogant Ain frm next class gt transfered to us, oh GREAT..
16. Eventhough, we're all under the same warehouse, we're all seperated into different departments and we will rotate our departments every 3 weeks.
17. The area is HOT and HUMID.
18. I have to get up early and rush..
19. I wont be able to eat or sleep properly, not mentioning rest, i only have SUNDAY off.
20. I cant hang out with my frends anymore.
21. The salary, they didnt tell us coz it will dismotivated us from working. MEANS? Its little.
22. I have to work 6 days a week, public holidays, traveled half of the island every single day for the next 4 months and i cant see my mother often.

I got home, i hold up my tears, talk to mum as usual telling her hows my day and all, after she left, i burst into tears tinking how my life's gonna be for the next 4 months.

*EDIT*
Mum's msg a few minutes ago...

"Takpe lah susah sikit angap aja ujian sekolah buat dengan hati iklas dan sabar mama tau anak mama bole buat terbaik ok"

I burst into tears again right when i already stop crying. I guess she did saw i was down even when i smiled at her just now...

2008-10-19T00:10:00.003+08:00

My darlin FTI got their 2nd album part 2 out~!! Their latest mv was awesome as expected. But... Aigooo... LEE HONGKI!! ur black nails!! Wonbin didnt get much air time i barely realise he's there!! Hahha... Minhwan look ubber cute. Jaejin, bring me to ur hairstylist, tat person need one BIG BIG slapping to do!! Jonghun kyaaa... 2nd part of the drama mv tis time invovles Jaejin and HongKi. First part of the mv, kyahahaha... Hongki ah, you lose to Jonghun for the girl. He gets the girl first eh? Be nice.. he's younger than you! By 5 days hahahaaaa.... now i tink of it, in their 3rd drama mv, why Hongki call Wonbin hyung? Opposite lah dey~~

Jaejin gt stabbed in the latest mv, its not as dramatic as JongHun gt stabbed but still sad! Why the directors keep hurting them in the mvs??? Jaejin die sia!!!! The director hate them or wat? but still awesome actings and music from these boys. Love love~ FTI Hwatting!!! Make noona proud!!

Someone tell me whats that on Jonghun's neck and on HongKi's finger?!!! If tat tattoos are real, i'm gonna slap those boys silly!! Piercings are fine but hell no to tattoos!! They're my angels. Angels and tattoos dont mix!!!

I love rock ballads from FTI, all their song are addictive and pretty much easy to memorise to sing along! And certainly, they do use the word "LOVE" alot in their songs... almost every mv are sad, heartbreaking with touching lyrics. EMO lah eh? Kyahahahaa~!!!

BoA debuts~ Woah... nice debut. Love the video. Well i only seen the Asian version though. I tried to get her song but Anika told me i got the fanmade one. Woah.. and its nicely done too!! Love the fanmade one. When is Se7en gonna debut? OPPPPAAAAAAA~~~~~

GOKUSEN 3 FINISHED!! YAY!!! Finished all 3 seasons of Gokusen. Big Big thanks to Gokusen, i got introduced to Mastumoto Jun face to face big time. I mean, it was the first time i heard his voice, see him moving about. Before that i only seen his pic when Nisa posted on her blog. Gokusen 2, i had great time with Jin and Kame. In Gokusen 3, i kinda fell for Miura Haruma played as Kazama Ren, kyaa beautiful smile and sweet, shockingly he's a year younger. Didnt see that coming!! Cant believe he's 18 with that look! Meanwhile Ogata or real name Yuya, certainly didnt pull off the gangster look... hahha.. he look to cute one thing and he look as if he's 15 or 13!!! but still he acts greatly... i love those boys when screaming in anger. Totally scary but the scariest one i've seen is definitely, Ikuta Toma's. Akuma~ Akuma~!!!!!

Haiz.... by right tml, i'm off for first day of work. I dont want to go!!! I just want to go to school and study, read books, chat with frens, home tats it~!!!! I dont want to work. YAADAAAA~!!! Currently watching Yukan Club, whahhaa... thanks Nisa for tellin me. Jin is hilarious~~!!! and when he speaks english...

GOSH HE'S SOOOO HOTTT~!!!!
AKANISHI JIN~~!!!!! WOOOOTTTTT~~~

2008-10-17T00:56:00.003+08:00

On the 14th was the first and prolly the last time i'll be seeing the school at night. After a month, finally the class is back gathered. Everyone is thrilled to see each other to see if there were any changes. Kyaaa, i missed everyone of them!! I talked alot according to Wani. Lol, i got soooo many tales to tell you silly!!!

News of everyone to where being thrown for attachment for the next 4 months was announced. Those got to be under the same company and teacher were glad and happy. Those who weren't were shocked, worried and practically nervous. As my nervousness came, i began to shiver like i'm super super cold. I was cold actually but nervous too. As my name were announced, i was alone. I'm alone in a company. I was terrified~!!! Only 2 students under a company called TNT and that was me and someone else from the other class. Oh great..

As i was being introduced to my so called partner in the company, the guy smiled widely seeing me, i just nodded in response. Anzari was already teasing me. "Ha, kau jgn nk pandai2 mengatal ngan laki lain eh kau, kalau tk mati kau aku kejekan.." i just laughed out loud. Checking for confirmation and address was 'kecoh' surrounding our teacher in charge. I went over to Ayie to see the paper since he's holdin them. "Ehhh... kau jauh2 sikit, jgn dekat sgt ngan aku.. karang aku tk leh tahan karang..." Dayah hits his head. Hahhaa... went home for the last time with the girls. In the moonlight, we chat like we used to.

We ate in the KFC like we used to, chat, gossip, making fun of each other, checking cute guys out. We havent done it for a month and prolly this is the last time. But seriously scary too. Our table is surrounded by guys. In front, 2 guys were already checkin us out. On the left too. At one far corner as well. One guy almost call us out but their friend quickly cover his friend's mouth to prevent it. WAhha.. cute scene sia~ "Dorang nk panggil Niza cute siak~" Dayah laughed. "Aku lagi~ best eh korang, malam ni aku jadi topic kacau korang" i said.

Seperated at Raffles with Dayah and say bye at Ang Mo Kio. I got home at very late timing at 11.3opm. The next day, i decide to check out the place where i'll be goin for the next 4 months with Anika. Rainy day and too bad we werent allowed to go in further than the police stop. We went to shop at bugis instead, only Anika did. I couldnt find my hair extensions that i want. But we sure to eat alot! We didnt stay to see Wu Chun in flesh. 7.30pm was the timing.. nw i regret, i wished i stayed, i mean at least i got to see at least ONE idol i used to fantasize!! Aigoo!

Hana Yori Dango season 2 vcds, saw them, called Kyra and got excited! Haha... saw Kame's drama too~ Kyaa... Kame-kun!

This morning, its a good news and bad too. I got changed company. Bad news is the outing Anika yesterday was useless. Good news is, i got 3 classmate with me in the same company at the same branch!! I'm posted to DHL Express along with Nana, Farah and Zila. Ha... i'm happy~!! Thank you!! God listened to my prayers at heart! Thank you~~~

Now, i have to check out the place again... aigoo... Anika got school so i asked Kyra along instead, but i'm not sure if my mother wants to go. She said she want to go with me instead of me bothering my friends for it. Since she's not workin tml, i'll ask her.. if she cant, i'll go with Kyra. I have to figure it out quickly. I only got 3 days...

I'm scared, nervous. I told you... i hate new surroundings. I hate new environment. Basically, i dont like changes!!! Dress smartly it says. Must be covered shoes. Any ideas what i shud wear? Hair style? Accessories? for the first day??!! HELP!!

2008-10-13T02:29:00.002+08:00

Bad habit again~!!! Hahhahaa.... late night drama/movie marathon in your room is the best!!!

I rewatched Kurosagi drama. Wahahaha, cant resist it. Kyahahaha! I only watch 2 epis of Code Blue and then jumped to Kurosagi. Pi's character in Code Blue is too serious. 'Sumanaii~~' Although i'm supposed to focus on Pi, my head turned back to Jun after receiving Nisa's msg bout Hana Yori Dango cds. Kyaaa... so i ended up watchin 'Myu no Anyo Papa ni Ageru'. Its Jun's latest work, aired on his birthday. Hehe... kinda late, hey... i wasnt tat into him just yet then!

I ended up crying like mad. Seeing him play such role kills ur heart!! But first scene, WOOT~ Topless again babe!! Hahahha.. Sad story really, must watch! But he's married with 4 year old daughter in it but the wife very pretty, daughter very cute!! HAha... Asuka from Bambino!! I love her hair colour, someone tell me what colour is tat!!!

Since it says this is Jun's latest drama, i searched for other episodes and found none. And found it weird, this episode 1 has 1hr 40mins as its duration. Got drama epi tat long meh? So another words is, is there episode 2 and others or not? Or is this is somewhat mini drama? it says its a speacial epi on the 24hr TV. ehhhh??? Nande sore??

Anyway, Vamipre Knights Guilty has taken off with the first epi. KYAAA~!! ZERO!!! I love seeing u!! Well basically i just love ur voice eh.. baka~!! Why didnt u kiss Yuuki?!!!! Beat that prideful Kaname senpai!!! Lookin forward to the rest of the season 2 soon.

Another anime season i've been waiting too has taken off with its season 2!! Vampire + Rosario Capu~!! YAY!!! The gang is back again with new character, Moka's lil sister. I cant wait for the rest!!! Next upcoming anime. Jigoku Shoujo 3rd season, is it out yet? I havent check!!

Today Hana Kimi SP shud had aired in Japan, subbers!!! Get to work!!! I want to see Nakatsu!!!
I read a news, good news for Yamapi, Horikita Maki and Ikuta Toma's fans... there's saying that they're working on a love drama together!!!! As high school or university students if i'm not wrong. YAY~!!!!!!!! Add Jun and Hiro and i'll be in Ikemen Paradise!!!! I'll have my own Hana Kimi in my own world!!!!!

And... Yabe`~ I got hooked on Kat-Tun's sillyness after watching Cartoon Kat-Tun and strangely..... Kame, i'm seeing pink stars and hearts around him whenever he appears on the screen. Kamenashi Kazuya... he's next?!!?!?!! Haaa.... heee...... he's cute too eh? i mean i knw he is but it hits me first time, 'He IS CUTE!!!' Number 5 on the list!

1. Matsumoto Jun
2. Yamapi
3. Mizushima Hiro
4. Ikuta Toma
5. Kamenashi Kazuya

I wonder who's next.... wait~ Mokomichi Hayami looks cute too!! I mean that Zettai Kareshi totally blew me away! Narimiya Hiroki too... haaaa...

Still i'm in Japan.. i wonder when i'll return to Korea? Oh ya, the festival, Nisa? Anika? Going? It would be the best night if they could slot in DBSK, Super Junior, SS501, FTI or Big Bang in their slot!!!

2008-10-12T16:59:00.001+08:00

[Coolsmurf News, Written By Him]

This is not a hoax. I actually learnt about this Kpop concert in Singapore from an Anbiholic friend, RgalSteff a few weeks back but nothing was confirmed yet. Then she told me about the artistes that would be coming yesterday (subject to change) but I didn’t want to post it yet until it’s really confirmed.

Well, many thanks to jean_kkp who emailed me about this and kyurella@livejournal who emailed the Korean embassy for information.

Well for the record, the Singapore Tourism Board has organized a Korea Festival 2008 from 1st to 18th November, with a variety of traditional and contemporary events, from fine arts to popular culture and mainstream music. But the highlight has got to be the K-Pop Concert which will be held on Tuesday evening, 4th November 2008 at the Singapore Indoor Stadium.

Details are sketchy at the moment but the following is an email reply from the Embassy of the Republic of Korea who are the organizers for this event.

"Thanks for expressing your interest in the K-Pop Concert, to be held on 4th November 2008 at the Singapore Indoor Stadium.

We are very excited to introduce a promising line-up of singers and performers from Korea, including established stars such as the Wonder Girls, Chae Yeon, Andy, JunJin, V.O.S., and Jewelry. Emerging artistes such as U-Kiss, 2PM, Peter and Kim Jong Wook will also feature in the performance on the 4th.

Ticketing arrangements for the K-Pop Concert are still being finalised. Tickets will not be sold through the usual outlets such as SISTIC. Instead, they will be given away over the next few weeks through our key sponsors, Far East Organisation, LG Electronics and Korean Air. You may wish to check with the above-mentioned sponsors on their plans to release tickets to the public.

Korea International Radio will also be holding live quizzes around mid-October to give away free tickets to listeners.

We encourage you to stay tuned for further developments and news in the media over the next few weeks.

Thank you."

It seems like it would be a lottery to get the tickets. We don’t often get to see K-Pop artistes performing in Singapore so this is a pretty awesome opportunity regardless. The list looks pretty awesome on paper. You have argubably the most popular girl group Wonder Girls, sexy Chae Yeon, two Shinhwa members going solo Andy and JunJin, Jewerly, V.O.S. and the emerging artistes.

It’s nice to see all of them taking the time to come overseas to Singapore for a performance from their busy schedule. Hope that those who win the tickets are K-pop fans or at least become a convert after watching them.

2008-10-09T00:11:00.002+08:00

Kyaaa... Since last year i didnt get to jln raye with the girls so this year wow, i was worn out!! Bloated with drinks and cookies.. wahahaha!! Got home late! Thank goodness mum went to work earlier if not i wont be allow to reach home as late as i did on yesterday! It was fun! All the kecoh was all over the place, the clique was together... so memorable. Haha..

To Anika, dont worry too much bout ur dad, he'll be fine. Dont let ur imagination run away too far, there's doctors, medications to help ur dad. Thats wat doctors are for. Just pray that your dad will get well soon. We will too. We're here if you need to talk, you know our hps are on 24/7, well at least mine does!

Today, Safiah make last minute plan again, with just one hour before the movie starts, we're all rushing to get ready. Buying tixs and food and gettin seats. I run all the way to meet Nisa and Fiqah sia. The movie was great. House Bunny hahaha... ok lar but i tink i would enjoyed even more watching Kurosagi. KYAHAHAHHAA!!!

After that we walk2 and eat, and without noticing its almost 7, time to get home. Got home, mom already wakes up. DOOM! She yelled at me. Argh! Shud have reach home before 6!! Nvm. Text Wani saying that i'm not goin for the jln raye with them and i lied saying that i already asked my mum another time but she still say no. I dont want to go actually ahahahahha... evil sia. I have to fork out 2o bucks for the trip u know? I tink i rather save it to fix my cd-rom.

I change my blog song to Alex's song, 'Daisy'. Track 2 of his debut album. Its a ballad song, with powerful yet soft and sweet lyrics. I listened it from WGM when the 'AlShin' couple performs. Change it since Nisa didnt really like the previous song, hahahaha... how can u nt like the song eh? So strange... nice beats wat? Just bcoz Pi didnt get to sing much hahahahhahahaa!!!!

And SS501's song to the new movie featuring Lee Dong Wook and Eugene is out, sweet song. Cant wait to watch the movie, Lee Dong Wook!! WOOOT!!!! John-Hoon's latest single has a korean song to a drama as its soundtrack, haaa.... its been a long time i last heard he sang in his mother language. COME BACK TO KOREA!!! My first korean love... thanks to Goong/Princess Hours.

Domo arigatou`~

hmm... wat else? Ahh... i cant seem to download the HQ version of Kurosagi movie with eng sub. Damn rapidshare!!!

And Anika, do upload the pics ASAP yea? Nisa and I are anxiously waiting for it. To edit. Hahhaha

2008-10-07T00:16:00.003+08:00

Tanjobi Omedetto~!!!!! To Ikuta Toma who turned 24 today!!! YAY!!!! Happy Birthday babe!!! Looking forward to your upcoming drama or movies!!! I want to watch Hana Kimi SP though... i wonder when the sub version will be out?? I cant wait!!! Its gonna be telecast on 12 Oct in Japan!! Kyaaaa... i cant wait to see Nakatsu!! and Nanba senpai.... kyaaa....

I finished Zettai Kareshii in tears few days back, Mokomichi Hayami... its been a while since i last saw you in Gokusen 2 with Bakanishi. The ending was so sad but it was the only way, a robot cant live with a human in normal way isnt? but letting Night go was so sad i teared up so much, as much i want him to end up with the main lead actress, but i cant stand watching Hiro being sad!!! There's no kissing scene that involves Hiro which makes me soooooo happy!!! But Hayami is really funny being Night. Seriously, this drama is worth watching, you will love it! Zettai!!!!!

I just finished watching Stand Up!! drama today. Its an old drama consists 3 main lead that i knew. Though i only knew YamaPi was in it, i didnt know Oguri Shun and Narimiya Hiroki was in it too!! Kyahahahhaa... the drama was so funny sia, Oo, it stars one of Arashi member too! Which one ehhh... i cant remember haha! American Pie Japanese version.. but this drama is not eechi at all though... although there's few butt scenes wahahahahaa... funny sia!! YamaPi look so young and skinny!!! Kyaaaa.... i went "AHhh!! Pi Pi Pi!!!"

I too finished Matsumoto Jun's earlier drama, Kimi Wa Petto. My heart went thump thump seeing Jun!! Haha... seriously bigger reaction rather than i saw YamaPi. The drama was sweet, but not good for hardcore Matsumoto Jun's fans since the kissing scenes was COUNTLESS!! Demo... its a worth it drama, seeing Jun's childish side other than the stubborn yet baka Tsukasa in HanaDan. When the drama starts, i started yellin in delight "I want Matsumoto Jun as a PET!!!" a master and pet relationship turns to love was sweet. 8 Years of age difference between the characters though nt mentioning Jun being shorter than her but kyaaa... i wanna be her!!

Next!! Code Blue!! I might rewatching Kurosagi again. Kyahahahhaaaa!!!!

Wani called earlier and conference between me, Wani, Dayah and Sheila was on. They're persuading me to go for the jln raye on the 17th. I do want to go, but mum says Zettai No des!! Though how many times they told me to try persuade my mum, they dont know my mum like i do!! If i force her to agree on it she might dump chores, scold me, not allowing me to go out on other days for revenge!!! So they told me to lie to my mum, saying i'm taking public transport when actually i'm ridin the mini bus. At first it was a laughing matter but then they really want me to do that, i got annoyed, mad and maybe my trust in them as frends got weaken.

I cant believe they actually asked me to lie to my mum about it. I told them i cant lie to my mum but still they want me to sayin craps 'u can ask forgiveness to ur mum next but this is the last time we're hangin out together as a class!' I went nuts, my body temperature gt high [happens when i got mad] and felt like hung up on them, i kept quiet all the way. Gosh... think bout it! I can lie to anyone, frends, strangers, my bro, my dad but NOT to my mum. I cant lie to her i mean its like betraying ur mum! "Uragi mono!!" u dont lie to the person that gave u life, gave birth to u and raise you up.

After much silence, they ask me to persuade my mum one more time. I just said unwillingly yea. I tink Dayah knws how i feel, Sheila was quiet but Wani sounds joyful making everything felt like a joke. If i lie to mum bout this and who knows i'll meet in a accident in the minibus and unfortunetly i die in the accident???? How am i suppose to ask for forgiveness to my mum next year?? Scary thought isnt? Thats why you can betray anyone but dont betray your mother.

I'm still in thinking whether i should go or not, its not like we couldnt meet each other again. Give me a call or msg and we'll meet. Duh? So what we're seperated after graduation? There's the use of phones, msn, emails!!!

Baka janai?!

AHHH!!! My horoscope today, "One of your newer friendships will hit a snag today, but it will bind you closer." Eh? Its a exact hit?!

2008-10-02T01:20:00.004+08:00

Every year this happens, though its suppose to be a happy occasion, visiting friends and relatives, gettin green packets, askin for forgiveness, eating good things and then relax by your relatives side enjoying long talks over tv shows. But for me, we feel even more lonelier than any other days ever. We felt so left out so much tat it embarrass us tat we hide in our shell we call our home every this season came around.

Relatives? Cuzins? i only knows a few of mine. Even those i call uncles, aunts and cuzins, i sees & talk like once a year for few hours and then we're back to our usual life. Hari Raya is a happy word for everyone around us but for mom, its the season that made her so lonely. She only got her siblings to count on since both of her parents had left her. I dont know how to say this but for me, celebrating this day is somewhat useless? Its Hari Raya for only few hours for us and we're back to usual. We dont have anyone to visits anyway. My grandma and grandpa is already gone, the ones that actually loved and care bout us were gone.

The ones that are still living acts like we dont even exists! Not a call ever was made to us askin how are we ever. Sad isnt? Cuzins? Pahh... i bet i have tons of them on dad's sides, but do they even knows who i am? Who's daughter am i belong to? Why should i go to somewhere that we know we're unwanted?

Family... i only recognize my brother, my mother and my half-hearted father as my family. Visits? I see them everyday! New clothes, foods, cookies, new curtains, tables, chairs... what for? Like i said... they act like we dont even exist!

We're suppose to get home tml, the 2nd day of Raya. By timing, today lah.. but a small mistake could triggers my mom's fragile heart and it happened. Yes, 1st day means visits ur relatives. But when u had to choose a relative that is few miles away and one from outside country that u could see once a year, which u choosed? My aunt made tat mistake in visiting her sis-in-law instead of spending time with my mum, her sister.

She and her husband left my family and her kids in our care for the night as she gt her mother-in-law urgency in 'malam raye'. She promised she'll be back by 6am. She didnt kept the promise. She made us wait till we're bored till noon. Called her, she was at her sis-in-law's place visiting. Mom was furious. Her only siblings that came over this year is only 3. 3 out of 8 only came to see their eldest sister whom they only could see once a year.

The others was fine, since this year they're goin back to their in-laws. Mom got annoyed at her new nephew which she gains as her brother recently gt married to a widow. My new aunt was nice, her son frm her previous marriage is super talkative which ticks mum off while she's already annoyed at my aunt. Since me and bro had been bugin mom askin when we're gettin back to spore, mom decides to pack things up and head back to spore.

Within minutes, we're in the car with my uncle drove us to the custom. Mom's youngest brother, the only one who's not married. Bro and i were definitely happy cuz we're back to our own civilation but i knw mom's heart was torn up. My aunt dont even dare to talk with mom, mom talks to her bro-in-law. I felt bad leavin my closest cuzins behind. Before leavin, we stop by grandma's grave. Its the 3rd Raya since she left us in 2006.

While gettin home, families in various colours were everywhere. How nice i thought. Mom and i loiter around CWP before gettin home. Bro head home first. Got home, i gt a nice suprise! Bro said that dad actually bought me a new hp! He called seconds before we left home for JB on the 29th askin for me. Its rare dad calls home and askin for me. Though the hp is not exactly what i want but as long it could ring, calls, msging, tats enough for me. I dont need hp tat shows off.

At least its slide phone! haha.. i love sliding those phones... Samsung what model again? Cant remember. Why he didnt gt me loud edition? i want tat one! Dad also gave green packet without us askin for one this year. Woah?

At night, strangely dad asks if we want KFC. Woah? Ha.. ppl walks around in long skirts with families and there i was in my mini skirt with my bro to KFC. Mom strangely founds that there's 120 bucks extra in her bank account. Dont know where it comes frm! Good things happens a lil bit today and tats gd to knw.

Special A anime ends at epi 24. YAAADDDDAAAA~~ but Hikari and Takishima finally gt together. YAY!!! Itazura Na Kiss too ends at epi 25 today. Kotoko gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Kotami-chan and Kotoko fights over Irie-kun was damn cute. "I'm gonna marry Papa someday!" while glaring at her mother. Hahhaa... cute sia. Shugo Chara will ends in 3 epis. Haiz... all the good anime are ending. But there's 3 new anime seasons i'm lookin for!! Vampire Knight Season 2, Rosario+Vampire season 2 and Hell Girl season 3 this October!!!!

OMG~!!!!!!! I CANT BELIEVE MY HEAD! Anika!! Remember what i said bout Chiaki senpai in Nodame Cantabile drama?? The guy i said he's so cute and hot??!! I cant believe he's the guy we laughed so much at in the Water Boys movie!!! He's the afro dude!!! And i cant believe it when i remember Nisa featured him before in her blog!!! OMG!! I didnt recognize him at all!! Hiroshi Tamaki. KYAAAAA~~TAMAKI!! I loved that name since i watch Ouran High School Host Club!!!!!!!

This is Sato from Water Boys??!!! No wayyyyy!!!!

This too??? Sato??? Afro???? NOOO WAYY~!!! Gosh i love his hair and face shape in the drama, he's so just hot!

The kissing scene that made me and Nodame herself screaming, "GYYAAAABOOOOO~!!!!!"

Ha, so many long time ago suprises!! From Anikishi Jin to Hiroshi Tamaki!! What else is there??

Anyway my attachment.... ahhhh.... exam results ahhhhhh..... not allowed to go on the 'Jln Raye' on the 17th after hearin we're rentin a mini bus. CD-Rom still stuck... back to the shop?????

2008-09-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

Haaa.... its the first time i'm updating or been into the internet while in Malaysia, right now i'm in my cuzin's house, wow... lucky she got internet. Saved me from crying out loud without internet!!

Today without Nisa, Anika and i went to watch beloved Matsumoto Jun in Hana Yori Dango Final movie!! KYAAA!!!! Jun on big screen, i nearly scream out when he appears on the screen!! Finally today ends my crazyiness over Jun. I hope not, kyahaha... time to concentrate more on Mizushima Hiro and YamaPi then, Zettai Kareshii and Code Blue drama awaits! I also fnished watched Jun's drama Bambino! Kawaii, not much romance though but good for me! But kyaaaa... watching it during fasting month brings ur mouth waters as Jun cooks up the pasta and those desserts.......

I'll be back in Spore by the 2nd day of the festival. I cant wait to hurry home. Kyahaha... my computer is ok now but then, the cd-rom creates trouble lehh... cannot open and i have to install my mp4 software. ARGH! I'm on Japan mania sia... animes, dramas. Korean fever will hit soon after this. Wahahaha~~

So wats happening DBSK, Super Junior, SS501 and FT Island worlds? Keep me updates girl.

And ya.... Slamat Hari Raya to u girls~!!! Luv ya lots lots~ May our friendship lasts for more years after this. Bless great health to u girls~~ Dont eat too much!!! Anika!!! Dont eat too much!!! Watch ur weight babe!!! Hahahaha...

2008-09-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

Wahahhahahaa..... i change the layout again? I kinda dont like the previous one and then found this one.. edit the skin to my own style again, codes kyaa... this one was a lil bit harder to read! But finally got it.

I'm almost done with Hana Yori Dango series and i'm having BIG BIG urge to go and watch the final movie in the cinema, and i would like to watch it before October 1st. Since it would still be fasting time.. so watchin in the afternoon wont hurt isnt?!! Who's with me? I only got Saturday, Sunday and Monday if i want to watch it. Anyone want to watch with me? I browsed the whole internet, i cant find the eng sub version of the movie and i definitely want to see Tsukasa and Tsukushi gettin married!!!! Nisa~! U watch already? If not watch with me? Anika want to watch it too right?

Tml i'll be sending this com to repair, if it got repaired. Ha... i'm havin bad feelin here. Not good at all! I hope everything goes well tml. Phone.. DAD!! I need a new one fast! The final class outing have been set. 17 Oct. 20 bucks each.. aigoo... oh well, Jalan Raya with classmates of ITE, first and the last!

Things on the list:
1. DBSK album [not out in z-degrees.net yet, but i'll wait for it there ONLY]
2. Wonder Girls official single [not out in z-degrees.net yet too, will wait...]
3. Hana Yori Dango Final movie [have have to watch it~]
4. Hair gonna be dyed back to nitec days colour, dark aburn [soon..]
5. Com fixed [shud be tml]
6. New Phone [desperately need a new one... DAD~ u promised me one]
7. Grey jeans [when am i gettin one?]
8. Contact lenses [ya.. when? when?]
9. JDrama marathon [haha... i have lots to catch up~]
10. Anime [new ones, on going ones and rewatching Tsubasa~]

Nisa just noticed Lee Junki. EHHHH??? Never seen him before meh? Tats the guy i went goo gaa bout Iljimae, My Girl, Time Between Dog and Wolf dramas~! That King and Clown movie too. Its the same guy! Or did u not pay attention when i talk bout him? Aigoo... oh well! Congratz! For finding him hot. He is isnt he? Kyaaa....

I got big shock when Anika told me bout that 'AnikiJin' we used to teased Syahirah bout. Wahahhaa.... big secondary sch story sia we had in the bus. Being the cutie Anikishi Jin of Kat-Tun and Meteor Garden of Hana Yori Dango from Fana. Aigoo... why didnt we notice this japan trends years back?!!

2008-09-24T22:26:00.002+08:00

i wont be update till i get this computer fix, it will be hard to contact me thru my hp too since my hp has gone wayyyy out of control, its going nuts. My life currently is hanging onto whatever i have left. Since my internet connection can only be connected for every 30mins so i have to restart the com every now and then but weird thing is... even after 30mins, the pages i've loaded before still can play.. only i cant open new windows and Anika.. i found the usefulness of 'Tabs' wahahahhaaa~

Anika! do contact me whenever if u can, i need to get this com fix as soon as possible coz its been driving me nuts. I cant go to ur blog too. That debug is onto me.

To cure my own crazyness i'm watching Hana Yori Dango. Might be late to catch up for Nisa's pace. HAhaa... i tink i know why Nisa is wayyy in luv with Matsumoto Jun. Coz.. i am too~!!! WAIIIIII~!!! When he winks i go KYAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~~ Then thoughts of Fana always mention if we got watch Meteor Garden since secondary sch days... kyyaaaaa.... F4 ehhh... but!! i watched Jap version! Even better hahhahaaaa.......

DBSK and Wonder Girls' new singles are awesome!! As expected from the best of best idols!!!! I gt their single but i cant download albums and singles for now.. not until i get this computer fix. So until then... i will be out of updatessssss....

2008-09-17T00:05:00.002+08:00

Tan Ding Yuan. Havent heard of him for months after he gone for attachment. He just called me 30mins ago. Its midnight. He call suddenly under private number. Someone hit him in the head. First word coming out from my mouth to him wasnt 'hi' but 'siow? u sick ah?' hahhahaaa...

But chatted with him for the past 30mins was fun. We had a lot of catching up. I like his ans to my qns, "Why u call me all of sudden ah? Late at night somemore.." "I miss u lor.." Wahaha.. i laughed so loud and i had to cough. Ha... pain again sia. Then he asked "why u dont have bf?" i answered, "bf costs money" Gentlemanly he says, "where gt.. bf pays everything wat..." "where gt? never heard it b4" "Really.... chinese guys like tat one... they pay everything unless they really gt no money and the gf helped a bit lor.."

Girls... all the more reason to find chinese bfs~ Tipah~!!! Dump ur bangla guy and search for the white meat one! Wahaha... kiddin' when are we gonna see ur guy anyway? I tried to hook up Pat with Ding Yuan, instead he tease me bout Jasper.. argh! Tat part i can never win against him.

"One day i ask you go out and eat ah... must say yes ok?" awww... how sweet. Nvm, he gt bike, gt car already... i said 'dont want' he insisted and said he'll pay. "CCCCCAAAAANNNNNNNN~"

After long chat, we end with him saying, "k i try go sleep now if i cannot i'll call u again..." someone hit this kid in the head. A sudden call, nt even a msg and wow.. he still has my number after these 2 years!

2008-09-16T20:54:00.004+08:00

Its the 4th day of my worst days. Fever on off at almost every 6hrs. The next hours i was happily laughing around and the next i would be on the floor dead from too much body heart. Being force to eat when i really dont want to. Being force to take those bitter bitter panadols, daily supplements, cough syrups, tons tons tons of tissue being use up. Crawling and spreading my virus all over the house. Maybe this my worse fever cases. Though my temperature wasnt high until i have to shiver all over or above 40 degrees for the record, my energy was being drained too quickly!

Sry to Anika for not seeing her even she came all the way to my house to get her stuff back, i dont want to spread my virus to ya buddy. I took a break from the computer too. My Gokusen drama was put on hold for a while.

I havent been able to sleep well as well. Its been 3 days that i only slept 3hrs everday. I felt restless. Its hot, so i turned on the fan. Its cold, i turned it off. Then its hot again and then cold again. Roll here and there trying to sleep in every corner and position, still no. Thank goodness it happened on mom's day off so, i felt very secured lying down beside mom watchin telly till mornin. Even fell asleep by mum's side.

Flu was next. Though its bearable but blocked nose, maybe thats the reason i cant sleep. Then cough. Gosh.. this is how the phrase of "Swallowing 1000 needles if you lied" feeling. Every swallow kills you, even just ur saliva. Dad was in charge of buying medicines for me. Bro was in charge of getting stuff i asked for. Mom was in charge of my medication timing, forcing me to eat and keeping me company. There's nothing better than sleeping beside your mom. The best feeling!

Just when i thought my fever was gone, it was back right after i partied on my own eating junk foods. Boom... fever back on and got worse.

Thank goodness my mensus came on the same day as my fever, cold. Imagine i have to suffer my condition while fasting.. i tink i'll be dead and have to get off frm fasting for it. my mensus wasnt normal during the first 3 days though. Scary serious....today wahh... thank god, its normal. Shower is like needle poking u all over... thought it could help lose some of body heat but instead cause even higher fever.

Though its the perfect Super Junior idol image now... and we all wanted to Shindong to lose weight to fit in more in Suju, but i kinda miss the round old chubby Shindong.. we all started to love him when he was like tat anyway but lets support the current Shindong now, he went on diet seriously and dont let his effort go to waste. He's cute sia in skinny form..i mean he's very cute before but now... he has the idol look. Kyaa... Shindongie~!!! But wats with the Taemin's haircuts~~!!!!!

DBSK's single, 19 September 2008. 3 Days more. Mv teaser was out. Album cover was out. All 5 of them are super super super HOT. And never though that haircut on Micky really does make him stands out with hotness. Wahahahaha.. i was screamin like mad yelling, 'tats my husband!!!'

DBSK's innocence has dissapears and its sinful to watch DBSK now but you wont be able to resist. Apologies to all parents of fangirls but let us being sinful fangirls.
But why he look sooo much of a girl here?

The best frends.... awwww.....

2008-09-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

An update finally? I wont be able to update much since my computer had gone haywire and according to Anika, its going to the 'hospital' soon enough. I'm fine with it but then... going into one needs money, 'okane' or 'don'. I do have the bucks for it but is it enough or mom's approval is crucial in this one. Asked dad for help, and he's really reluctant to do it.

Anika!! Have you asked your bro bout the price yet? Do contact me after u got to know it coz i have to send this computer for repair as soon as possible! Since i dont know much bout computers, so thanks to Anika for coming to my rescue for a week. Sorry for kidnaping for your hardrive for the week too. I'll return it soon!

Dont know why my computer's internet connection was cut right after i download SP2. Usually, after a reboot, installed SP2, my computer runs just fine but then this time it didnt. Causing me to lose my sleep and stressing over it while i'm having my important exams at the same time. Thank goodness i was able to focus on exam well enough.

Cried bcoz of the computer problem too. Stayed more than 12hrs on the computer just trying to fix it and i lost counts of rebooting the computer itself. Just when i gave up on installing SP2 and tried run the computer on its original base, my itunes and my mp4 cant be installed. The situation is just like rubbing salt into the wound. And.... plus, i cant use the old MSN messenger as well, coz i was suppose to update it to the latest one if i want to sign in. Wat the hell... so phone calls, text msgs and this blog is the only way i could keep contact.

To make it worse, my phone too has gone 'GONE' screen keep running away. Colour fading. Blank screens telling me its time to get new phone. God damn it.. more money needed? Right.. 2 most important things to me is a burden now. Just to add spice to that, i caught a flu bug, how? I dont even know! My fever went up and down and up again. Drainning my energy away.

Gosh... i'm in my worse state. Did i gain some curse or sth???

Computer is in bad state. Phone bad state too. My body too in bad state. ARGHHHH~ I hope i can believe that every good luck comes after bad luck...

So basically i'm in a slump nw...

2008-09-07T18:51:00.002+08:00

Ha.... after 2 and a half hour, i finally gt the new skin up. The orginal one actually has the entry columm very small. I dont like those small entry columms, so i have to edit it, make it bigger~ Got the pic out, made it bigger, edit the border, made it bigger. Change the size of the entry on the codes. Put my own things back. The picture too change the codes...cut here cut there, upload here upload there. Change here change there. Check here check there. Finally!!

I might change the skin again.. hahaha.. ehh..new cute skin has to pop up first though.

2008-09-07T00:05:00.005+08:00

Stumble upon this while browsing for some songs.. hahaha... so cute sia. Hyun Joong!!

Awww... look! Brotherly love... Kim Hyung Joon and Kim Kibum from U-Kiss~! Awwww... great thing is, Hyung Joon look so manly in here rather than his usual youngest of SS501 image. Ahhh... so cute.

awwww...... they do look alike! If they share the same personality, gosh.. it would be a riot!

2008-09-06T18:18:00.002+08:00

Weekend babe~ Sunday is left and i'm down for my first final paper, studied. Got 80% of the notes inside my head and hoping i'll do just well for the paper on Monday. Walau... paper at 3pm and ends at 5pm??! gosh i have to rush home then? or else i'll be late for breaking fast!

Fasting month, September it means diet to all the girls who wants to look good. I mean who doesnt?!! I got scared when i took my weight for NAFA last time and shockingly it turns to be 45kg. YADDDAAA~~~ i want to maintain my 43kg weight.

So i want to get my weight back on stable, grew my hair long and i need to get my fringe fix again. Mom asked me if i want to get my eyelashes done or not. Using fake eyelashes, glued them on like the fake ones does but this one does u permanetly. For 30bucks. I took a while to think and YES!! I WANT IT!!! Mom says it will be pretty and long enough and i wont have to wear mascara! YAY! I want it!!

Mom mention sth bout highlighting ur hair too... those one streak type.. only for 70 cents per streak! Dont know if its the permanet one or clip ons. I want the clips on. But if permanetly sounds good too! I mean just 1 streak darlings... i'll get red, blue, yellow and green up in my hair if i want it!! But thinking bout sch and working later on, its gonna be a lil tougher to tink if i really wanna get it on.

This week i've been sleepin late ahahaa... figures. 10pm till midnight i'll be listening to 98.7fm and laughing my heads off at muttons at midnight! love those guys... tonight dont have leh.. aiyoo..

Ha.. bout McFLY, ehhh... somehow they dont attract me no more. Maybe i'm too stuck into Kpop/Jpop. DBSK's 4th album is coming soon and i heard a preview of it and wow.. its worth waiting seriously. All those months of them in Japan while the korean fans dwell on it, its worth the wait, the new album gonna sound AWESOME. Plus the concept is HOT. Wahahha... the preview i've listened, its Purple Line + more awesome type...

Waiting for Wonder Girls new single. SUJU, they really need new single...aigoo.... But wat happened to SS501? Any updates on them? i need updates on everyone. I've been on anime mode this month.

I watched Snow Buddies and i loved it!!! Those cute lil puppies are to die for!!! Damn they're so cute!!! We Got Married show.. hahahahaa... i'm goin nuts. Hais... HwangBo!!! Ur holding on every Triple S Kim Hyun Joong's fan's dreams. Kya... jealous jealous jealous!!! next epi gonna be even worse eh.. babies...

there's gonna be 3 new couple joining the show! One of the new couple will be HwanHee.. haaa... why not Brian!?!!! Believe it? Hehee.. actually these 3 new couples will be only for special episode hahahhaa...Thanksgiving one i tink. But seriously.. for Triple S sake.. this couple must go away. Its fun to watch them, i love this couple very much but this show is scary!!! Like Solbi said! They could really fall in love in real. Thats scary to tink on the hand it could be nice.. but.. ARRGGGHHHHH!!!

2008-08-31T18:39:00.003+08:00

The last day of the month and the day to eat during the day. Haha... and i'm officially J.E.A.L.O.U.S!!!

Right after watching the latest epi of WGM, finally it came out with subs, thank u so much to the person who subbed it!! She took 8hrs to do it and thank u for ur hard work!! Right after watching epi 22, i'm officially jealous. Haa... i felt like i wanna get married now!! Seeing the InYoung, Solbi, Sinae and especially HwangBo. Kyaaa... jealous.

Triple S must be going nuts at the end of the epi. Not in a bad way though, we certainly loved this couple but yea.. seeing HyunJoong getting a lil peck on the cheek for the photo does drivin HyunJoong's fans nuts.. with jealous not hatred.

I sighed alot and keep saying.."i envy them...."

And ya.. i saw FTI's performance recently, on Friday i tink, i would like to shout to HongKi a lil bit.

"YA!!!!!!!!! WHAT ARE DOING PAINTING UR NAILS BLACK?!! EMO AH?!! UR PANTS!!! I'LL KILL UR COORDINATOR! CUTTING THE PANTS SO HIGH! HONGKI'S A GUY! NOT A GIRL! IF THAT PANTS ON A GIRL, YEA TATS SEXY BUT ON HONGKI? PERVERT OR WAT!!!"

But nevertheless, the performance was awesome, they look good...but HongKi ah.. those nails, please remove the colour sweetie...nail polish are meant for ladies sweetheart..

2008-08-30T16:06:00.002+08:00

Exclusive new photos of Se7en...

Ok we get it!! So hurry up and debut there in US and come back to Korea!!!!!! Lucky Se7en's are waiting for you for over 2 years already and practically we're gettin tired!!!!!

Anyway, i'm late over these boyband thingys so i just watch 2PM's debut mv. Wahahaha.. i love it!! So sexy yet funny at the same time. The song is pretty catchy ya? Waiiii~!!! one of the members named Junsu ahaha... DBSK's Junsu is 10X better looking. I notice bout JYP is that at every music video of their bands, "JYP Introducing sth" is always there. Like Wonder Girls's Irony video, and then So Hot too, "JYP, we're back!" and now 2PM. JYP has a habit.. haha

2008-08-29T00:17:00.002+08:00

Got to know that my Japanese name is really sounds good~

If written as my own name, Kamaruneeza... I'm
Yamashita (under the mountain) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day)
But if written as my full name, Kamaruneeza Bte Kamaruzaman... I'm
山下 Yamashita (under the mountain) 美晴 Miharu (beautiful clear sky)

Either way, i'm YamaPi's lil sister! WAAHHAHAHAA~!!!! Kawaii desho?! No? Hm.. Haha! So, i did searching for others too! Here's the list. Names i type as written and the answers are that.

Lee JinRong
松尾 Matsuo (tail of a pine tree) 涼二 Ryouji (twice refreshing) [Ryouji-kun? Wahh... spectacular!]

Koh Eden
坂本 Sakamoto (book of the hill) 聖人 Masato (sacred person) [Sakamoto? isnt that the condom brand?!!! The thinnest one!! 0.03 thingy! Always in the MRT adverstisments! WAHHAHA!! EDEN!!!!!!!!]

Patricia Tan
猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 三千代 Michiyo (three thousand generations) [WAHAHAHHAHAHAAAA~!!!!!]

Syazwani
猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way) [ANOTHER MONKEY~!!! WANII!!!! WAAHAHAA!!!]

Siti Nur Hidayah
石川 Ishikawa (stone river) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way) [Yea Dayah.. walk ur own way!!!]

Faezah
藤原 Fujiwara (wisteria fields) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day) [Wah, babe.. ur Tatsuya Fujiwara's sis? Haha!!!]

Khairunnisa
川島 Kawashima (river island) 小春 Koharu (little spring time) [Imagine callin her 'Koharu-chan~!!' cute sia..]

Siti Safiah
石川 Ishikawa (stone river) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day) [Dayah's sis ehhh?]

Syafiqah (applies to both, if they shared the same spellin, they do dont they?)
山下 Yamashita (under the mountain) 幸代 Sachiyo (generation of blessing) [Both are my sisters? GONE GONE... everywhere PINK MANIA. Oh! And right.. they will just fit in with the real Yamashita-san, YamaPi.. how great~]

Farhanah (Did i spell her name right? I knew too many Farhanahs and spellin kills me)
千羽 Chiba (thousand feathers) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day)

Other ones...
Lee HyukJae
松尾 Matsuo (tail of a pine tree) 有祐 Yuusuke (have aid) [Yuusuke-kun~!!!!! Prolly the older bro is Jin? Kyaaaa~~~~]

Park Yoochun
猿渡 Saruwatari (monkey on a crossing bridge) 平吉 Heikichi (smooth fortune) [The oldest monkey in the tribe of Pat and Wani. WAHAHAHAHAA~!!!! I like his first name though, he really does have smooth fortune right now..]

Kim HyunJoong
秋本 Akimoto (true autumn) 溌春 Hatsuharu (vigorous spring time) [Love the first name, Hatsuharu-kun~]

Kwon JiYong
石川 Ishikawa (stone river) 涼 Ryou (refreshing) [Dayah's sibling? Diff colour babe.. WHAAHHA!! evil sia..]

So to wrap up, Wani, Pat and Micky belongs to the same tribe of 'Sarus' Wahahhaa!! Dayah ends up with the same family name as Safiah and G-Dragon. Anika, Safiah, Fana and me shares the same first name but from different families. Hyukie with Jin since both their last names are "Lee". HyunJoong with a unique name. I like Jin's first name. Ryouji and GD's Ryou. Eden with the condom name. Wahahhaa... funny sia.

Anyway snap back to reality, final exams are in a week away. 8 Sept and 11 Sept are my final papers, i'm currently preparing for them. I have no time to update myself on the fanmania. Do keep me update girls. Suju, DBSK, SHINee, Wonder Girls and others since you guys have more resources that i have. But animes, yea i'm updated to that. Weird..

I've seen SHINee's new mv. Haha.. i still in the Noona is Pretty era since i find that the new concept doesnt really suits them. Maybe i'm nt used to it just yet but the darlings looked awesome. Key~ Kyaa... but u guys wont beat FTI in good looks, those darlings of mine are uber HOTTIES! Nisa.. wow, ur boyband lists keep growing and wow... i tink i need to catch up fast. So many boybands are coming out and things are totally are out of hands. Headache sia..

This is why i keep still on Suju, FTI, SS501 and DBSK in FIRM.

Fasting month is a week away! Diet.. diet hahahhaa~ I need to lose my weight though according to Aidil i already look lost weight. Oh really? Tats gd news! To him its not.. he wants me to eat more. Siaow?! i still want to look gd in shirts!!

Jin has a good way keeping up with his admirers really. He and the class knows too well that Wani, Me and Dayah totally loved him, so to keep up with our love for him, he develop a habit which me and Wani noticed recently. When he needs to borrow notes or certain help, he'll ask for Wani. When he needs to know sth, where the class is or sth he just needs to know, he'll contacts me thru the phone, msgs. When he can't thru either me or Wani, Dayah is his 3rd choice. Its always this pattern one. Very weird but sweet too. He got into the wrong class bcoz of me. Hehe.. sry darlin hahahaa... at least they didnt laugh at u too hard eh?

Jin ask if we can go to Bintan on Sept holidays with him. Wow! He finally asks us out. I really loved to!!! But.. fasting month one thing, MOM is the biggest and the heaviest obstacle tat i cant never get over with. Ahh... how sia? Will try slowly askin mum..

Anyway last bits... Happy 21st Bday Jas... its been 2 years but damn it ur still in my head! Hope u have a great life.

2008-08-24T00:36:00.003+08:00

Kyaaaa~~ suppose to blog this yesterday but what the heck!!

FT Island's 2nd album was leaked out. Not that i'm suppose to be happy bout. I'm sorry for it but angels, its the only way i can get my hands on your stuff. Not literally, maybe virtually. So maybe i shall say my thanks to the leaker. Every online overseas fan would say this. Those in Korea, do purchase the album and dont do like we do. We do it because we have to!!

So angels darlin's! Sorry yea? But gosh.. i love ur new album!!!!!

FTI's 3rd album in general, first Cheerful Sensibility which i <3s>

After Love mv was HOT! Anika and i went nuts wahahhahahaa!!! Hongki lost weight. Ya! Do eat ya Hongki!! FTI is <3>

oh ya before i forgot. YESUNG SSHI~ HAPPY BDAYYYYYYY~~~!!!!! When we remember SUJU members, its either u or Shindong we forgot to count in. Hehhehee.. sry babe but! We love still!! Yesung Hwaitting~!!! Make us laugh more in future yea!!!!

2008-08-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

Remember that guy from Coffee Prince? The dumb one? He died yesterday from accident!

August 21, 2008: Just two years after the music video that launched his career as one of South Korea’s most popular young actors, Lee Eon died in a motorcycle accident at the age of 27.1 According to reports, Eon collided with a guardrail on an overpass in Seoul and died at the scene.

OMG. Rest in Peace. I was definitely shocked super super shocked. I cant believe it. His neck was broken in the accident. All the more reasons i dont want guys to have bikes. I rather them having cars instead.

2008-08-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

Thought i was recovered so i didnt bring any extra tissues but aigooo... the sickness came back when i encounter with air cons haha. Got up at 5.30am, suprisingly Dayah already woke up too! we got extra lesson this morning. 8 to 11am of BCM. Nothing serious, we'll just have to super super familiar to the formats of letters, memo, minutes of meeting, notice of meeting, report, fax thats it. All formats are ok to me except report. I hope it wont come out for exam later like earlier this year. The earlier badge had it tough!!

Throughout BCM when Pat and Eden arrived was hilarious. Wahaha, them going at each other's throats was funny sia. Accompany Dayah and Eden for the CDP lesson. Then Eden drove us to Tampines Mall for lunch. Eden waited for us while Pat had to pass sth to Roy, we saw our ETP teacher in the staff room with one super hyper lil girl by his side, Dayah and I squel like mad seeing our ETP teacher's super super cute daughter!!!! Prolly around 2 year old. Kyaaaaa~~~ SUPER KAWAII!!!! Played with her for a while before went off to Eden.

Eden got 4 girls around him sia today wherever he goes haaha!!! People watching us girls getting into Eden's car like big stars. At bus stop, there's 3 familiar ppl tat grins. Haha, it was Ayie, Naufal and Wan seeing us drove off. "Bye Bye!!" we wave hahahhaaa~~

Eden drives safely. Woah.. i love Eden's driving! Very smooth and safe unlike Nana's sharp turns and Afiq's super speed. Though i approve the speed but safety first. Eating at KFC, one of Eden's frend saw us and comment, "Woah Eden... surrounded by girls, power sia u.." we laughed like mad. Their frends funny sia, they play "O Ya Pe Ya Som" to get the loser to buy food. Hahhaaa~

"Thanks for the ride Eden!" Wani said. Eden says "No p, next week still got". "We're sure will definitely be coming to school!!!" i smiled. hahahha.. That bloody Jinrong!! Promised to come today but ends up sleeping at home when we called him!!

2008-08-21T14:56:00.005+08:00

OMMMAAAAAA~~~~ Happy Bday~!!!! Its her 42nd bday this year.

Suprisingly, Dad bought a cake for her bday! Its gorgeous! Even my Bday gt KFC celebration. This year dad did well, even with the bday reminders. If i didnt ask for the 10bucks to buy mom's pressie, he wouldnt remember. Aiyoo.. ppl remember his bday and he doesnt remember ours.

A great happy bday to SUJU member, Kim Kibum~!!! Happy 21st! Not let the stupid rumors drowned u~ Those ppl spreading the rumors are dumbass, you never had a single thought of leaving SUJU did you. Stupid ppl, its becoz u didnt get to sing much, ur making up by acting tats it yet ppl misunderstands..

Its been 3 days i got sick and its goin great!~ Haha.. yesterday i was down with fever again. Must be all the air con i had to go through. MRT, Busses, Classrooms, Cafe. Aigoo.. So i decide nt to go sch today so that i could recover at home and its bcoz of mum's bday! I dont want to get home late and didnt get to see her since she gt work today. Mom had to work on her bday.

Dad shud get home early if he wants to celebrate! I bought mum's pressie and had fun with my bro in the same shop. Bro trick me into pulling a shock chewing gum that has electric volts!!! WOW~ Tat totally woke me up!!! I was sick. Wahaha.. i shud bought that and ask Dayah to pull it. Gerenti she wake up very fast wahaha!!!

Yesterday class photo was fun! All girls dolled up for the day. Jin laughed seeing everyone puts makeup. Those never had one, put makeup, those has makeup puts thicker. Jin thinks i never put makeup to sch before! So he was like, "U also put make up ah?" I just laughed, "Of coz!!" For formal pic, i had to sit at last row, last person. I was like, "Last again..." nitec years also the same Hahaha!!

Informal pic, first one Slyvia, Pat, Wani and Me were the only ones that sit and in front row. Ehhhh... the 2nd one we got to squeeze with Jin. The photographer says, "the girl in the middle, plz come forward, ur so small haha" hahaha!!! Jin pulls me in front, laughing. Ya i was the small girl that the guy mentioned! We didnt go for CDN but BCM we did but never concentrate, i was sick. My head hurts. Teacher was dissapointed coz we didnt do his work. But cher.. we got all the formulas! Still u know how teacher feels when he saw his students slacking... sry cher..

Ais, Me, Wani, Pat, Jin, Slvia, Bear2 had fun talking and taking pics. Wahahhaa... funny sia! Ais said, "Niza.. jom ah, aku date kau ah.. kau dekat, jom gi dating jom.." i replied, "Tkpe lah.." then Wani laughed like hell saying, "hahaha!! Kene reject!!!" hahaha.. Ais continue, "Kalau Jin ajak kau kluar date?" i replied, "Tat one dh confirm aku kluar!!" hahhahaaa. Then we chat bout our fanatics. Aidil says, "I'm in love with Selena Gomez" Wahahhahaa!!!!!!!! Ais, "My wife, Fiona Xie.." Wani shook her head, seeing them has their idols as hp wallpapers. "gile sak korang..nasib niza tk mcm krg" I replied, "ehh? Aku pon.." showing her my hp wallpaper, Kim HyunJoong! Wahhahahahaaa~~~

Watched fatal frame game yesterday.. wahhhh... fun and scary sia!!! annnndddd i found this!

Jaejae~! WOAH!!

2008-08-19T15:44:00.002+08:00

Get ready to sigh with big big agony...

According to the latest notice by the PDs of “We Got Married” which is pretty advanced this afternoon, they have announced that the show would be cancelled again this weekend due to the Beijing Olympics Men’s handball final. They will inform if there is a turn of events. More agony ahead for viewers.

3 weeks without 'We Got Married' show in agony man~!!!!! AARGGGHHHH~!! Why does Olympic have to come in right now! I want to see HyunJoong!!!!

Caught a flu from Dayah by sharing the same spoon. I forgot that she hasnt recovered from her cold and it passed to me. Started yesterday night and its gettin worse by time. Tommorow we got our class graduation photo taking, aigoooo~!!! I need to look my best tml and i'm sick!!!!

Mom's bday in 3 days and i almost forgot and i havent collect the money for her pressie!! Thank goodness i know what to buy for mom already. She could use it and i could borrow it as well! Hehe.. killing 2 birds with one stone.

I need to get at least half better by tml. Any fast remedies? Panadols wont work on me. Somehow my imune system doesnt work with panadols that fast.

Girls... are you guys still up for the makeover thing or not? Do tell me quick and confirm the day you guys wanna go. By end of August lehhh~!!!!!

2008-08-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

As in Anika's blog, this is mine! Hey!! I'm not a heartbreaker!!! As like hers, i'll bold what says true bout me!

GEMINI WOMAN
A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to domany things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with theword "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time.

Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky inlove. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your badside at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick witperson and learn new things very fast.

She can see your projects and she cangive you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes andmany moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants tomeet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend.She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. [WHAT?!!! this is why we're Geminians are labeled as natural fliter!!] Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor,so her love life can be complex or a mess.

She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect aprompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multipleideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow. She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real giftedlinguistic. [I cant speak many languages yet but most of the teachers i met says i actually can communicate language with a perfect accent! Example, recently, Mr Aw realise when i talk and read, i turned into different person, proves? Those who were at my presentation. Its still weird to me how i get that accent whenever or whatever language i tried to talk into]

If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer.Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always bebeside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walkside by side with her, together and equally.

2008-08-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

Its midnight! And i'm not in bed yet still who cares!!! Anyway... EDEN!! Happy Bday!!! Ur finally 19th and welcome to the old club~ Wani, Jin! U both are next!!! We're no longer 18 so no need to be stuck in those sweet 18 year old days... It was fun while it last. We're adults now.. no longer teenager. Gosh.. how come being adult is scary instead of fun? No wonder.....

These 3 weeks had been weird, i've been skipping school and classes alot. Scarily to think that my exams are coming up and my attendance is goin bad. Kyaa... all bcoz of Wani. Aigoo... today Dayah really make us mad. Promised time was at 12 noon to finish our ETP project but she ends up being late and we're already in class at 3pm.

Well Dayah's reason is good enough but Wani and I are a lil bit upset coz since the start of the project, its always be either me or Wani doing most of the project. Though she did help but it wasnt alot. Project 3 is saved by Nana as she did like 90% of the project, we got to get along with her just fine today doing the project. Thanks Nana, if u were this helpful in the past, our friendship wouldnt be distant as it now.

Wani even thinks that Nana were more helpful than Dayah. Basically i agree, she did more than Dayah. And plus, waking up Dayah? Its one BIG chore we got stuck into. Waking her up is like our job already, we're her alarm clocks, boyfriend, mother and everything! Honestly, i'm gettin tired of it already.. but since i understand her situation, being a friend, i'm willing to be her alarm clock. I'm already Wani's personal secretary! I'm working 2 jobs here... no PAY one.

Currently my habit is rewatching all the anime i loved. Though there's lots more anime waiting to be watch, i'm rewatching the ones i already watch. Making it like 3 or 4 times i'm rewatching the same anime i watched before. Gakuen Alice, NANA, Ghost Hunt, Bloood+, Tsubasa Chronicles, Seto No Hanayome, Sumomo Momomo and Ouran Host Club are some of them. Its like i never get tired of them! Especially Ouran! Kya... i'm in love with Tamaki senpai's voice!

He's the same voice actor that acts as Light Yagami in Death Note. He won notable awards for it. I love watching series with his voice in it. Currently, he acts as Death The Kid in Soul Eater. Hehe.. he always get the funny, silly sweet characters. He was also the voice of Zero and his twin in Vampire Knight!! And in Rental Magica too! As Fin with the cats! and in Gakuen Alice he was Noda Sensei, teacher that time trips hahahhaa... love that guy!! His voice makes u love whatever character he's in! His voice got that some kind of charm!

And i kinda got into writting fic again. I tink my english had improve alot since the previous fics. Though storyline.. i havent matured yet. Aigooo.....

2008-08-08T14:46:00.004+08:00

Today shud be the best FengShui in chinese history ahaha... all the 8 are in today. I read newspaper yesterday that lots of babies are being born today too. Not the orginal way but the surgery types. Gosh.. taking ur babies out when its not time they're out just because u want them to have their birthdate as 08.080.8.

HanKyung shud be on tv today!!! As a torch bearer, he shud appear on the tv at least once right? 8pm today..

I found these few days ago but forgt to post it. KYAAA~ I was in the same team with HwangBo and Sinae when HyunJoong took his top off on We Got Married epi 20. We were screaming in joy!!! He's been working out~ HyunJoongie~~~

He winked~ He winked~~~!!!!!!!!

Pajama Party mv was out few days ago too and i went crazy over Hyukie. He look so cute~!!!!! When he raps, is it me or he's being sexy? Whatever it is.. its workin'! I went nuts!!!

2008-08-06T19:52:00.002+08:00

Kyaa~~ Today was fun! Got to school filling to our tempations, Wani and I bought Old Chang Kee. Wahahha... long time never eat tat sia. CDN class was boring, though we have to continue studying. Ms Lee refer Nana as 'Farah' was funny.

Pat arrive and we accompany her to eat. Saw DingYuan today, wahh... i havent seen him since like months ago!! He's doing good. Still short, prolly came to school to visit his frends. BCM class was funny. Wani and I did our work, Ais and Ayie sat at our place to do the work together since they dont know how to do. Then Ais keep talking distracting me from doing my work.

They joke around, we call each other 'shit' in malay. 'Taik' which turns our to be hilarious. Ais asked me for a date. Then Ayie said he wants to date me. I said i dont want both but him, i pointed to JinRong. Ais told Jin, "Jin.. Niza wants to ask you out.." I was already like laughing like mad already. Jin replied, "Ya sure can... Saturday?" Wahaha! Then Ayie and Ais make a big fuss over it, "oh look look! look! she blushed!" loudly. Jin laughed. Jin told me that Jaejoong had surgery on his nose and eyes. I thought it was a rumor, he told me it was real since his frend showed him the before and after pic. Woah? Jae? surgery? no wayy... he suffered poverty! Where he got money to go surgery before debut?

Eden and Pat planned on going to Batam on the 16th. But wait! Wani told them we're celebrating Eden's and Wani's Bday together at Swensen. But They said, celebrate at Batam ah! Wani can go but me?!! Woi~!!! Forgot me ah!!! How can i ask mom to allow me to go Batam with frends for the day. Sian.. sian.. But a day outing with them to Batam could be fun! Hehe.. date with Jin. Wahahaa...

2008-08-05T20:08:00.004+08:00

Haha!!! Havent been update since forever!! Lazy mah....these 2 weeks, i skipped school alot sia. Wani never go, i never go. Sian.. Today was CDN CA1 die die die.. although its only 30%, Ms Lee gonna be furious when marking the paper since no one take this paper seriously when we've done our practical test carefully coz that consist of 70%. So do i, i stare at blank spaces, leave out qns and basically writting nonsence. I didnt even study for the test, i only flipped thru the book in the train otw to school this morning. Even that i didnt focus as 80% songs goes thru in my head instead.

Today also, i skipped ETP class and we're 2 weeks away from the big presentation. Still slacking away and its the final term and still slacking away. Gosh, this head of mine doesnt sense any alert of bad future!!! When i thought bout it then i went nuts. Stoopid right...

Today we got our makeover photos! Siannn.... i thought Pat took one photo of us group with me in it but no one took it. They thought i took it. So they all ended with group photos of themselves 4 while i have all 6 pics of myself. Honestly, i felt bitter. We go there together, we took together but when the pics came out it look like we did it seperately. Sad story... i didnt even get the chance to take pic with Jin on that day and i didnt bought the group photo. Basically, still my fault ah for not buying one... aigoo...

Took my photo home and show to mom. She liked it. She took my photos and put in envelope saying that she's gonna show to her frends. Her frends wanted to see the pics. Kyaa... mom showing me off lol! So these are the 6 photos i got. They were edited when i got them.

Pat and Slyvia and Wani chose this pic for me. They said i looked very natural and sweet. Ya! i liked it too... but wait.. don't i look pregnant?!!! The boys loved this pic too!

Mom says my eyes looked weird in this one and she asks why i did my eyes like tat.. ehh? Like wat?!!

This one is chosen by Jin and loved by Eden. Wani too!

This one was picked last. If i known, i'd replace this one with the group photo.. aigooo~

This one too chosen by Jin. There's another version to this pic, Eden picked the other one but Jin says this one is better since the curve can be seen a lil bit at the back. This is where they 'fought' and Pat called them both 'perverts' Kyahahahahhaa~~ Personally i liked this one too~

This one was picked out by Wani.

Basically all pics are chosen by them as i cant make my decisions, i trust their taste and instincts hahaa... so the pics is out, girls~!! Are we gonna do it? Do tell me quick! Since i'm going for another 2 more rounds sia.. one on Wani's Bday and later maybe on Mom's Bday. Goshy~

2008-07-25T11:32:00.002+08:00

i shoud have trust my own instincts. I got up weirdly very tired at 6.30. Reluctantly, i got ready for school. Usual thing happens, reachin City Hall, waited a couple for train before msging Wani. But then.. she didnt reply. Nvm, wait a lil more.. i got worried. She usually replies within 5mins but today? I gave her a call just in case she didnt hear her msg tone. Didnt pick up. Nvm.. 2nd call. Same thing, i kept calling, she didnt pick up. I got super worried. Called Dayah.. she also didnt pick up and i already knows she still sleepin. I guess Wani too.

I was very very very annoyed, i barely gt over the 50mins incident and this happened. I got upset over the 50mins incident bcoz Wani bluntly keep saying it wasnt her fault that they were late. At least when u come with them.. share the blame? Just say sorry to me and i'll be good as new but she keep on saying, 'bukan salah aku! bukan aku yg janji ehh..' coz when they arrive, i gave one big smile. But that smile could tell someone, i'm very upset. When i looked up, all of them were behind Wani smiled very hard afraid that i blow up. Dayah keep distance at Wani's side. Since Wani is the closest, so called i put the blame on her and ask why's shes that late. But she replied that way. Not her fault! Not her fault! She said. If u were me? How would u feel? If u were her? How would u reply? I tink if she become the representative saying 'sorry we're so late' nicely smiled, i tink it would end there. Isnt better? Rather than "blame them! blame them!" since ur invovled, it would hurt to say, "SORRY"

Wani msg at 9.47am. I got back home. I took train back home, sitting like a homeless kid in train, ppl staring. I was annoyed. Msg Pat, she replied once and no more.. she went back to sleep i guess. Msg Nisa, she didnt reply, still sleepin i tink. I got no one! I want to go CP to cool down. Its still early. I bought Nasi Lemak and walk super slowly home. Talk to myself! Its better!

Wani's msg to me doesnt feel like she's responsible. She just msg, "Niza sowie aku baru bgn" thats it. To me, she didnt care that i actually sat there at City Hall for 20mins, callin her, waiting for her. She didnt even bother to call me up to say sorry. I heck the care didnt reply.

I'm tired.. very tired.. maybe next time i should NOT be punctual at all. Everytime i'm being punctual, i ends up waiting for people to arrive. Promised time and arrival time kills me. I hate me for being punctual.

Let them wait for me for 1hr without me tellin them next time then! Let them stand there for 1hr, sat there for 20mins without any way to contact me at all. Lets see how they feel about that. Next time say meet 9am. I said ok, i arrive at 10am. See how they feel and i wont say sorry, i just say "train's fault"

2008-07-24T22:55:00.007+08:00

Maybe a month? Almost... Hyukie! GOMENASAI~~ i didnt keep up with his updates since i laid my eyes on HyunJoong. But darlin' ur pics still have the best impact on me. He still make me laugh, smile and goes 'Kyaaaa~'

HYUKIE MODE UNLEASED
Sukira moments.. i'm dyin~

This one just killed me~

Wahahahhaa~!!!! The pullin-pants-off pranks. Poor Hyukie, but seeing for the first time, i was literally on the bed laughing like mad!!!

EunHae~!

Oppa~!! Lol!! What show is this?

Give a kiss~

Keep eatin! Lol Shindong pushing away Shinee and then hit Hyukie on the head!!

Full House episode 12. Wahhahahahahaaa~!!! i remember laughing like Siwon when Hyukie came out like tat!

EunHae <3

This natural look on him.. those puppy eyes, those messy hair.. that Hyukie, love <3~~~

U shud be callin me more often so i wont run to HyunJoong~ i'll be callin n waitin!

Aww... kawaii~

HYUKIE~~~ Wahahhahaaaa...

Somehow their expressions were funny ahahahahahaa~

AWWWWW~~

He's tryin to look seductive although it came out cute! KYAAAA~

he's tryin his best ok?!

He knows i loved Stitch aye? Nw i'm jealous of Stitch!

Yesungie~ u did tat? I go for a makeover and he goes one too! hahahhaaaa

How pretty.. hahahaaa~

Ohh.... i made a korean frend today! Brian. A korean livin in US. He's cute! He's 22, he's Hyukie, Micky and HyunJoong's age? Ohh~ time difference, 12hrs!! ouch.. he said this line and i laughed so much. "We're koreans are always on impatient period, trust me" Wahahhaa... Brian sshi~!!!